Monthly Archives: September 2021

Dating App Patterns (or Losing Hope But Trying To Stay Hopeful)

Since I put myself out on dating apps again, my dating life seems to have a few different patterns it typically follows. And none of these patterns are really that great and it’s really frustrating.

The first (and most common pattern): I match with someone on a dating app. Either they message me if they can or I send the first message. If they message me, often it’s just “Hi” or an emoji and I respond and don’t hear back from them again. Or if I send the first message with an opening line that usually asks a question so they have something to respond to and I never hear from them (or if it’s Bumble, the match goes away after 24 hours). This is annoying, and I never understand why they would keep a match that they have no interest in talking to. Being unmatched after matching isn’t fun, but at least I can understand that behavior more.

The next pattern I see a lot is that I match with someone and we have a great back and forth messaging for a while. Sometimes this is for a day, sometimes it’s for a few days or a week. Occasionally, there is discussion about meeting up in person since I’d rather meet in real life over texting. And then, the next day I might message them to continue the conversation and I never hear from them again. I think some of these guys are using dating apps as something to boost their egos and only want to know that someone might be interested in them. I hate that I can’t figure out who might be this type of person before I have some hope that I might be able to meet them, but there aren’t necessarily signs leading up to this. Everything seems normal until it doesn’t.

And the most annoying pattern is when I’m messaging someone and all of a sudden the conversation takes a hard turn. This can be within the first day of messaging or even weeks later (if I’m messaging someone that long before I have the chance to meet them). And the turn usually goes from a normal conversation into them sending me a nude picture or their attempt to turn the conversation really sexual when it wasn’t like that at all before. I’ve had guys who have responded to my opening line, ask me something in return, and then their response to my answer is a naked photo. I will never know why guys do that, I highly doubt that many women have responded to a nude photo with something positive. Maybe they think they just need to keep trying and eventually someone will react the way they hope?

Of course, not every guy I match with on dating apps falls into these patterns. I think the main reason I still use apps is because of the ones that are different. They don’t happen often, but often enough that just when I’m feeling hopeless I get a new burst of hope and keep going. And I know that I don’t need every guy I match with to respond or be a person I want to meet. While it is a bit of a numbers game, it’s not a numbers game that way. I don’t need dozens of perfect matches. I just need one.

I wish that knowing these patterns happen so frequently would make it not as bad when it happens. But it does still bother me, especially when I’ve been talking to someone for a few days and they either stop responding or turn the conversation into something I’m not ok with. But I am not going to give up just yet and I just have to keep going. And I have to hope that pattern changes sometime soon.

Another Full Day Of Condo Hunting (or Finding Some Potential)

Like I’ve said before, looking for a condo now is very different from what it was like when I have been looking in the past. While I don’t have an exact timeline of when things are happening with my current place, I do have a better idea now of some of the changes that are coming up.

Just last week, the realtor for my landlord was here to show our places to a potential buyer. Or at least, I thought it was a potential buyer. The realtor was talking to someone on the phone right outside my door and I found out the people who came to look at my place already have a contract and they are in escrow. This doesn’t necessarily mean I’m going to be kicked out soon. The buyer might keep us as tenants until they are ready to tear down the building. It can take time to organize major construction, and having the money coming in from us might be a good thing for them. So I’m staying hopeful that I still will have some time here and I won’t be under a crazy time crunch soon.

But even though I have that hope, I’m still making sure I take the condo hunt seriously and that does mean taking initiative at looking at places on my own too. When I find a place that has potential and it has an open house scheduled, I’m finding a way to make sure I see it. If I can’t get to an open house, then I can ask my realtor to help set up an appointment. But because so many have open houses, I can go on my own and then let my realtor know if I like a place.

So as I’ve been trying to organize my condo hunt so I make sure I see all the places I want to see, I’ve been planning on how to get to a bunch of open houses on Sundays (they aren’t often on Saturdays, but I can only do Sundays anyway). And this past Sunday, I was able to plan it out so I could get to 4 different places.

I did try to plan this out to be the most efficient way possible, so I mapped out each open house and figured out the best path to go on. Fortunately, 3 of the 4 places I went to were very close together. So I went to the one that was furthest away first.

That place wasn’t my ideal location, but it didn’t seem back on a map. What I didn’t know until I got there was that it was across the street from a school and that street was the drop-off/pick-up street. So that means on school days, it can be very hard to go places in the mornings and afternoon. Also, I found out when I got there that they already had accepted an offer and were open to additional backup offers (which made me think they already had a backup). So that was an easy no for me.

The next place was another easy no for me. It was a very odd situation where it was almost like a condo building in the backyard of a house and a shared driveway. Not like how I have a shared driveway, more like the house is the owner and there was a guesthouse in the back. But the guesthouse was condo units. It also had windows that only looked into the windows of others.

I’m skipping the third place for now, but the last place I went to was another easy no. The location was not the best street and it was a bit too noisy. I didn’t like the layout and there was a lot of wasted space in the unit. But also, the realtor wasn’t that nice to me and tried to make a joke about how I better have someone who wants to give me a lot of money so I can buy a place. It’s not really her business how I’m getting a condo and it really made me feel unwanted. So I left and just felt really negative about the place.

But the third place was the first place I’ve looked at in a while where I really felt like it might be the right place for me. It wasn’t perfect and it does need a bunch of cosmetic work, but the space felt really good. I liked the layout, it had a lot of windows and skylights, and I could imagine how to make it feel like mine. Because of the cosmetic work it needs, I was hesitant about things, but I also know that a lot of those things can be done well without spending a lot of money. Redoing cabinets can be expensive, but it doesn’t have to be. Same with new counters. The location wasn’t exactly where I want to be, but it’s not that far from my ideal neighborhood. And there was something that just felt good about the space.

I did let my realtor know about that place so he can come with me to look at it, and I’m hoping that there isn’t an offer on it yet so I have a real chance to see if it’s meant to be my new home. But even if it’s not, I’ve realized this past Sunday that I have learned a lot in the brief amount of time I’ve been looking again. I can feel better about my decisions now than I was feeling when I was looking with my parents. I don’t hesitate as much if a place doesn’t really feel right. I know that my parents are helping me a lot with this, but I also have a right to be a bit picky and I’m learning to be ok with that. And I’m getting better at seeing past bad design and cosmetic stuff and seeing the real potential of what I can turn a place into.

If this place doesn’t end up being the one for me for whatever reason, I do feel better about going to look at more places moving forward. I would still prefer not to go alone, but going alone isn’t the worst thing. I feel more sure about what I really want and what I would just like to have. And I have more hope now that I will find the right place for me eventually!

Feeling Appreciated At Work (or Sometimes An Email From My Boss Is All Good News)

In some ways, I’m close to what my day job life was like from before the pandemic. In many other ways, things are still so different from before. Different isn’t always bad and in fact, I think many of the differences from before are positive. While I am working significantly more hours than I was working before, I’m also making more money which is nice. And I am doing different things now that challenge me and make me have to think of new solutions. It was nice to have very little work and a lot of free time between clients, it is also nice to not have as much boredom during work as I did before.

It’s not just my jobs, hours, and responsibilities that are different from before. Since I started back at my box office job, my pay has been different too. I knew that I was going to have to make less money when I was asked back because things were slowly coming back. But since I was working my other jobs (and getting raises at those), I wasn’t too bothered. I knew I was being underpaid, but having my job back and knowing that it would get better soon helped. And it took a while before I finally got a raise that got me close to what my old pay rate was. But a raise is a raise and I was very grateful for that. It wasn’t that long ago that it happened, so I figured that might be it for a while. But then I got an email from my boss the other day and I was nervous to open it when I saw it in my inbox.

Fortunately, the email was only good news and let me know that I was going to be getting another raise starting this week! And this raise is going to bring my pay rate above what I was making before the pandemic! I am still working less than half the hours I used to work (that is my choice based on my hours with other jobs), so from that job alone I’m not back to my pre-pandemic income. But I’m not relying on that income as much as I used to. It’s only a portion of what I make each month, not a majority of it. And every extra money that I can make is helpful, even if it’s not a huge change in my weekly pay.

I’m seriously so grateful for this raise. My box office job can sometimes feel like my work isn’t fully appreciated because we only send messages out and don’t get a lot of feedback. But the raise is proof that they see my work as valuable and helpful to the company. And I feel like it’s a sign that they understand how hard we do work and how much we do have to juggle, especially considering that we cover over 70 different locations and they all have their own details to answer.

I’m not expecting a raise for any of my jobs any time soon. I’ve gotten a lot of pay or hour increases recently and there isn’t much more I can except for now. But hopefully sometime in 2022, I’ll have another raise or two in at least one of my jobs. Even though I’m making much more than I did before, I’m still not making a lot of money considering how many hours I work. But I do know that I’m doing better than a lot of people and I’ve been lucky even with losing work during the pandemic. So I’m always grateful for my work and for making the money I can.

There have been a lot of surprises the past year and a half with my day job situation, but getting an unexpected raise is definitely one of the best ones and it made my week last week!

An Unexpected Workout Win (or Really Just Happy With My Workouts)

Before I get into the recap of my workout week, I have an unexpected update from the Dri-Tri I did on Saturday. I never do the Dri-Tri to be competitive with others, only with myself. But a few days later, the studios posted the top 3 men and women for each location. I had shared the photo with a group text with my workout friends because my friend’s husband got first place. But then after I sent it I realized that I was listed as 3rd place!

I was beyond shocked, and still am. I know that it’s likely because not a lot of women did it, but I’m still taking this win. Especially with how it seemed like so much was working against me.

Now onto my regular workout recap.

Monday’s workout was an endurance day. I was a little sore after the Dri-Tri, mainly because I was trying to not take painkillers because of the burst blood vessel in my eye (it can make it worse if it’s still spreading, and at that point it still was). But it wasn’t the worst endurance day to do when you aren’t 100% there.

We had 3 blocks for cardio that all had the same pattern. We had a push pace, 90-second base pace, push pace, 1-minute base pace, push pace, and a 30-second all-out. Each block, the push paces got longer. We had 1-minute, 75-second, and 90-second push paces. I did try to push myself a bit, but was mindful of how I was feeling as I went a bit harder.

On the floor, we had 2 blocks. The first block started with a mini-band mini-block. We had 3 rounds of a squat to leg raise and hip bridges using a mini-band. After completing that, we had a 300-meter row before continuing the first floor block. The rest of the first block had sumo squat front raises, bicep curls, uppercuts, and tricep extensions all using weights. And the second block had lateral step-ups, lunges, and sumo deadlifts. I did the lateral step-ups as lateral lunges so there was a little modification.

Wednesday’s workout was a power day and it was a crazy one! The cardio block was all about all-outs! The entire cardio block was rounds of 1-minute all-outs followed by 90-seconds to recover. And we did that for 10 rounds! Each time we had an all-out, I tried to increase how fast I was going on the bike. Around the middle, I tried to increase the resistance level too, but that was too hard to keep doing for a minute so I went back to just focusing on pedaling faster at my regular all-out resistance level. I think the hardest thing about this was having all the all-outs being 1-minute long. I feel like I’ve done a similar workout with 30-second all-outs, but 1-minute ones are so different. But I felt so accomplished when I was done!

On the floor, we had 3 blocks. The first block had sit-up to jump squats (I did sit-ups to squats and calf raises), lateral lunges, lateral hop-overs, and seated shoulder presses to standing. The second block was a core block and we had static crunch in and outs and toe reaches, both using the mini-band. And the last block had burpees, step-ups (I did lunges), squats, and reverse grip low rows. It was a lot of variety on the floor, but it was also a lot and I was getting a bit sloppy with my form toward the end.

Friday’s workout was another endurance day. And it felt much more like an endurance workout than the Monday one.

We had 3 blocks for cardio. The first block started with a 3-minute push pace followed by a 90-second base pace and a 1-minute all-out. The second block had 2 rounds of a 2-minute push and 75-second base before the 1-minute all-out at the end. And the last block had 3 rounds of a 1-minute push and 1-minute base before the 1-minute all-out.

And on the floor, we had 2 floor blocks and 1 row block. The first block had suitcase squats, lunges to low rows, and plank taps. The second block had sumo squats to upright rows, lunges, uppercuts, and plank shoulder taps. And the row block had rowing plus squats to calf raises. We started with a 100-meter row and increased by 100 meters each round. I unfortunately was struggling a lot on the floor because my hip was really hurting after the bike. But I tried my best and I think most of what I did wasn’t affected too much besides my rowing.

Saturday’s workout was a strength-based day, but it also was a 90-minute class! I’ve done one other 90-minute class before, and it was a great challenge. This class happened to be during my regular Saturday class time, so I didn’t pick it for that reason, but I also didn’t avoid the class either. I figured it would be a great way to close out my week and I was right. Just like the other 90-minute class, we had the regular 60-minute class rotations and then added on another set. So we had 3 blocks on cardio, 2 blocks on floor, 2 blocks on cardio, and 2 blocks on floor.

For cardio, the first 4 blocks had a similar pattern. We had base paces at inclines with a 1-minute flat road base between and ended with a 30-second all-out at incline too. The first block had 30-second inclines, the second block had 1-minute inclines, the third block had 90-second inclines, and the fourth block had 2-minute inclines. And the inclines went down each block as the time got longer. I did go a bit higher on the resistance levels than I normally go, but they were short intervals so it was a good way to test out what I can do. And the last block of cardio was 4 rounds of 30-second all-outs that had decreasing inclines each time.

On the floor, we had a lot of variety in the exercises. For the first part of class, we had chest presses with weights, squats to bicep curls, knee tucks, rollouts on the ab dolly, high rows on the straps, and y-raises. We also had a little bit of rowing with stroke drills (the floor work from the first part of class is a bit of a blur so I don’t remember what was each block). When we were in the bonus floor blocks for the 90-minute class, the first block was on the floor and the second was on the rower. The floor block had low rows with weights, chest presses using the straps, and knee tucks. And when we got to the rower we followed the same pattern as the treadmill with 4 rounds of 30-second all-outs with recovery time between.

I really feel like I had a great workout week this past week. Between how great I felt after my Dri-Tri and finding out that I placed 3rd and having another awesome 90-minute class, it really was great. I did have some issues with pain in my hips that I couldn’t manage the way I normally do, but I feel like I pushed through and didn’t let that stop me. I know whenever I have one of these good weeks, I always say how I wish I could always feel like this. But I also know that I also have to deal with the bad weeks. But when I have those bad weeks, remembering these good weeks helps me make it through that time.

I Stand With IATSE (or Union Strong)

I know a lot of news about the entertainment industry can be very inside baseball and most people don’t know what’s going on or are very concerned about it. Most of the time, unless you are in the industry, you don’t see news updates or understand what things mean if you do see the news. I think the union elections are like that. Even though this past election was making a lot of national news, most people didn’t know what it meant or why it mattered. And that’s ok. And when things do reach a majority of people, like when there was a writer’s strike, most people only saw the surface of what it meant and might have been upset that their shows weren’t happening.

But right now, there is something happening that I don’t feel is getting the national attention it should and it is very important.

Starting next week, IATSE is going to have a strike authorization vote because of the status of the current negotiations on their contract.

IATSE is the union that covers so many of the people who work behind the scenes on set. They include sound technicians, editors, costumers, hair and make-up, electrical technicians, and so many more. These are all the people who help to make the shows and movies people love look so amazing. They help the actors work by creating the environments we perform in and making sure that we have what we need to do our job. Without members of IATSE on set, production wouldn’t be possible.

In their current negotiations with the AMPTP (the Alliance of Motion Picture and Television Producers, who is the same group that my union negotiates with), they are asking for things that I agree they deserve. They want better wages, more reasonable rest periods between work days, making sure everyone gets their breaks and meals, and other things that will make their working conditions better and safer for them. I think they deserve these things and more.

When I work on set, I have long days. Most of my time is sitting around and waiting. But members of IATSE have even longer days. They arrive before actors come to set and they stay after we are sent home. They do not get to rest in a trailer and wait for their time to work because they are always busy and working. I know that I am always grateful for the crew of sets that I work on, but I also know that I can show my appreciation more for them. And standing with them for this negotiation is just the start of what we can all do.

Coming up in about a week, different groups within IATSE are going to vote on whether they would like to strike or not. Each group has to have at least 75% agreeing with the strike for it to go through. And if it goes through, it’s not guaranteed that a strike will happen. But the negotiating team from IATSE will have the ability to call a strike if the negotiations still are stuck. And if there is a strike, everything in the industry would stop. Production is impossible without IATSE, and that proves even more why they deserve what they are asking for.

I don’t think anyone wants a strike to happen. So many people have been out of work due to the pandemic and things are just picking back up again. But at the same time, it’s not fair not to negotiate for what they deserve just because they want to work. They want to work but in safe and fair conditions. And if a strike is what it takes so they can get that, then they need to strike. And I stand with IATSE 100%.

I don’t know anyone who doesn’t stand with IATSE. We all see how hard they work when we are on set and the conditions that some people worked in were not fully understood until recently. I know I am guilty of that. But I’m doing what I can to try to help make things better.

Please sign this petition to show your support for IATSE in these negotiations. If you enjoy any tv shows or movies, then you should support the people making them. I stand in solidarity with IATSE because I know they would do the same for us. And I will continue to stand with them even if the strike does happen.

Working On More Regular Doctor Appointments (or Catching Up On What I Missed)

Like so many people last year, I didn’t make it to a lot of regular medical appointments for most of 2020 because of the pandemic. I obviously did what I had to do when things weren’t great and I started regularly going to the dentist again after having some issues, but a lot of my routine appointments were put off and I figured I would do them when things were safer. And even though I have been vaccinated for about 6 months now, I didn’t get a chance to start planning routine appointments again until recently.

I might have forgotten to schedule them for longe but I did get an email alert from my insurance about some routine tests being due. They aren’t things I do every year, but it made sense I might be due for tests since I knew I skipped last year. So I tried to work on scheduling appointments around my work time (which isn’t easy now since I’m full-time and have to take time off to go). And I got a couple of things set up that started this week.

I had my regular well-woman checkup this week, which was one of the alerts I had gotten from my insurance. I found out when I got to the appointment, I wasn’t actually due for another year, but I figured I might as well do it all since I was already there. And while it’s not a fun appointment, it’s necessary to make sure I’m staying healthy and I don’t discover another random thing that is wrong with me. I’ve been feeling pretty ok lately, outside of some mental stress due to the pandemic, so I think everything is ok with me. But it will be good to know for sure.

I’ve got a few medical tests that I should have done last year but it was ok to push them off another year, so when I was at my appointment my doctor was able to start the process for me to schedule them. For example, my last liver MRI was supposed to be last year, but I was told to wait on it due to the pandemic. So hopefully when I do it this year, this will be the last one I need. But because it’s been almost 2 years since my last one, I needed a new order to get scheduled for the MRI. Normally, I call my liver surgeon so he can order it, but my doctor was able to put in the order for me so I could save that time. I still need to schedule it, but I’ll probably have it in the next month or two. It just depends on the time options. I also got an order for my next mammogram, which was something else I skipped last year. I don’t have to do regular ones just yet, but it’s good for me to do them.

Also, since my last regular appointment, I had my appointment with the geneticist so I could get breast MRIs covered by my insurance as a cancer screening. The geneticist said that I didn’t need to start doing those MRIs just yet, but I wanted to confirm that with my doctor. And she agrees, so I have a few more years before those MRIs are regular screenings for me.

And the last thing I set up were some regular blood tests that I haven’t done in a few years. This wasn’t just skipped because of the pandemic, but because I don’t always do them regularly. But they are all just boring things like blood sugar, liver enzymes (which I know were really off before, but it was because of my tumor), cholesterol, and things like that. I probably should be better about checking these things regularly and I need to see how often I really should do them.

Considering that I missed last year’s annual appointment and a few other doctor appointments that I usually would have, I think this appointment went really smoothly. Obviously, I don’t have test results from any tests I did yet, but there’s nothing I’m worried about and nothing my doctor was worried about. Honestly, the most worrisome thing during my appointment was the burst blood vessel in my eye. I know it still looks pretty bad, but as soon as my doctor walked into the room I reassured her that I was safe at home and nothing bad had happened to me. And she’s known me for years, so she knew I was ok and didn’t have to question me too much about it. And I think we both had a good laugh over the fact that I have had a few different suspicious-looking injuries that could look bad but they are actually from something innocent.

Hopefully, I can get the rest of my regular appointments in soon. I have almost all of them scheduled, but if things get really bad again with the pandemic I might have to put them off. But I’m hoping this appointment this week was me kicking off getting back on track with staying on top of my health.

Making Condo Hunting More Fun (or Taking Advantage Of Ways To Be Social)

Condo or house hunting can be a really fun thing. I used to go to open houses from time to time just to see what is out there, especially in my neighborhood. I never asked my realtor to show me places I wasn’t serious about, but if there was an open house I felt ok taking a look. And if the seller’s realtor asked me, I was always honest and said I wasn’t seriously looking at the moment but looking at things for the future.

But serious condo hunting is a very different feeling. I think I am feeling a bit more stress than I need to because I feel like there is more of a time crunch than actually exists. But I am seriously looking and it has been a lot so far. In about 2 weeks, I’ve gone to over 10 properties. Some of these were when my parents were in town and we looked at a lot of condos in a single afternoon. Some are condos that my realtor has taken me to on my own. And some have been open houses for places I’m interested in. I have to say, going to open houses alone hasn’t really been that fun for me. It feels like the seller’s realtor is always asking me questions when I just want to look and think about what I feel about the place. And I don’t want to ask to be left alone because that’s rude. But because of my availability and when I can see places, going to open houses seems to be more common for me lately.

But because I’m not really enjoying going to open houses alone and I want to make condo hunting more fun, I decided to reach out to a few of my friends to see if anyone wanted to come with me this past weekend. And my friend Pamela said she’d love to so she joined me for condo hunting on Sunday! Originally I was going to look at 3 places, but I changed my mind on one and the other didn’t have an open house so we only looked at one place together.

And I’m so glad she was with me to look at the condo. It was one of the oddest ones I’ve seen so far. The main entrance opened into the main bedroom and there were no doors on either bedroom. It also had a lot of weird quicks that I think the seller thought were cool. But it just didn’t work and it was not at all what I was looking for. But because of the photos on the listing, I had no clue it was like that. I guess some photos can really hide the less flattering features of a place.

And because I wasn’t alone, I had someone to talk to as we were walking through the place and to give looks to when the seller’s realtor was trying to sell us on features that I didn’t love. It made the experience so much better. Plus, it gave me time to hang out with a friend which is a luxury I don’t do enough these days! And we did luck out when we went to the condo because it was crowded before we got there, but it seemed like everyone was leaving when we arrived. So we didn’t have to be around too many people. Even with wearing masks and having so many people in LA vaccinated, I still try to avoid crowded places as much as possible.

After we looked around the condo, Pamela and I got to hang out outside and catch up. We’ve only seen each other once in person since the pandemic, and that was a really brief moment. This time, we really got to talk and it was so great. I needed some social time and it really let me decompress from stressful things going on in my life.

And now, I have someone willing to come with me to future open houses! I’m so glad that I don’t have to keep going alone now and I have someone else to bounce ideas and thoughts off of as I look at more and more potential places!

My First Post-Shutdown Dri-Tri (or This Is Not How I Expected Things To Go)

When my Orangetheory studio announced that they would be doing the Dri-Tri, I wasn’t sure at first if I was going to sign up. I’ve done the Dri-Tri lots of times and I think I have done it every time my studio has offered it except the first time. But even with being back at the studio again for about 6 months, I still know I’m not back to where I was before the shutdown. And I didn’t know how I would do with the Dri-Tri this time.

But I forced myself to get over that feeling and realized that’s exactly why I needed to do it. I needed to prove to myself that I could. Even if my time wasn’t anything close to what I used to do, I needed to know I could finish. So I signed up and decided I wasn’t going to look at my old times to see what I used to do and go in with an open mind. I did have 2 ideas of what I would like to do, based on what I know I could do in regular classes. I was hoping I could get onto the bike (the last section of the Dri-Tri) before the 30-minute mark and I was hoping I could finish in under an hour. But I knew that I might not be able to do either, so I wasn’t setting them as big goals, just ideas.

The day of the Dri-Tri was a bit of a weird morning for me. I was still dealing with the burst blood vessel in my eye and it was looking much worse than the 2 days prior (this is normal, the blood is similar to a bruise and it can spread for a while before it starts to fade). I felt like I looked horrible and that everyone would be looking at me. And then when I was getting ready to leave for the studio, the shoelace in one of my shoes broke. I wasn’t going to wear new shoes for a Dri-Tri and didn’t have time to unlace one shoe and put in new laces, so I had to make it work.

And it turned out, I had even less time than I thought. I knew the Dri-Tri wasn’t at a normal workout time for me, but I wrote it in my calendar as being at 10:45am. So I got to the studio around 10:35 so I’d have time to do a little warm-up before starting. Well, I guess I wrote it down wrong because it was actually at 10:30! Fortunately, they hadn’t started when I got there and were going over all the rules. But I didn’t have any time to warm up. They actually were waiting on me to strap my feet into the rower so they could start. So from the time I arrived to the time the clock started was probably under 2 minutes. Not ideal and not something I had ever experienced before.

The first part of the Dri-Tri is the 2000-meter row. This is something we do as a benchmark so I’m very familiar with what I can do and what my time is like. Since the studios reopened, I have done this benchmark twice and they both have been much longer times than I have done in the past. I’m pretty sure the most recent one was one of the worst times I’ve ever had on it. And I knew that doing this row as the first part of the Dri-Tri meant I needed to be very careful to not go too hard and to conserve some energy.

Normally, they say to do 10 really hard pulls and then find a good pace and intensity to stick with. I didn’t do those hard pulls, I figured without a warm-up that was going to be a really bad choice). I just tried to find a steady rhythm and to keep things around the same pace the entire time. I also wanted to try to limit any breaks I might need to take. And I don’t know how or why this happened, but somehow the row this time was much better than when I did the row as a benchmark. My time was still slower than before the shutdown, but it was over a minute faster than the last benchmark. And I was able to only take 2 real breaks and 1 break where I was still rowing but rowing very slowly. I couldn’t believe that! I didn’t care that I was the last person on the rower (I think I had over a minute on the rower when everyone else was already on the floor), I did it and couldn’t believe that it went a lot better than I thought it would.

The floor is all body weight exercises. We had bench hop-overs, bench tap squats, step-ups (which I always do as lunges), push-ups, plank jacks, and burpees. I do little modifications t0 a few of the exercises. The hop-overs are done one leg at a time and not as a hop. The push-ups are on my knees. And the burpees are done using the bench for my hands. Because I’m not competing or trying to get into the regional Dri-Tri workout, it’s ok that I do these modifications. The floor exercises are split up so you do 2 rounds of everything. And normally as I’m starting the second round, I have a moment of thinking that I’m exhausted. And I did have that this time, but I was able to keep going. I just took the breaks when I needed to and then got back to it when I was ready.

When I went over to the bike to start the last second, I took a look at the clock and it was about 25 minutes in. So I had made it to the bike in under 30 minutes and that gave me a nice boost before starting the bike. This is always the longest section for me. If I was on the treadmill, it’s a 5K run (or 2.5K if you powerwalk like I used to). On the bike, it’s 4 times that. I’m not exactly sure that the distance of the bike is 12.4 miles, it’s listed as trips and not miles. But I know the bike needs to show 12.4 to be finished.

I knew I wouldn’t want the resistance level too high on the bike, but I also wanted to make sure it wasn’t too easy because that can also make it tough to go for a long time. So I had it either at my base pace level or the level between my base and push paces. I just changed it when I felt like I was ready for a change, I didn’t worry about tracking intervals or timing anything. I just wanted to go and base it on how I was feeling. When I needed a break for water, I did have to stop pedaling because I don’t have enough balance or stability to do that. But I tried to keep pedaling super slow when I could as I was getting my water bottle or putting it back. But for most of the time I was on the bike, I just tried to let my mind wander because I knew I’d be on there for a while.

I would check my distance every so often and mentally note when I hit different milestones like being half done or 10 minutes in. And I was making pretty decent time compared to what I thought I’d be able to do. The coaches and staff go to each person as they are finishing so they can mark the time and everyone cheers as each person finishes, which is really nice. I was one of the last people to finish, but I didn’t care. I got it done. And my final time was 55:51! I did it in under an hour!

Considering all the things working against me and how I wasn’t sure how I’d do in the Dri-Tri, I was in shock with my final time. Even one of my coaches said he was impressed that I did that well without having the warm-up before we started. I don’t know how I did it and I’m still in a bit of shock, but it happened!

And for completing the Dri-Tri, we all got a certificate, medal, and water bottle.

And yes, you can see a bit of my messed-up eye in that photo, but I was able to make it look much better than it looked in person.

I’m so glad I decided to do the Dri-Tri and didn’t let my worries get to me. I needed this challenge. I needed to see that I could do it and do better than I thought. I needed this proof that I’m not doing that much worse than I was doing before the shutdown. Even with all the things that were going wrong or not my way before I started, I overcame it all and did an amazing job!

I know that this doesn’t mean that I will instantly improve in my regular workouts because I approach those different from how I do the Dri-Tri, but I at least have a new record I can reflect on when I’m trying to see improvements and growth in my workouts.

And despite how I sometimes feel in the middle of a Dri-Tri, now I can’t wait until we have the next one so I can do it all again!

The First Part Of My Workout Week (or Getting Better From One Thing And Having A New Medical Thing Happen)

I’m going to be sharing just the first part of my workout week from this past week in this post. I’ll be sharing about my Saturday workout in tomorrow’s post because this past Saturday I did the Dri-Tri! For the other workouts this week, I was trying to mentally prepare for the Dri-Tri but also not overthink things too much. I was also getting over being nauseous and that affects my workouts quite a bit, so it did help me from going too hard and being sore on Saturday.

Monday’s workout was a strength-based class, and it was the day I was feeling the worst this past week. I wasn’t doing as bad as I had at the end of the week before, but it was still a struggle in class to get through a lot of it.

For cardio, we had 3 blocks. The first block started with a progressive hill with the incline/resistance level increasing every 30 seconds before having a base pace and then a flat all-out. The second block had 1-minute intervals with push paces at increasing inclines/resistance levels with flat base paces in-between with a 30-second all-out at the end. And the last block had rounds of push paces at an incline followed by an all-out at the same incline and then a flat recovery between each one. Because I normally use the resistance levels to be for my push and all-out paces, I went lower on those this time so that the incline work was not at the same level.

On the floor, we also had 3 blocks. The first block was a mini-band block and we had monster walks and squats to side leg raises. For the other two blocks we were supposed to do 2 rounds and then we had 200-meter rows after. The second block had sumo deadlifts, lunges, and plank reaches. And the last block had sumo squats, lunge jumps (which I did as regular lunges), and plank jacks. The plank work was hard for me to do with the nausea, but not unbearable. So I just did them using the bench and took a lot of breaks when I was feeling really nauseous.

Wednesday’s workout was an endurance/strength/power day and the first day I wasn’t nauseous since it hit this time. So I was ready to work hard, but I was still taking it a bit easy as I was still dealing with some cramps.

On the treadmill, the first block was all about 3-minute challenges. We had a 3-minute push pace, 90-second base pace, 3-minute push pace, 90-second base pace, and 3-minute run for distance (which was basically like a 2-minute push with a 1-minute all-out after). I kept my push pace at my normal resistance level and challenged myself to keep it there the entire time. It wasn’t easy, but the base pace after helped me get ready for each round. The second block was all about all-outs. We had an all-out at an incline, recovery, all-out on flat incline, recovery, and so on for a total of 6 rounds. So we had 3 all-outs at the incline and 3 without. They did get shorter each round, which helped (2 all-outs for 1-minute, 2 for 45-seconds, and 2 for 30-seconds).

The first block on the floor had hip hinge swings, single-arm low rows, deadlifts, and single-arm high rows. And the second block had single-leg deadlifts (which I did as regular deadlifts), single-arm bicep curls, and uppercuts. And for that second block, we were supposed to use the same weights the entire time and try to not stop during the reps until we finished all 3 exercises. So I had to go a little lighter on the weights because it was based on my uppercuts plus we had a lot of reps to do for each exercise.

Friday’s workout was a strength-based class, but knowing I had the Dri-Tri the next day I knew I had to go easy. I also wasn’t feeling super confident that day. On Thursday, I noticed a burst blood vessel in my eye. It’s harmless, but it looks weird. And on Friday, it was looking even worse (as I write this post on Sunday, it has continued to spread but I know that’s a part of the healing process). So I was feeling a little down and self-conscious, even though I don’t think anyone in class noticed it. The theme for the class was about doing drop sets, and even the cardio had that theme.

We had 3 blocks for cardio and they all had the same pattern. Long push pace, base pace, base pace at incline, push pace without incline, base pace without incline, push pace at incline, and an all-out. Each block, the incline/resistance level went up high and the first long push pace got shorter. But the idea was to have the base pace at an incline feel similar to what the push pace without the incline felt like. Just like earlier in the week, because I use the resistance levels for my push pace on a normal day, I had to adjust those levels so that the incline work felt different to me. But I tried to keep the levels a bit lower because of the Dri-Tri the next day.

For the floor, the first 2 blocks had rowing to start the block. We had a 300-meter row in the first block and a 200-meter row in the second. We were supposed to keep the stroke rate super low for the first half of each row and then sprint for the second half. I know some people struggle with the low stroke rate, but I naturally row pretty slow so that part is easier for me. Getting the sprint done was a lot harder. And all 3 blocks had 1 drop set exercise (where you go heavy for 4 reps and then you use a lighter weight for 12 reps) and 1 regular exercise. We had drop set chest presses and bridge rows on the straps, drop set reverse grip low rows and triceps on the straps, and drop set bicep curls and chest presses on the straps.

After my weekday workouts this past week, I was hoping I was ready for the Dri-Tri. I felt like I had pretty good workouts and didn’t push too hard so I wasn’t tired or sore. But I wouldn’t know until the next day. And that’s coming in tomorrow’s post!

Still Figuring Out Time Management (or Little Changes Do Make Big Differences)

When I started working full-time at my customer service job, I didn’t think it would feel that different from how my hours felt before. Before I was working full-time, I was working the mornings at that job and the afternoon at my box office job. So I was working from 9-3 every day between the two jobs before taking on the full-time hours and I knew that was close to what my schedule would be like. I would only have 2 hours more each day and that didn’t seem like a lot.

From the start of working the new hours, it really did feel like I was working a lot more every day. I never knew how much of a difference working 2 hours later a day would feel. I don’t know why working until 5 felt so different from working until 3, but it affected what I was willing to try to do after work. I feel in a way that I lost a part of my afternoon and free time and for a while I was staying up later at night to fit in that time into my day. But I can’t stay up late since I get up early. So I’ve been working for a while on figuring out more time management plans since I’ve been feeling a bit out of control lately.

This is still a work in progress and it will continue to be that way since things never are stable in my life. But I’m slowly figuring out how to manage my new hours and my life again. And it’s good I’m working on it now while things are still not really back in my life because of the pandemic. I’m putting everything into my calendar now, including the drive time to get places, so I make sure I don’t end up doing work when I need to drive somewhere. I am working on blocking off time in my calendar to cook when I plan on cooking because there have been too many times that I wanted to cook and the next thing I knew it was late and I was hungry. I almost have to over-schedule my day in order to have free time again. And I’ve never had to do that before. But then again, I’ve never worked this many hours.

I know that some of my jobs overlap when I work (and all these jobs know that I do that). But I can’t always overlap my hours. And when you look at my hours combined, in my 3 day jobs (not counting stuff like union service), I’m currently working 60-62 hours a week. I know there are a ton of people who work more than that, but I have never had that many hours before. Even before the pandemic, between my jobs I was working only about 38 hours a week. And yes, I’m grateful for every job that I have and I’m happy that I’m in a better financial place than before. But working more hours does make me hyperaware of the potential for burnout. And that’s why I have to schedule free time into my day. It’s far too easy to get up at 5:45am and be working almost non-stop until 7 or 8pm. And I do take little breaks in my day when I can, but I don’t take too long of a break because I don’t want to slack off in my day.

Since I’ve been scheduling more into my day, I am slowly seeing some improvements. But I haven’t been doing it as much as I should, so I know things can get better. And I’ve said this before, but I really want to figure out a good place with balancing my work and my life while I don’t have much happening in my life. When I start to add more to my life, I know I will need the skills that I’m working on building now. And hopefully the work I’m doing now will help prevent me from feeling as overwhelmed and as much burnout as I know could happen.