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It’s Finally Goodbye To My House (or Closing This Chapter)

Tomorrow, I turn in the keys to my house. I still think I can’t totally believe that because it feels like this move has taken forever. But it’s finally the end of the month and the end of my time renting this house. I’ve been sad about saying goodbye to this house for a while, but I think I’ve finally moved past that feeling and now I just feel like I’m leaving a space and not saying goodbye to my home. As things have been moved out of the space, it has felt less and less like it was mine, so that helps with the feelings.

I still can’t believe I lived there for over 12 years. Almost a third of my lifetime. The entire time I have written this blog has been while living there. I have had so many different jobs while living there, and working from home started for me there. I survived a pandemic in that tiny home. I have made some amazing memories and have had some really sad ones there. I am glad to be leaving behind some ghosts of sad memories there, but I also know that those sad moments have made me who I am today.

Finding that house was honestly such luck for me. Before moving there, I was living in a 2 bedroom apartment and had gone through multiple roommates. There were times I had no roommates and the apartment was so expensive to have just to myself. But I always ended up finding new roommates and making it work. But when another roommate told me they were moving out, I knew I needed to find a new place and couldn’t keep just finding new people every year or so. But it wasn’t easy to find a place in my budget in my preferred area. Or if I did find a place, there was something really wrong with it. But one day, I found my house and it was cheaper than anything else. It turned out they had a rent special for one amount for 6 months and a slightly higher amount (but still within my budget) for the next 6 months. I asked if we could split the difference and keep the rent the same for the year, but the landlord said no. But that worked to my advantage because he never raised the rent for the second 6 months.

And because it was a rent-stabilized building, my landlord was very restricted in how much he could raise the rent. He never raised it for the first few years I lived there. I don’t know if he didn’t bother or just forgot. But even when he was raising the rent each year, it could only go up 3%. The last month I paid rent was only $239 more than what I was paying when I moved in. I know that it was a cheap rental. Most places in my neighborhood went for 2 or 3 times the price. I always said I couldn’t afford to leave until I bought a place. And it’s crazy to think that is exactly how it happened even if the timing wasn’t exactly what I planned for.

I had been looking at condos casually for several years. But when we found out my landlord was selling, things went into high gear and we got serious about condo hunting. And I honestly feel like somehow this is exactly how it was supposed to happen. I don’t know if we would have looked at or considered this condo years ago. I was in a different place then and I was a different person. My condo might have been too overwhelming or too much for me before. And while I do feel a bit overwhelmed, I know I can turn this space into a home and I’m not worried about taking my time with it.

I feel ready now to be moving on from the house I loved so much. That place was where I grew so much and really came into my own. I wasn’t sure of who I was and I was a bit lost when I first moved in there. But I rebuilt my life while living there. My life isn’t perfect and not necessarily where I thought I would be now, but it’s my life and I’m happy with things. And I am so grateful that I have this amazing new home to continue to build my life and my future.

I will always be grateful for my tiny home for 12 years. I learned so much while living there. I learned how to be much more independent and that I could live alone and not feel lonely (this doesn’t count when I felt very lonely during the pandemic). I learned how to really create a home and a space that is mine and makes me happy. I built a life in LA that I didn’t have before and I didn’t let others hold me back or always allow fear to stop me from going for what I wanted or asking for what I deserved.

Thank you to my house for being a home for so long. The 12 years there have been amazing and I know that I will take the lessons I learned there for the rest of my life. I know that when they finally tear down the houses (which we know is the new landlord’s plan), I will be very upset to see that home gone forever. But I hope that someone else can live there before that happens so they can experience that magical place just like I did.

Some Positives About My Move (or Not Just Focusing On The Stress)

I feel like for the most part since I started to move my things to the condo I have really only written about the negative things such as the stress. And I’m not going to deny that the past few weeks have been extremely stressful and that a lot of it is my fault. I did a pretty bad job with planning my move and I underestimated how poorly I was organizing things. Maybe I won’t move again for a long time, but I hope I learned my lessons and I won’t make the same mistakes. I think feeling like I could move a majority of the stuff on my own was a very optimistic idea that was poorly executed because of my schedule.

And yes, the stress and other negative things really sucked. But I wanted to do a post that focuses on the things I’m so happy about now that I’m almost moved into my new place.

First, the obvious one is that I have a much bigger place that has so many upgrades compared to my last place. I used to live in a house that was 400 square feet and over 100 years old. I didn’t have a lot of space and I didn’t have a lot of things that most people probably feel are almost standard things to have these days. I didn’t have a dishwasher. My water heater was pretty small and had issues maintaining the temperature I set it to. The insulation in the house was non-existent and I had extreme temperatures year-round inside.

And now, I have all new appliances. I have a dishwasher and my own washer and dryer (doing laundry on a random weekday felt like such a luxury since the ones I shared at my old place were not cheap to use). While I do have central a/c and heat now, I haven’t turned on the thermostat because the temperature inside has been pretty consistent no matter what it is like outside. I also have better lighting inside my new place and I feel like I’m not always having to turn on every light in order to do things.

And the space I have is a huge benefit too! It is weird to see my furniture look ridiculously tiny in the new place, but I will be getting some new pieces to help fill out the space a bit. My kitchen isn’t big, but I have probably triple the counters I used to have (maybe more than triple). We got rid of some cabinets in the renovation, but there are still so many more cabinets than I had before. I can’t reach the top shelves without a little step stool, but I haven’t had to use the higher shelves yet because I barely have filled the lower ones.

I also love having office space. Right now, things are a bit unorganized because I will be buying some new furniture for this room so things might stay in boxes for a little while longer. But I have my desk pretty much set up and I love having a separate space to work from so I don’t feel like I’m always in my workspace all day long. And in my old setup, my desk faced a wall in my living room so I didn’t have a nice view. I just saw a calendar on the wall behind my computer when I looked up. But now, I have a view of the courtyard from my desk.

I do see everyone as they come and go because I have a view of the main gate, so that’s a bit distracting at times. But it’s also fun since I haven’t had a chance to meet all my new neighbors yet.

And my new neighbors are another positive. At my old place, there were only 8 units and we all knew each other pretty well. We helped each other out and looked out for everyone if things seemed off. Everyone at my old place knew I was moving and they all were offering to help me however they could. I know having a situation like that is very unusual and I never lived somewhere where I was close to all my neighbors. But in the new place, everyone I’ve met has been just as amazing. The neighbors on either side of my place have been so kind, especially since the renovation wasn’t quiet and they had to deal with the noise. And when I’ve needed help with anything, they have offered it without hesitation. And everyone else I’ve met so far has been so welcoming and really seemed like they wanted to get to know me, not just meeting me to be polite. This isn’t that big of a building (it’s under 40 units), but it’s bigger than my last place and I know it will take time to meet everyone. But I’m glad that the people I’ve met so far have all been really great.

And I think the biggest positive about my move and the new place is that this is my place. I’m not renting and have to worry about what my landlord might do. Ever since I knew my last place was being sold, I was worried about us getting eviction notices. I also couldn’t do all the things I wanted to do to the place since it wasn’t mine. I had to ask permission for things like having my a/c unit in the window or wanting to remove a screen from a window. But now, while I can’t really change the outside walls since it is a shared building, I have the freedom to do what I want to this place. The renovation already has turned it into the perfect place for me. And I have more plans for how I’m going to make this place really mine and I can’t wait to see how it looks when I have everything figured out.

The stress of this move has been brutal and I really didn’t think it would be this bad. But I know it’s worth it. I’m so happy with my new home and what I have already created in this place. And this is just the beginning and I know so many good things will be coming my way.

Random Days Of Sickness (or I Don’t Know What Caused This)

I’ve clearly been going through a lot of stress lately, and I know stress can do crazy things to your body. I haven’t been sleeping well, my eating habits are all over the place, and I’m just having anxiety all the time. And that’s outside of the physical issues I’m having connected to moving such as the pain from lifting so much.

And I knew there was a risk of all this stress getting me sick, but you can’t really predict how and when it might happen. But I got pretty sick yesterday and I have no idea if it’s connected to stress or if I got something like food poisoning. Being sick is never fun, but it’s worse when you have so much you have to do and you aren’t really in a place where you know where everything is.

I spent the night before just feeling rotten. This was different from how I feel each month and I just couldn’t get comfortable in bed. I’m glad I wasn’t scheduled for a workout that day so I could have a bit of a lazy morning. And I tried to just be gentle with myself during the day. I had to work and move stuff from my old place, but I was taking my time with things. I also moved around my place while working to be as comfortable as possible. I’m not really set up to work from my couch right now, but I tried to work there so I could stretch out. I also spent some time working from my bed. I know I’m lucky that I’m able to do this since I work from home. If I was someone who had to go into an office I would have had to call in sick.

I’m hoping that this bug or stress sickness will be done now. By the end of the day, I was still feeling a bit off, but significantly better than how I was in the morning. I know that when I get bugs like this it can take a few days to feel fully better. I usually have a few days of uneasiness or being off-balanced.

I know this is a shorter post than what I normally do, but I’m still trying to feel better and I have a lot I need to get done today. I know I’ve said this so many times, but I just can’t wait until the move is done so I can get this stress out of my life. I’m almost there, but I still have a few things I need to do so I can officially say I’m no longer in the process of moving.

More Selling And Donating (or It Really Doesn’t Feel Like My Old Place Anymore)

I’ve been working on clearing out my old place for what seems like forever now. I started trying to sell things online as soon as I knew I was going to be moving. Some things were easy to sell and other things felt like they took forever to get people to say they wanted them. And I wasn’t selling things to necessarily make a profit. I was offering things for crazy low prices and didn’t always take the money because I wanted things to go to a good home. But for some reason, I struggled to get some of the things sold that I thought would go quickly.

And as my time with my old place got closer to the end, I knew I needed to pick up the pace on getting things out of my home. I started listing them for free to friends (or friends of friends) to get things out. Again, I wasn’t trying to make a profit, I just needed things gone because I didn’t have another way to get them out of my place. And I couldn’t leave them because my landlord would charge me an extremely high disposal price (or at least I’m assuming he would). I finally found homes for most of the things and for everything else I was able to coordinate with Habitat for Humanity to pick them up as a donation.

And by some crazy luck, I was able to arrange for all of the pickups of these last few big items to all be on Saturday within a 4-hour timeframe. It worked out really well for me because I could work on cleaning up more as I was waiting for people to arrive. I also have some things that still need to be thrown out and are supposed to be picked up by bulk trash, but since that pickup isn’t until the end of the week I’ve been keeping things in one area of my house until it’s closer to the pickup day. So I won’t fully clean the old place until one of the last days I have the keys, but I was able to get a lot of cleaning done as things were being picked up and rooms were starting to clear out.

I am happy that I found some people who could really use what I needed to get rid of. Everything was in pretty good condition but they were things I just didn’t need anymore. For example, my fridge isn’t new but it’s never had any issues. But it wouldn’t fit in the correct space in my new place so I needed to sell it. A friend of mine just had a fridge break on them so this worked out perfectly! Another friend has a friend who is a single mom and needed some new storage solutions. They took my bookcase, pantry storage, and a few other things that will work out perfectly for their kids. Seeing things leave and my home clear out is sad, but it’s less sad when I know that everyone who took them is really excited about having these things.

Almost everything left in my old place is now in one spot in my living room and most of them are things that are bulky and will just be a specific car trip to get them (such as my vacuum and ladder). But it really looks empty in my old place now.

It’s so weird how the space looks nothing like the home I lived in for 12 years anymore. The rooms don’t feel the same size or shape and things just don’t feel like it’s what I’m used to. I guess this shows how much art, furniture, and other decor can really make or break a space.

I’ve only got a few more days before I give my keys to my landlord and I say my final goodbye to this place. But I feel like I already said goodbye to it being my home when my things were moved. Now, it’s just a shell of the home I lived in.

And Even More Painful Workouts (or My First Week Working Out From My New Place)

This past week of workouts was even tougher on me than the week before. I had pain and nausea and I was moving even more stuff every day after work so I felt like I was double workouts almost every day. I also felt a little bit thrown off in my routine because I was sleeping and essentially living in the condo, but not all my things were unpacked so I felt like I was always trying to find things. But I made it work.

Monday’s workout was a 2 group class, which is unusual for me but I knew I could do it. I was expecting my pain and nausea to be worse for that workout, but I think the stress of having movers come the day before might have thrown things off for me. But I was sore from all the boxes I had moved the day before and a bit out of sorts because Sunday night was the first night I had slept at the condo.

For the workouts in April, not only are they all a mix of endurance, strength, and power but the workouts repeat during the month. And now that we are in the second half of the month we are repeating the workouts we did in the first half. But because of how the month went, this workout was one that I had not done before.

For cardio, it was different from what we normally do. We don’t usually have long base paces in our blocks, but this time we did for the first block to set up what we would do after them. So in the first block, we had a 3-minute base pace to start and then a 2-minute push pace and a 1-minute all-out. We had a minute to recover before doing the same pattern but we had a 2-minute base, 1-minute push, and 45-second all-out. And to end the block we had a 1-minute base, 30-second push, and 30-second all-out. And for the second block, we only focused on the all-outs. We had a 1-minute, 45-second, 2 rounds of a 30-second, 45-second, and 1-minute all-out in that block. And between each all-out, we had 45-seconds to recover.

On the floor, we also had 2 blocks and the first block also had a bit of rowing in it. We started the first block with 3 rounds of 350-meter rows and between each row, we had lateral hops. For the rows, we were supposed to focus on strength rowing which meant having fewer strokes per minute. And each time, we were supposed to decrease the strokes more. After the 3 rows, we had mini-band work for the rest of the block. We had mini-band deadlifts to low rows, mini-band bird dogs, and mini-band toe reaches. And in the second block, we had plank blastoffs, shoulder presses, and deadlifts. For the shoulder presses and deadlifts I had to go lighter than I wanted to because I was sore from moving, which was a bit frustrating. I felt like I had done really well for most of the workout and it wasn’t fun to realize I had to take it easy at the end but I know if I hadn’t done that it would have been worse for me.

Wednesday’s workout was another one that I didn’t do in the first half of the month. I was feeling a bit better than I was on Monday when I got to the workout, but things hit me hard right as we were starting the class and I was feeling very nauseous. I have only had to leave once during a class to get sick (although I did return to the class after to finish it), and I was worried that I would have to do that again for this class.

For cardio, we were doing things at our own pace for the entire time. It was 1 block of work with decreasing inclines. We started at the highest incline and had a .1 mile (.4 miles for me) interval. Then we had a .1 or .4 mile walking recovery. All the recoveries were the same, but as the incline went down the distance went up. Because of how high we were supposed to be with the inclines, I was above my all-out resistance level for all the non-recovery intervals. That plus how nauseous I felt made this workout a real struggle.

On the rower, we started with a 500-meter row but we were supposed to be at a base pace row so we didn’t burn ourselves out. Then we had 5 rounds of a 100-meter row with squats and jumping jacks between each row. I didn’t do the jumping jacks, but I did do extra squats to make up for that. We were supposed to go all-out for each of the 100-meter rows and allow ourselves to recover so we could continue pushing as hard as we could, and I really tried. I know I didn’t do the best I could do if I was feeling ok. But I feel like I did the best I could do considering the situation.

And on the floor, we had 2 blocks. The first one was on our own and the second was timed out. In the first block, we started with a goblet squat. We were supposed to go heavy and then rest after doing those reps before moving on to the next part. When we were ready, we had 3 back to back shoulder movements. We had front raises, lateral raises, and hip hinge reverse flys. Because of how many reps we were supposed to do in a row, we were told to go light with the weights. And I definitely did. I usually would use 12 or 15-pound weights, but I started with 10 pounds and had to go down to 8 pounds. It was still very tough and my shoulders were really feeling it. And for the second block, we had rounds of neutral half thrusters and burpees. We always did the thrusters for 30-seconds and the burpees were either 20-seconds, 40-seconds, or 1-minute. And between each exercise, we only had 15-seconds of rest. It was only 5 minutes of work, but it was one of the hardest things!

Thursday’s workout was the first of the repeating ones that I had done before and I was interested to see how I would do this time. I knew that I couldn’t really compare how I did before to this time since I was still feeling nauseous, but I still wanted to see how I was feeling since I knew how it felt the first time.

This was a repeat of the “Construct or Deconstruct” workout we did on April 6th. Each section of the room had 3 blocks. In the first block, we did things in one order. In the second block, we did them in the opposite order. And in the last block, we got to decide which of the previous ones we wanted to repeat. And every block was 4 1-minute intervals.

For cardio, the first block had a 1-minute base pace, 1-minute between our base and push, 1-minute push pace, and 1-minute all-out. The second block started with the all-out and ended with the base pace. And for the last block, I repeated the second block again so I ended with the base pace.

For the rower, it was the same idea as cardio. But doing different paces is always tough so I knew I would just have to try and see if I could make small changes to my wattage on the rower. For the last block, I started with the base row and went up since I knew I could control that a bit more. I didn’t get a huge change in the wattage, but I did see a difference from one minute to the next which was important to me.

And on the floor, the first block had a seated torso rotation, alternating shoulder presses, squats, and squats to upward rotations. For the last block repeated the first block again since I was already sitting on the ground from ending the second block with the torso rotations and it was easier for me to stay seated instead of getting up and down.

And Friday’s workout was another one that I had done in the first half of the month. I was starting to feel better by this workout and I didn’t move as much stuff on Thursday evening, so I feel like this was my best class of the week even though it wasn’t the best that I know I could do if I was feeling great.

We had 2 blocks for cardio and in each block, we had 3 intervals of a push to a base pace and a 1-minute all-out at the end. In the first block, all the base paces were 1-minute and the push paces started at 1-minute and went down 45 seconds each time. And in the second block, all the push paces were 1-minute and the base paces were the ones that changed. Because I wasn’t doing anything too crazy, I didn’t notice a huge difference in the two blocks for how they felt for me, but I was trying.

On the rower, we also had 2 blocks. The first block started with a 250-meter row with medicine ball jumping jacks after. I did the medicine ball exercise as squats to overhead raises. And each time we got back on the rower we decreased the row by 50 meters. And the second block always had 150-meter rows and the medicine ball exercise changed how many reps we did each time. The exercise was supposed to be front press power jacks, but I did them as squats to front presses.

And on the floor, both blocks had a mix of chest and lower body exercises. The first block had lunges, close grip chest presses, and leg lifts using the straps. And the second block had lateral step-ups (which I did as lateral lunges), chest flys, and single-arm low rows on the straps.

I have had a lot of challenges the past few weeks in my workouts between feeling sick and the stress of moving. But I am hoping that I’m starting to get past that now. I’m not fully moved into the condo yet, but I worked a lot this weekend on getting things out of boxes and into where they make sense to me. So I hope that helps me feel a bit more put together when I’m getting out the door super early for my workouts!

Another Unexpected Part Of Moving (or I Don’t Know Why I Didn’t Plan Better For This)

As I’ve written several times now, I’m finding a lot of things about moving that aren’t the way I thought they would be or how I remembered them from before. And I know a lot of these things are also related to how I’m doing my move. I’ve been taking my time and slowly getting things from one place to another. I have done a majority of the move within the last week, but it’s still been over multiple days instead of doing everything at once. And maybe this wasn’t the right way to do things even though I thought it would be easier because I keep finding random things that I wasn’t exactly prepared for. And this one is one I found out after I started mainly living at the condo this week.

At my old place, over the last few weeks, I tried to be pretty careful with what I got from the grocery store. I didn’t want to have a lot of food I needed to move over with me, especially if they were frozen items or things that were going to be opened and potentially make a mess. So the last few weeks I have been very conscious about what food I already have and was trying to make more meals from that instead of going out and getting more stuff. I still have some food at the old place I need to move over this weekend, but I got things down to only a handful of things left.

And when I moved my furniture on Sunday to the condo, I wasn’t sure at the time if I would sleep at the condo or at the old house. So I wasn’t really prepared with food at the condo. But I figured that would be easy enough to deal with so I got some takeout food for dinner that night. But because I hadn’t planned, I also didn’t have food for Monday and I wouldn’t be able to get to the store until after work. So I had to order some delivery food (I got a bowl from Chipotle) for lunch that day until I could go get a few groceries to get me through the week.

I didn’t get anything too crazy since I knew this week would be hectic and I would want things that would be easy and fast to have. So most of what I got was prepared items, things I could microwave, or shelf-stable items. Not necessarily the healthiest or best options, but I knew this would just be for now and not the way I would continue to eat.

And for the most part, this plan has worked ok for me. I’m having some weird food issues right now and I’m struggling to eat at times, but I do go through those phases occasionally and I think this is also just the stress manifesting itself in my body. But the issue I’m running into now is that my kitchen really isn’t set up for making food if I wanted to right now.

So much of my stuff is still in boxes. I know that I need to work on unpacking more, but I also wanted to plan out a bit where I would want to put things. But I might have to wait on that and just get things unpacked for now and work on the organization later. But also, not everything is here yet. I didn’t think too much about which boxes I was moving on which day since I knew I would eventually get everything over here. But until yesterday, I had no pots and pans. I was missing bowls until Wednesday but had plates. I didn’t think to bring stuff from my spice rack until later in the week. Honestly, I have no clue what parts of my kitchen are still in the old place and what is in boxes here at this point. I really need to work on getting stuff put away or at least where I can figure out what I have so I can start planning normal meals and not just what is easy to grab.

Just like everything else stressing me out with this move, I know this is temporary and I will have all my kitchen things soon and I can start cooking in my new and amazing kitchen! And I’m excited to cook in this kitchen since everything is new and will work properly. Plus, I have so much more space to prep so I won’t feel as cramped as I try to make things that involve more ingredients or steps.

And if I’m having some not-so-great food days for right now, I know it’s going to be ok. I need to allow myself to be a bit off from what I know I should be doing while I’m in the process of settling in. This doesn’t mean I’m going to go crazy, but I’m also not going to stress myself out more if I end up having another day where I need delivery food for lunch because I still don’t have my kitchen together.

I Underestimated The Stress Of Moving (or I Know This Is Temporary)

I have some friends who have moved several times in the past few years. Some people have moved almost once a year and some have moved maybe twice in 5 years. For the friends who have moved somewhat regularly, it seems like they have a pretty decent packing and moving plan in place. Maybe it’s because, for many of them, they were moving a far distance so they had to do it all at once (like moving across the country where you really can’t go back and forth). Or maybe they did more research on how to be smart when moving or they are just more organized. I’m not sure why it seems like some of my friends are pros and moving and I’m learning that I am far from a pro.

I know that it’s been 12 years since I’ve moved so I also haven’t had to do this in a long time. And when you’ve lived somewhere for so long, you get a lot of things and you have everything in a particular place. So having to adjust where things are or decide what to take can be very overwhelming. And as I’ve written about quite a few times on here, moving has been so stressful for me and I don’t think I was really prepared for it.

I think that each stage of moving has had its own type of stress and it’s been building upon each stage. At first, when I was just going through my things and deciding what to get rid of, that was stress I’ve gone through more recently and it was a bit more manageable. Coordinating movers and everything that comes along with moving was something I had done before, but not for such a long time so I really didn’t have a plan in place for that. I just reached out to multiple places that were recommended either by friends or online review sites and compared what each offered. I ended up going with one of the cheaper ones because I knew I wouldn’t have a lot for the movers to take.

I think almost all the moving companies I looked at had a 3-hour minimum, and I knew that I wouldn’t need all that time. When the movers were at my old place over the weekend, they even kept asking me if I had more that they could take for me. I started giving them random things that were easy to add to the boxes they were using. But I was pretty unprepared for being able to give them more boxes. I’ve been using banker boxes for the move and I usually fill them to the point where you can’t put the lid on them. And if they couldn’t be closed, the movers couldn’t take them for me. Of the 3-hour minimum, I barely used 2 hours to move the big pieces of furniture and other things I could give to them.

And now, I’m in the phase where it feels like there is a time crunch to get everything out of the old place and into the condo. I know I have about a week and a half left and a lot of things are being picked up by friends or charities so it won’t seem as bad soon, but it feels like I have so much left to move out of there. I’ve been trying to move stuff every day, but it doesn’t seem like I have made that big of a dent yet. But I know that’s probably my mind playing a trick on me.

I know that as soon as this month is done, the moving stress will have to end. The unpacking and organizing of the new place will probably still be happening and causing me stress, but at least everything will be in one location at that point. And because I have reorganized my old place several times, maybe that will be stress that I’m able to handle a bit better.

I’m trying to manage the stress of moving in the best (and hopefully healthiest) ways that I can. And the biggest thing that I think is helping me is having a very regular routine. I still have to work every day (which is also stressful since I wish I could be working on the move during the day but I can’t). And I go to my workouts in the morning. I also still have the regular evening things that I do throughout the week, although just like work, that is making me stress a bit since I know I could use that time for moving stuff. As much as I’m trying to manage how I’m feeling, I also can feel the effect that the stress is having on my body. It’s tough to not get stressed about that too, but I know there is no point in worrying about how this is affecting me.

I can’t imagine how I would be doing with this all if I didn’t have my regular routines keeping me grounded. Right now, that’s my sanity even though it does cause me a bit more stress because my time is being used for other things. But I can’t wait until this time is done so I can be past the stress of moving and can get back to the regular stress that I’m used to in my day to day life.

5 Year Anniversary Of Being A Medical Miracle (or Somehow This Feels Like The Last Big Milestone)

5 years ago today, I was supposed to have my liver surgery. Because I seem to be a medical miracle and my tumors shrank, the surgery was pushed off. I think originally we thought that we would see what size they would stabilize at and then plan for the surgery. Obviously, the smaller the tumors are, the easier the surgery would be. And because of how my tumors are stuck in my liver, the smaller the tumors would be when I had surgery, the more of my liver I could keep. I know livers are weird and can regenerate, but it’s always better to not have to regenerate as much. Originally, I think we were thinking that I would lose 20-30% of my liver in the surgery. But if the tumors shrank and I only had to lose 10%, that would be a much easier recovery for me.

Even with how much the tumors shrank within the first 6 months, I never expected that the surgery would be completely put off. But every time I went in for my MRIs, the tumors seemed to get smaller and smaller. And at one of my last in-person appointments with my liver surgeon, we discussed that my situation was now where they wouldn’t recommend surgery for me. The tumors were small enough that they were no longer as life-threatening (although there are still things that could happen that would be more dangerous for me than for others because of them). And the placement of the tumors would actually be harder to remove than when they were at the biggest size. It would be more of an issue to remove them than to leave them there. So the plan was that I would do one more MRI and as long as they didn’t grow I wouldn’t have to worry about them anymore.

My last MRI got pushed off by a year because of the pandemic. But it worked out just fine because at my last appointment my surgeon said I could do the next MRI in 1 year or 2, so I was still following the recommendations he gave to me. And as I wrote in my post after the MRI, the tumors were the same size they were 2 years prior. Of the 3 tumors I had originally, only 1 could be seen and it was 10% of the original size. I didn’t even have an in-person follow-up with my surgeon after the results. He let me know the tumors were stable and that I no longer needed to be monitored.

My last MRI was 5 years to the day from my first MRI, and that made the 5-year mark feel extra special. And since today marks 5 years since I didn’t need surgery, it somehow feels like the end too. I won’t have future MRIs to check on things (unless things take a drastic turn) so I won’t be celebrating the tumors shrinking or being stable. And I know I can continue to celebrate each year that passes after I didn’t have to have surgery, but there’s something about knowing I had the last MRI that makes this non-surgery anniversary feel like it’s the last one too. Then again, I still celebrate how many years have passed since my hip surgery, so there’s a good chance I’ll continue to celebrate this too.

And maybe this feels a bit like the end because I’m moving away from the place I was living the entire time I dealt with the tumor saga. I had a similar feeling when I moved away from the apartment I lived in during the time I had my hip surgery, but it wasn’t as strong. But my hip issues continue to this day versus the tumors which really don’t have to be something I think about all the time.

Whether or not I continue to celebrate this medical miracle anniversary, I love knowing that I’m 5 years past the date that I was supposed to have major surgery. And while for a few years after it was a little stressful not having the surgery and still being worried about the tumors, I’m still grateful I didn’t have to go through that and I have been told by my surgeon that I can move on and not think about this anymore.

Getting More Moving Help From My Friends (or Seeing Things Come Together)

I know I’ve seen memes about how you know you are getting old when you are willing to pay for movers to do your entire move and you don’t ask friends for help or do it yourself. For the most part, I do agree with that idea. I’ve always had movers whenever I have moved since moving big and heavy furniture isn’t something I have always wanted to do. But in a way, I have used movers less and less with each move.

This time, since I’m only moving 3 blocks, I’m doing a lot of the moving myself. I’ve been bringing a few boxes over every day and I don’t have to worry too much about packing things properly. For example, with my dishes and glassware, I put things into banker boxes and didn’t put any bubble wrap or protection around them. I didn’t fill each box that much and I used the handcart to move them from the car to my condo. I know this isn’t the way it’s normally done, but it’s worked for me so far. I did a similar thing when I moved from my last apartment to the place I’ve been in for the last 12 years, but I did let the movers move more things that time since it was a close move but not as close as this time.

I’m still leaving a lot of the heavy lifting for the movers, but there have been a few things I needed to do before the movers. The heaviest thing was getting my bed over there. I wrote about doing that before because it was pretty crazy how heavy those boxes were and I was really proud of myself for being able to do that with my workout coach. But that was only the first part of getting the bed to the condo.

Because of the overlap between my last month in my rental and when the condo was supposed to be done, I’ve had a lot of flexibility regarding when I would actually be moving in and sleeping at the condo. But I knew I wanted to have the bed ready the day I had the movers coming in case I wanted to sleep there that night. I knew I wouldn’t want to build it after a big moving day, so I asked my friends to see who might be willing to help me. I don’t like asking for help, but I knew that there were a few steps with the bed that needed an extra set of hands.

Fortunately, my friend (and birthday twin) Joanna was willing to help me out. I knew this was a big ask of a friend, and I was so grateful she could help me. I knew she was going through some renovation stuff with her place too and I wanted to hear how it was going and I knew she wanted to see my place since she hadn’t been over yet. So after work last week, she was able to come over and help me figure out how to set up my new bed.

It ended up being a little more complicated than we thought (I think most things are like that), so we had to figure out how to do some of the steps differently than how the instructions described. And we had to keep moving different pieces around the room to make space for us to do the work. It was pretty funny seeing all the weird ways we made it work, but we figured it out and I’m happy with how it looks! And then because the mattress I bought is a hybrid foam and spring mattress, we rolled it out and watched it fluff up right in front of us. And when we were done, I think we were both pretty proud of what we did!

I really didn’t think it was going to be as tough to put together as it was, so I was even more grateful that Joanna was willing to help me out. It’s tough for me to ask friends to help me with things, especially when they are tasks like putting together things or moving when I know I could hire someone. But having a friend come by did make the evening more fun and we had a chance to be silly.

And now, my room is really starting to look like a bedroom and not just a blank space. It’s another step closer to making the condo look like my condo and my home and seeing my bed there made me even more excited about living in that space soon!

A Bit Extra Pain In My Workouts (or Always Pushing Through What I Can)

This past week of workouts was tough for me because I was dealing with pain and nausea for several workouts plus I was dealing with extra pain because of all the work I’m doing with moving. Since it’s been over 12 years since I moved last, I think I forgot how exhausting it can be and how physically draining it is. But I also know I’m in better shape now than I was 12 years ago, so at least that’s an advantage I have. But it still added to the difficulty of my workouts during the week.

Monday’s workout was not too crazy, but after moving super heavy boxes over the weekend (and still having some bruises from doing that), it was a bit harder for me than it needed to be. But I was also worried I was also going to be nauseous and wasn’t, so that was something positive for me to focus on.

For cardio, we had rounds of a push pace to a base pace. But the base pace was supposed to be at an incline. And the incline it was supposed to be at would be the equivalent of my push pace resistance level on the bike. So for the entire block, I kept the bike at my push pace resistance level but tried to go faster during the push pace segments. We started at 30-seconds for the push and base pace and it went up by 15 seconds each round until we got to 75-seconds and then we went down by 15 seconds each round. And we ended with a 30-second all-out and I really tried to go a lot faster for that but I was pretty tired at the end of the block.

On the rower, we worked on 200-meter rows and 100-meter rows, but the bigger focus was on what we could do with 100-meter rows. We had 3 rounds of the 200-meter row with squats in-between each row. Then we had 3 rounds of a 100-meter row with rest between each one. And the goal was to rest enough to do a real all-out row for each of the 100-meter rows. We repeated that pattern for the entire block. I did pretty well for my 100-meter rows. They weren’t PRs, but they were a lot faster than I normally would be able to go.

And on the floor, we had 1 long block but it was split into 2 mini-blocks. And within each mini-block, we were not supposed to rest between exercises since they were designed to do back to back. We did each mini-block 3 times before moving to the other one. The first mini-block had chest presses with weights and push-ups and the second mini-block had squats and lunges. I did go pretty heavy for my chest presses and squats, especially since my Monday coach was the one who helped me move the heavy boxes and he had joked that he knew that I could do heavier in my workouts after seeing what I could do when moving boxes. And the last 30-seconds of the floor was a finisher move of an isolated push-up hold, which really tired out my arms!

Wednesday’s workout was a signature workout: Inferno. However, this signature workout isn’t exactly the same when you are in a 3 group class so it might have been a little easier than the 2 group class. But I didn’t mind it being easier because I was starting to feel nauseous. I wasn’t feeling that horrible, but it definitely affected my workouts.

For cardio, we had 2 blocks. The first block had push paces that ranged from 30-seconds to 1-minute and we always had a 30-second base pace after each push. And it ended with a 30-second all-out. And the second block had push paces that were always 1-minute and the base paces ranged from 30-seconds to 75-seconds and it ended with a 1-minute all-out.

On the rower, I really ended up modifying the workout to work for me and how I was feeling. We were supposed to start with a 100-meter row and then do 20 side-to-side hops before going back on the rower. And each time we got onto the rower, we were supposed to increase the row by 100-meters. But I knew I couldn’t do the hops and getting on and off the rower was going to take up a lot of my time. So I just tried to row for the entire block as much as I could. I did have to take breaks to rest and let the nausea pass, but I tried to keep rowing even if I had to go really slowly.

And on the floor, we had 2 blocks. The first block focused on push movements and the second block focused on pull movements. The first block had chest presses on the straps, chest flies with weights, and overhead tricep extensions. And the second block had low rows on the straps, hip hinge reverse flies, and hammer curls. And the last minute of the workout was supposed to be a minute of full burpees. I used the bench for my hands, but I wasn’t able to do the push-ups for the full burpees and did regular ones instead.

On Thursday, I was feeling a bit worse than Wednesday, but I also was dealing with some other body aches. I tried to take some painkillers before class, but because my workouts are so early they don’t usually get to kick in until toward the end of class. This workout seemed to have a bit more strength-based elements in it, but it was still a mix of endurance, strength, and power.

For cardio, we had 2 blocks that had the same pattern. We had 3 rounds of 1-minute intervals of a base pace at an incline and a base pace without an incline with a 30-second all-out at the end. The first block had higher inclines and the resistance level on the bike was always above what I use for my all-outs. In the second block, they were a bit lower so I was around my all-out level for all the intervals plus during my all-out.

On the rower, we had one long block. We started with a 400-meter row and the goal was to do it as a base or push row so you wouldn’t be totally exhausted when it was done. Then we were supposed to do lateral hops and high knees before doing an 800-meter row. Because of how I was feeling, I knew I couldn’t do the lateral hops so I just doubled up on marching in place instead of high knees. We also had 2-minutes during the workout that we were supposed to do just the exercises and not row. During that, I alternated doing squats and marching in place. And we ended with a 30-second all-out row.

And on the floor, we also had 2 blocks. The first block had push-ups, squats to bicep curls, and pull-ups on the straps. I did high and low rows on the straps instead of the pull-ups, but I was able to do the push-ups on the ground instead of using the bench. And the second block had chest presses and squat jumps. And I did the squat jumps as squats to calf raises. And when cardio and rowing had their all-out, we had a finisher exercise. We were supposed to do isolated squat jacks which I modified to still have the isolated squat but did steps to the sides instead.

Friday was the hardest day of the week for me. I was in a lot of pain and had a lot of nausea, but I also did a lot of crazy stuff for the move on Thursday night that I was still feeling. So I was trying my best and just did what I could.

For cardio, it was a power focus. We had 2 blocks that were very similar. We started with a 1-minute push pace and then had rounds of all-outs and walking recoveries. In the first block, all the all-outs were 1-minute, and in the second block, they were all 30-seconds. And the walking recoveries started at 30-seconds and then went to 45-seconds and 1-minute so we had more recovery time as we worked through the block. I was able to do pretty decently with the all-outs, but I know I wasn’t pedaling as fast as I would have liked. But I was happy that I didn’t have to take as many breaks as I was worried I would need to.

For the rower, we focused on strength rows which means that you want to row slowly and not race through each distance. The goal was to not go higher than 24 strokes per minute, which for me isn’t too slow. But it’s still a challenge to make sure you don’t start rowing faster. In the first block, we had 300-meter rows and then did rainbows with a medicine ball between each row. And in the second block, we had 200-meter rows with front presses with a medicine ball between each row. Since these were strength rows, I didn’t have to worry about pushing through too much during the rows. I was supposed to go slowly, so I did. I did need a few breaks to let the nausea pass, but it wasn’t as bad as I know it can get.

And on the floor, we also had 2 blocks. All the exercises on the floor were with weights. The first block had halos, scaptions, and good mornings. And the second block had uppercuts, tricep kickbacks, and goblet squats. I know I didn’t go that heavy with the weights, but I tried to go heavier for almost all the exercises and my body just couldn’t do it. But at least I tried.

With all the things working against me, I’m happy with the work that I was able to do. And this week, it’s going to be interesting. As I write this post, I’m not sure when I will start sleeping (and showering) at my new place. But I will likely be switching to living at the condo more than my current place at some point this week. So that will change my routine a little bit with the workouts. It won’t change too much since I’m not moving that far away, but it will be a little different because I will either have to drive on a road that has more traffic or deal with waiting at an intersection for a bit longer because I will be crossing the light rail path. It’s not a huge difference, but when the drive is currently only 5-10 minutes, adding 3-4 minutes does make a difference. But I’m still excited to move and get into my new routine for my commute to my workouts!

And hopefully, this week won’t be too stressful or too bad with pain and nausea. But I know that there’s a good chance it will be tougher than this past week.