Monthly Archives: June 2021

2021 Check-In (or The Year Is Halfway Over)

It’s crazy to think that 2021 is half over already! And this first half of the year feels like it was split in half as well since I got my vaccines in the first quarter of the year and in the second quarter I was finally able to relax a bit more and not have so much fear every day. But I’m still not back to my full and normal life since things are not over. But I’m hopeful that maybe the second half of the year might have just as many changes as the first half of the year did!

And just like I have done for the past several years, I set some goals for 2021. It was tough setting goals this time since I had no clue when things would normalize a bit. I knew that I might spend the majority of the year isolated as I did in 2020. So I had to set some goals that could be accomplished isolated in my house or living my life again. And with the year half done, I figure this is the perfect time to check in with myself and see how I’m doing.

My first goal was to do at least 200 workouts. And I’m doing great on that goal! I passed my 100th workout for 2021 last week, so I’m on the perfect pace to get it done. And while I was keeping things going at home when I had to, I’m so glad I’m back in the studio. I know I have better and harder workouts in the studio. And while working out at home did help my mental health a bit, I know working out in the studio helps my mental health even more. It’s crazy to think that I think this is the easiest goal for me to get done every year, but it really is. I’m in a great routine with my workouts and there is very little that can stop me.

My next goal is to work on my budget. This is still a bit of a struggle for me. I’m trying to get my budgeting app in a good place, but I’m also starting to wonder if maybe I need to find a different app to use. Even though I’m not doing great at creating a budget and tracking everything, I am much more aware of my money than I used to be and I’m doing better each month with my spending and making sure I don’t go overboard. I haven’t had a month where I couldn’t pay off my credit card in full since I paid off my debt, and that’s a huge thing for me. I would like to find more ways to be better with my spending and to work on saving more money, but just being this aware of my money is a good step in the right direction. And hopefully, the second half of the year will help me get to where I want to be with budgeting.

The next goal was to organize my house more.  This one is connected to a lot of the monthly challenges I’ve been doing. And I think the idea I had for this goal isn’t exactly what I’ve been doing, but I have been working on it. I’ve been much more aware and cautious about when I buy new things for my house. I make sure that I find really want I want and not just something that will work for now. There are things in my house that need to be replaced for one reason or another, but I’m waiting until I find what I want. And I am working on finding storage solutions so my house doesn’t look as cluttered. Even the small change of putting all my workout stuff into a storage bench did wonders! I don’t just want to hide everything to have the appearance of being organized, I want to actually be organized. That takes a bit more time, but I have been seeing progress.

My next goal was to try more and take more risks. And along with that, being better at accepting failure. I haven’t had as many chances to work on this as I would have liked, but I am taking more chances. There are some things I can’t share just yet, but I am working on getting out of my comfort zone with things that do scare me. I’m also not playing the cool girl in my social life and in dating. As long as it doesn’t hurt anyone, I’m not hiding my feelings. If I am dating someone and really am starting to like them, I tell them. And that does sometimes lead to being ghosted, but I’m working on being ok with that. I would rather be ghosted now when they know what I think than to let something drag on for a long time and not be getting what I want out of a relationship.

And my last goal was to be better about asking for help and support. And this one is one that I feel I have been doing much better about. I struggled to ask for help last year because so many people seemed to downplay how tough things might be for me. I stayed quiet because I didn’t want to correct my friends and let them know I was struggling. But now that I’ve been more open about it, I am getting the support I really could have used last year. And I haven’t had anyone talk down to me or judge me for asking for help and support just because my struggles are different. And that has helped to make this year much easier for me to get through some of the rough times.

Overall, I think I’m doing pretty great with my 2021 goals. I’m not doing perfectly, but I couldn’t expect that from myself. I’m seeing progress in my life and I’m adjusting my goals when I see that I need to do that. And I’m hoping in 6 months when I’m doing my end of the year recap, I will have a lot to share about how I was able to complete my goals!

Finally Back To Brunch (or The First Mentoring Group Meeting In Over A Year)

For the past few years, having meetings with my WIF mentoring group has been a regular part of my life. We have changed the frequency of the meetings over the years, but we have been meeting up regularly since 2015. I’m always so proud of our group for being able to maintain our meetings even after the official mentoring circle time ended. And while there are a few members of our group who aren’t a part of it anymore, a majority of us have stayed connected and we have 6 of us who have been regularly there since the beginning.

In 2020, we had one of our brunches. It was right before everything shut down. I don’t think any of us could have imagined what was going to happen in a few weeks. I know we were all aware of what was happening, but it felt like it was on the other side of the world and wouldn’t come here. But of course, we know now that it did come here and we’ve been dealing with this for over a year now.

We talked about having a meeting over Zoom, but we never ended up making that happen. I think all of us were feeling a bit burned out on Zoom, so we didn’t want to do it. As much as we wanted to connect, we didn’t make it happen. Also, I know for myself, I had nothing to really update the group about.

But earlier this year, we agreed we wanted to see each other again and start our brunches. We wanted to wait until we were all vaccinated, just to keep things as safe as possible. And finally, 16 months after our last brunch, we got together this past weekend.

Almost everyone could make it, so that was nice. We used to do our brunches at a restaurant, but we wanted to wait until restaurants were a bit safer. So one member of the group offered to host. That’s how the group started, so it seemed fitting that the restart of the group would be the same way.

It was a really hot morning, but we were able to be in the shade so it wasn’t too bad. And I was just so happy to get to see everyone again! I just wanted to catch up with everyone, even if it was more of a social catch-up than a career one.

But we still went around the group to discuss what we’ve been able to accomplish in the past year. Some people had more than others, but that’s ok. Honestly, I’m just glad we are all ok. One member of the group had gotten COVID, but she didn’t have too severe of a case and she is fine now. But I know how lucky we are that everyone is safe and healthy.

And I did share the few career-related things I had to update everyone on. I have had auditions during the shutdown and I have gotten better at self-taping. I also have a way to do voiceover auditions now, and I didn’t do those before. And I shared some of the struggles I had while isolated and not being able to be around others. It was nice to share those things with a group that understood how I felt and was completely supportive of me.

We had a longer brunch than normal. Partially because we hadn’t seen each other in a while and partially because we weren’t at a restaurant and felt like we needed to leave. I’m so happy we did this. I missed all of these women so much and I missed the support of the group and the special bond we have with each other. And I needed time around friends, and this was the biggest group of friends I’ve been around in a long time.

We are hopefully now back on track with our regular meetings. We might not be back at a restaurant for a bit longer, but we will find ways to meet regularly. Maybe we will just rotate from one house to another. Maybe we will find a park or other public space. We don’t know how we will meet up just yet, but we know we will meet.

I’ve said so many times how special this group is. And showing how we didn’t let a pandemic stop us just proves it even more.

Struggling Through My Week (or Still Just Doing What I Can)

This past week of workouts was pretty tough for me. I knew that my pain and nausea would be returning, but I had not been prepared for it to be so bad or so early in the week. The good thing is that it seemed to be the worst on Monday and got a little better each day. But I was surprised when it hit me on Monday because I was expecting another day or two before I had to deal with it.

Not only was the pain and nausea at their peak on Monday, but it was also one of the really tough signature workouts. This time, it was Orange Inferno. I’ve done this workout before, and I’m pretty certain I’ve done it as a 2 group class. But having a tough signature workout plus my health issues made it harder than any other Inferno I remembered.

The idea of Inferno is that you have a run/row for the entire cardio block. The run (or bike) distance is always the same. And the rowing starts with a 100-meter row and increases by 100-meters every time you are on the rower. You don’t reset the rower the entire 23-minutes, so you are challenging yourself to get as far as you can on the rower in that time. Considering how I felt, I’m happy with how I did on the bike. My time wasn’t great, but it was close to what I would have wanted to do. And on the rower, I did ok with the first few rows since they were shorter. The longer rows were really hard and I took a lot of breaks. But I just tried to go when I could and rest when I needed to. I didn’t get that far by the end, but I’m not too upset about that.

On the floor, we had 3 blocks. The first block had push-ups, chest fly with weights, overhead tricep extensions with weights, and crunches with over unders. The second block had plank low rows with weights, low rows on the straps, hammer curls with weights, and bird dogs. And the last block had hip raises and dead bugs core work. For all the face-down and plank work, I modified it to be using the bench. And for those modified exercises, I took a lot of breaks to let the pain and nausea pass.

Wednesday’s workout was a power day, and while I still felt pretty awful, I was doing better than Monday. This power day had a lot of short intervals, which helped a bit too. But it was still tough work and I pushed when I could.

For cardio, we had 4 blocks. Blocks 1 and 3 were the same and blocks 2 and 4 were the same. Blocks 1 and 3 were run/row blocks. We had a .1 mile run (the bike does 4 times the distance) and then a 100-meter row. We repeated that until the end of the block. I did ok with that since they were all short distances and I was able to take little breaks when switching back and forth. Blocks 2 and 4 were timed and we had rounds of 30-second all-outs followed by 45-second recoveries.

On the floor, we also had 4 blocks. Block 1 had lunges and plank side leg lifts. Block 2 was with the cardio timing and we had rounds of 30-seconds of front squats and 24 foot exchanges in the 45-second part. Our rest was in the 45-second segment for whatever time leftover we had. Block 3 had single-arm hip hinges and thread the needles (which I modified slightly, but still had to be face down a lot). And the last block was again timed with cardio and we had 30-seconds of lunges and 24 high knees in the 45-second segment with a little rest with the extra time.

Friday’s workout was an endurance day, and I really liked the cardio challenge. Even with my pain and nausea, this was a great reminder of what I can do when I push myself and don’t focus too much on anything other than trying.

The cardio was 6 rounds of a 3-minute distance challenge. And after each one, we had 1-minute to recover. The goal wasn’t to increase things each round or to be close to our push pace. It was all about trying to maintain the speed every round because it was naturally going to get tougher each round. I focused on my cadence on the bike and not how hard I was pedaling. And I was able to be within a 6 reps per minute range for every 3-minute challenge.

On the floor, we had 6 blocks and they were all 3-minutes as well. The first block had mini-band work with walkouts and in and outs (I did the walkouts on the bench). The second block was with weights and we had uppercuts, and front bench tap squats. The third block was more mini-bank work with more in and outs and isolated squat walks. The fourth block was TRX work with low rows and bicep curls. The fifth block was mini-bands again with crunch in and outs and toe reaches. And the last block was on the rower for a 3-minute row. Just like the other workouts this week, I took breaks when I needed to but things were continuing to get better so it wasn’t as often as Monday or Wednesday.

By Saturday, I was almost feeling like myself. I was still having some pain and nausea, but it was so different from the beginning of the week. And it allowed me to do more of the workout with fewer breaks. This workout was a strength-based class and it was my only 3 group class for the week.

We had 2 blocks in each section of the room. For both cardio blocks, we had hills with increasing incline/resistance with base pace recoveries between each of the hill intervals. The first block had hill intervals that were 1-minute each and the second block had hill intervals that were 30-seconds each. And the resistance levels on the bike got really high for me. But I took advantage of this challenge and really focused on my cadence during the entire time. I was able to pedal faster when we were doing our base recovery intervals, but I did manage to keep the cadence the same even as we got higher up the hill. I haven’t focused too much on that on strength days before, but it was good to track it and I think I will keep that in mind for the future.

On the rower, both blocks had rowing intervals with medicine ball exercises between each interval. In both blocks, we had overhead presses and front presses with the medicine ball. In the first block, we started with a 200-meter row and we were supposed to count the strokes it took to get there. Then, for each interval after, we reduced 1 from the stroke count. We didn’t reset the rower and we used the total distance rowed for the second block. We did half of the total distance for the first interval in the second block and kept cutting it in half each time.

And on the floor, even though I was feeling better as far as pain and nausea goes, I had to do a few modifications due to my hip. Both blocks started with the same core work with sit-ups (which I did as crunches) and bicycle crunches. Then in the first block, we had lateral lunges and sumo squats. I can do both of those without too many modifications, but I do adjust them a little to make them hurt less. And in the second block, we also had swing lunges and pivot lunges. Neither of those were things I could really do, so I did weighted lunges and then supported lunges with holding on to the wall (I can go lower in my lunges when I’m supported, so it was a good mix). But I was grateful there was nothing face down while on the floor because I knew that would make me feel worse.

Even when I’m prepared for having a week of nausea, it can sometimes still surprise me or hit me in a different way. But I am so grateful that even though it was a bad week, it only started off bad and got better every day after.

Cleaning Up From The Pandemic (or Storing Away The Things I Needed This Past Year)

I bought a lot of new things right after everything shut down. Some of it was stuff I got to organize my house or redecorate. I got a lot of random projects done while I wasn’t working and isolating myself in my house. I also got things I needed to survive during the pandemic. I remember how hard it was to find masks right when they were required. I had some fabric I used to turn into a makeshift mask, but as soon as I was able to order some better ones, I did. And I got quite a few of them. Some were to have some cute-looking ones and others were for specific functions (like the workout masks I got). And the other big thing I got to survive the pandemic was everything I got for my home gym.

I slowly acquired things for my little home gym. So many things that people would use for workouts were very hard to find at first because everyone was shopping for the same thing. So I had a little random collection of things when I started. And I slowly added to it with more and more equipment and things I wanted to use in my home workouts. While I still had things that were on my wishlist for home gym items, either they were not things I could get due to money or availability or I just didn’t have space. And while I was doing all my workouts at home, I kept all my gym stuff in a little corner of my living room. I did store some of the things I didn’t use as often in the big fabric hamper, but most of it was just laying on the ground. Things weren’t messy, but they were a bit cluttered feeling.

Once I started back at Orangetheory, I knew that I probably wasn’t going to use my home gym equipment like I had been doing. I wasn’t going to get rid of what I got because I know that there will likely be a time in the future that I want to do more than just the workouts in the studio. So I had to figure out what to do. I do have a garage that I can store things in, and I considered getting a big plastic tub to put everything in. But I know if I do that then I will probably not use that stuff again, at least while it’s there. So I started to look for good storage solutions for inside my house.

It’s never easy for me to find new things for my house because I have such limited space. I also wanted something big enough to fit most of the home gym stuff together (I knew it wouldn’t be possible to get everything together unless it was a giant storage unit). I didn’t have to move everything by a certain date, so I took my time looking for what I wanted. I wasn’t going to buy something super expensive, but even something that’s under $150 is something that I should make sure I really want so I don’t waste my money. And it took a while to find something and I debated between different ideas (storage bench versus an ottoman for my couch, for example). But I finally found something that fit the space I had and I thought would look good next to other things I have.

I only ordered it a few days ago, but somehow it arrived already at my house! I wasn’t expecting to have it until next week, but getting it early just meant to could start organizing things earlier too. After having a few struggles with building it (I didn’t realize you had to elevate part of the bench to screw the top on), I got it done and started to put my home gym away.

I did have some mismeasurements when I was planning because I thought it would fit my medicine ball and it was just a bit too small. But since I was already planning on not being able to fit everything in there, it’s ok if one more thing had to find a different place. I think I can store that in my closet or somewhere else, I’m still working on it. But almost everything else I used for my home workouts is now organized away so I can have it available if I want to work out but hidden if I’m not going to need it. And I do like that this storage bench provides extra seating if I need it.

Having everything put away makes my home feel a bit more like what it used to. At some point, I’m sure I’ll be storing away all the masks I’ve gotten as well. But for now, I still wear them when I’m out in public around a lot of people. And in the future, all the things I got to survive the pandemic will be stored away and just memories instead of things I need to use all the time.

Getting Back Into Podcasts (or Finding More Time Even When I’m Busier)

For a long time, podcasts have been the main thing that I listen to when I’m listening to something. When I used to drive to my day job, I listened to podcasts in the car. When I was driving around LA doing things, I listened to podcasts. Once I started working at home and wasn’t on the phone during my entire work shift, I had podcasts going while I worked and I paused the episode when I had to take a call or do something else that required my full attention. I’m not a big music person, so I rarely would listen to music instead of a podcast. The few times I did listen to music, it was due to me being out of episodes to listen to.

When I wasn’t working, even though I had all the time in my day, I wasn’t listening to podcasts that often. I don’t listen to them when I’m just sitting around my house, and I definitely don’t listen when I’m watching tv or reading. So even though I had more time than ever, my podcast listening went down. And when I wasn’t listening as much, I started to evaluate the podcasts I was subscribed to.

For a long time, I would listen to every episode of every podcast I was subscribed to. That became harder as I had more and more podcasts on my lists. It took me a while to be ok with deleting random episodes if they were interviewing a guest I wasn’t interested in or discussing a topic I didn’t care for. And it took even longer for me to start deleting shows as I realized I’m not enjoying them as much. But there is no reason for me to keep podcasts in my feed that I knew I wasn’t going to listen to. I became a bit more selective while I was out of work because I wasn’t listening as much. But most of the deleting happened before the pandemic.

Even when I was deleting shows I wasn’t listening to anymore, I always had a ton of podcasts in my feed. I can’t remember a time where I was subscribed to fewer than 20 shows. Some of them have episodes every day, some are sporadic. And there is a variety of lengths, with the shortest ones being around 5 minutes and the longest ones going an hour or two. And I could always pick and choose what I wanted to listen to during different tasks. Some are better for work and some are better for when I’m driving. I’ve always had fun picking out what I want to listen to for the next few hours.

Now, I’m getting more and more used to my work schedule. And I do have a lot of time that I’m not on the phone between all of my jobs that I can listen to podcasts again. I do still have times I need to have quiet to focus on a task, but so much work I do is a form of data entry, and having something to keep me entertained helps to pass the time. There are some podcasts that are easier to listen to at work than others, so there are some podcasts I have to carve time out in other parts of my day. But those tend to be the fiction podcasts, where I have to follow the story, and not the interview or news-related podcasts.

It’s crazy that somehow it feels like I have more time to listen to podcasts now that I actually have less free time in my day. But I’m glad I still enjoy podcasts and have something to keep me entertained while I work. I think working in silence would make the time go by slower and I do spend a lot of hours every day in front of my computer. Just like so many other parts of my life, this is another part that is finally getting back to the normal that I’m used to and it makes me happy.

 

Mental Health Lessons From The Pandemic (or I’ve Gained New Empathy Over The Past Year)

I think most of us around the world have an odd time regarding mental health since March 2020. Some gained new anxieties and fears. Some learned how we really are introverts or extroverts. Some gained new coping mechanisms (both healthy and unhealthy). And some learned to prioritize their mental health for the first time. Even though I have been very aware of my mental health and mental health issues, so many things have changed how I think about things because of what we all went through.

I have had some real low points, and I have learned to appreciate the little things that make me happy. And yes, I have picked up some coping mechanisms that aren’t the healthiest and I’m working to fix things so I don’t rely on those as much. And while I do wish we didn’t have to go through all this, it has been interesting to see what things I have learned regarding mental health for myself and for what others experienced.

For example, when things shut down and so many of us were numb, I learned a lot about how our brains protect us when things are too overwhelming and that’s why we might be numb. We might not understand how bad things are even if we have the information and facts. Some people might have been acting like things weren’t as bad as they were because of this. But some people just refused to believe it and were defiant. Most of the people who were numb didn’t speak out too much about feeling that way because they didn’t know that’s what they were experiencing.

And right now, with so many of us hesitating about going back out in the world, there have been discussions and posts online about how some trauma takes time to show in our lives and we might be reacting to the trauma of the shutdown now. Some of the fear and anxiety might have not been felt before if we were numb and now we are seeing how serious things really are. And when you see so many people out there not caring about wearing a mask or being vaccinated, it can make things worse when there are so many unknowns about what happens there is a new surge.

And besides learning about current mental health issues and how they connect with me, I have learned a lot about how this experience relates to things that I had no clue about before. The best example I saw was discussing how the time we are in right now is only a fraction of what people who were in prison and getting out experience.

For a while, we have lived condensed lives. We haven’t seen many people, had to make that many choices about what to do, and we have stopped being social. When someone is leaving prison, they experience so much of the same but also so much more. And I know that I never gave too much thought about how long it might take someone to reenter the world after prison. I know I’ve thought about things from a technology standpoint and thinking how overwhelming it might be if someone went to prison when cell phones were basic and now they are handed an iPhone. But also, now I can understand wanting to stay isolated even when that’s what they’ve been experiencing for so long. Not wanting to be in big groups or around a lot of people makes a lot more sense. When you go from such a limited life to a full life, everything seems like a lot.

And I don’t think I could have truly understood this feeling without experiencing it a bit myself. Even though I do get burnout and overwhelmed, this is a different level of it. It’s almost like sometimes I can’t focus on things because there are so many possibilities for me. There aren’t things I’m necessarily trying to do to overcome this feeling besides be gentle with myself and not feel like I have to go out to do things just because I can.

I’m sure that one day, looking back at this time I will have more lessons I’ve learned and things I appreciate. But for now, I’m just grateful for the little bits that I’ve learned, the new skills I have, and being more aware of situations others may be experiencing.

Hair And Groceries (or Being Out And About When Masks Aren’t Required)

I wrote last week about how I was nervous about going out and doing things now that things have reopened and masks were no longer required for people who are vaccinated. I would probably feel differently if I knew that the people without masks were really people who were vaccinated, but since they aren’t currently requiring proof I can’t know that for sure. I do know that a lot of people in LA have been vaccinated and we are having lower case rates than many places around the country. But there are still cases every day and it is slightly increasing right now. This is nothing like the surges in the past and I don’t know if the new cases could be all unvaccinated people. So I have to continue to believe that things really are getting better, even if they aren’t completely better yet.

I wasn’t sure how soon I’d be going out and doing errands and other things now that things are reopened. I really thought it might take a week or so to feel ok. But it turns out that it happened over the weekend when I had a few things to do on Sunday.

First, I got my hair done on Sunday. This isn’t the first time I’ve had my hair done since the shutdown nor is it the first time I was in a hair salon since. I went to my friend Erin’s salon toward the end of last year to have her do my hair. When I went then, we both knew that we had to be careful. We were both in KN95 masks and there weren’t any other people in the salon. But besides that time, I either dyed my hair at home or I went to Erin’s house to have her do it. And originally, I thought I was going to go to her house to have my hair done, but she’s at a new salon now and wasn’t able to have me come to her place. But we picked a day and time when there weren’t a lot of other people with appointments.

It is weird to figure out if it’s ok to not wear a mask or not. I know that I am pretty safe since I am vaccinated, but I also don’t want to make a dumb decision. But with Erin, we are at Orangetheory together without masks, so I wasn’t as worried about being around her. I did keep my mask on for some of my appointment and had it off for other parts of it. I will say, being without a mask in public does seem really odd to me. It’s weird how quickly this has become a part of what feels normal, especially when it did take me some time to be comfortable with it.

I’m glad I got my hair done and I’m glad I’m back to a somewhat regular routine with it. I haven’t started back with other parts of my beauty and self-care routine that I don’t do at home, but I know that will come eventually. I think getting used to things one at a time is going to be key for me and my anxiety.

Since I was already out and about, I decided to go to the grocery store too. I know that I can still get groceries delivered and I do plan on continuing that for a while for some things, but I’m trying to get back to being not as isolated all the time. Plus, I wanted to go to Trader Joe’s and I can’t get things delivered from there (and some things are only found at Trader Joe’s). I knew that whatever the policy was there, I was going to wear my mask. The store isn’t that big and people can be close together. And for me, it was important to feel ok with being there and that required wearing a mask.

There was a sign in front saying their policy was that vaccinated people had the option to be without a mask but if you were unvaccinated you were required to wear one. And just like everywhere else, this was on the honor policy. But I will say almost everyone inside was wearing a mask. It was pretty crowded since I was there on a Sunday afternoon, and I think I only saw 3 or 4 people without masks. Nobody was making wearing a mask a big deal and it seemed like we all knew that it was just as normal of a thing to do as wearing shoes. Seeing that a majority of the people there were wearing masks made me feel much better about going out for groceries and not letting my anxiety or fear stop me and only use delivery services.

It will really be baby steps back to my normal life unless a miracle happens and there are no more cases anywhere. I don’t think that will happen and it will hopefully slowly be getting better until things are like they used to be. And if there are better treatment options for COVID so getting it would be more like getting a cold or the regular flu, then that will help too. But knowing how dangerous it can be and how bad the long-term symptoms can affect someone makes me feel like I have to be careful to stay safe.

But I’m glad that I didn’t continue to let fear or anxiety stop me and I started to rejoin the world again. It’s been a long 15 months and I am ready to see what else in my old life I can regain and enjoy again.

A Week Of Workout Changes (or Getting Used To Some New Things And Getting Used To Some Returning Things)

This past week, there were a lot of changes at my Orangetheory studio. Some of these changes were back to things that I was used to before the shutdown and some of them were brand new to me. But for the most part, every single workout this week was different from the week before for me. And I know that things will continue to change for me as things continue to get safer and get back to how they were before, but I think having so many changes at once was a bit shocking.

Monday’s workout was my first 6:30 am class, and it worried me about getting up that early. But I have been slowly adjusting my wakeup time so fortunately, it wasn’t too bad when my alarm went off. I had never worked out that early before, but if I wanted to work out before work, that was the latest time option I had with the new schedule. I still am hoping that the schedule will change again soon so that I don’t have to be up quite as early, but it seems like it will be doable until things change.

The workout was a strength-based class and it was a 3 group class (my last morning 3 group class for a while). For cardio, we had 2 blocks but they had similar patterns. In both blocks, we had a set distance we were supposed to do and the incline/resistance level went up by 1 each round. The first block had a bit longer of a distance for each round, but for both blocks, they were pretty short and it was nice to get to a recovery break quickly. I never got the resistance level up too high, but I did most of my work higher than my normal base resistance level.

For the rower, we had one long block. We started with a 250-meter row and it went down by 50-meters each round until it was a 100-meter row and then it repeated from the top. In the first round, we had high knees between each row, the second round had lunges between each row, and in the last round, we had shuffles between each round.

And on the floor, we had 2 blocks. The first block had deadlifts, side lunges, and step-ups (which I modified to be regular lunges). And the second block had sumo squats, hip bridge tricep extensions, and bridge chest fly. I did try to go a bit heavy with the weights, but I’m still using a little lighter weights than I was using before the shutdown.

Wednesday’s class had even more changes for me. Besides it also being at 6:30 am, t was the first class I had where masks were optional as long as you were fully vaccinated. This was something I hesitated on, but I ended up deciding to go without a mask but keep one with me in case I changed my mind. It also was the first 2 group class I’ve had in a long time. 2 group classes used to be what I had all the time, and they are great for a lot of reasons. But I also knew it would mean less rowing for me.

On both cardio and the floor, we had 5 blocks. For cardio, 3 of those 5 blocks were 2-minute distance challenges. And the goal every time was to beat the distance from the previous time. And the other 2 blocks were similar patterns with 45-seconds of base pace at an incline and 30-seconds of a base pace without incline for 4 rounds plus a 30-second all-out at the end. The first one had increasing inclines and the second had decreasing inclines. And they were high and I had to use very high resistance levels on the bike. It was a really challenging cardio section. Not only because of the resistance levels but because this was the longest time I’ve been on the bike for a very long time.

On the floor, we also have 5 blocks. The first and last blocks were both 2-minute row challenges and the goal was to do better on the second row than the first. I managed to get about 50 meters further the second time, which shocked me since I was so tired at the very end of the workout! We also had 1 more 2-minute block in the middle that was just 2 minutes of squat jacks to burpees (which I had to take very slow and didn’t get a lot of reps in). And for the long blocks, we had 3 exercises each. One block had clean to front squats with weights, lunges with hops, and push-ups. And the other block had weighted lunges, plank jacks, and low rows on the straps.

I was happy to not need to wear a mask anymore. Even though I didn’t struggle too much wearing it in class, it was nice to be able to easily take a drink of water when I needed to. And I’m glad that I didn’t do too bad in my first 2 group class since I knew it was going to be very different from what I have been used to since I started back.

Friday’s class didn’t have any new changes for me, but it was still an early 2 group class that was mask-optional. This workout was a strength-based class and I knew it would still be a challenge with being on the bike for so long. I’m sure I will get used to the longer cardio soon, but for now, it will probably still be tough for me.

For cardio, we started rounds of base paces at inclines followed by base paces with no incline and then an all-out followed by a longer block of just incline work. The incline started at the highest point and then went down and then we started back up the hill again. For the first half, as the incline went down the time we were at an incline went up. And in the last part, as we were going back up the incline, every incline was done for a minute. I was using the higher resistance levels on the bike and I was pedaling really slow for so much of it, but I was really proud of myself for not going easy on myself with the hills.

On the floor, we only had floor work so there was no rowing. The first 3 blocks had a bit of an add-on element and the last block had a takeaway element. The first 3 blocks all started with 1 round of bear steps. The second block added toe reaches and the third block also added on static crunches with scissor kicks. And all 3 of those blocks followed those add-on exercises with rounds of tricep extensions, chest press to reaches, and seated low rows. The last block had all 3 add-on exercises plus plank in and outs and we did 4 rounds with taking away one exercise each round. Then we had the same weighted exercises. My arms were so tired doing all the weight work since I was exercising a lot of the same muscles and the floor was for half the class (instead of a third which is what I’ve been used to), but it was good and I’m proud of what I was able to get done.

Saturday’s class was a 3 group class (for now, that will be my only 3 group class a week until things change up again). But it was at a slightly different time than I’ve been used to. This time change wasn’t as bad as the morning one, I just have a little more time between ending work on Saturdays and when my workout happens so I can get a few things done around my house between the two things.

The workout was a power day and there was a lot of emphasis on making sure we pushed ourselves hard, especially for cardio. There was a lot of recovery time in each block, so if we didn’t push hard then the workout would be much easier than it should be. We had rounds of push paces followed by base paces and then an all-out. The push paces weren’t too long, so I really did focus on getting my pedaling speed up and maintaining it the entire time. And for the all-outs, I really tried to maximize how quickly I could pedal without losing control. When we had the base paces or the recovery time, I was taking little breaks, mainly to drink water, but I was usually ready to pick things up again when we were back to the rest of the block.

On the rower, we had 3 blocks that all had repeats of a certain row distance plus exercises. I actually never made it to the exercises for any block (those exercises were frogger squats and then a squat hold), so I just did all the distance rows. The first block was 5 rounds of 100-meter rows, the second block was 4 rounds of 150-meter rows, and the last block was 3 rounds of 200-meter rows. Between each round, we were supposed to keep rowing but do 5-10 recovery strokes so they could be really slow. I didn’t go too crazy with any of my rowing since I knew I was pretty much going to be rowing for the entire block, but none of my times were that bad or off of what I would want to do.

And on the floor, we also had 3 blocks. The first block had ultimate burpees with half thrusters and lateral crunches on the Bosu. I had to modify the burpees and I broke them down into different parts and did those separately. So I did push-ups, plank rows, and squats. The second block had tripod burpees (which I just modified to be slower and walking in and out) and v-ups. And the last block had hip hinge swings and running man on the Bosu. It wasn’t my best floor block since I had to modify so much of it, but I was grateful it was a 3 group class since that meant I wasn’t on the floor as long.

Overall, considering all the changes I had this past week, I’m proud of how quickly I adapted. I wasn’t too worried about adapting to not wearing a mask, that was more of just feeling ok with it. But getting used to early workouts and going back to 2 group classes worried me. But like so many things I have worried about, I didn’t need to. My body adapted quickly and I’m sure this will feel normal and routine to me in no time. Probably right before things change up again.

More Heatwave Annoyances (or I Hate That This Seems To Always Surprise Me)

I have written multiple posts about being annoyed with the heat. It used to be much worse in my house when I didn’t have my window a/c unit. Back then, I was getting very sick from the heat and I didn’t have a great way to escape it other than to be in my car. With my a/c, it’s not perfect in my house, but it’s significantly better. And considering how many hours a day I am in my house at my computer, I’m so grateful that I can make it tolerable in my house. But since it is still warm, I do still deal with the side effect of the heat.

This shouldn’t be a surprise to me. I’ve been experiencing this for as long as I can remember. But it always does shock me when it’s hot out and my body is having weird reactions. And right now, we are in a big heatwave and my body reacted immediately.

I’m so much more irritated right now than I normally am. The heat makes it hard for me to sleep and I know that I’m also less hydrated than normal (but I’m not really dehydrated since I drink so much water every day). I also just feel uncomfortable in general between the air feeling heavy and feeling a bit gross because I get sweaty. And the worst side effect from the heat is having my body swell up. I know others have it worse than I do and I’m lucky that most of my swelling isn’t extreme. But it’s so frustrating and annoying when the swelling makes it so my clothes either don’t fit or don’t fit the way I am used to.

I think the swelling also probably adds to my irritation, but overall the swelling is the reaction or side effect I hate the most. I hate the feeling like I’ve gained weight overnight without knowing when it might be better (unlike PMS swelling which is somewhat predictable). It really messes with my mind and puts me in a really negative headspace with recovery efforts. I feel like I’ve screwed up somehow and that all the efforts I’ve made so far are worthless. I know in reality that isn’t true, but it’s hard to convince myself of that sometimes.

I don’t think there is much I can do about the swelling. Even if I had a better a/c unit, I think whenever I would leave my house I would experience it. I am looking at maybe getting a little fan or a mini a/c unit to put on my desk because that might help to make me a little more comfortable while I’m working. I also have cooling towels that I could put on me while I work if I need to. But I don’t think it will do much more than provide comfort. For the other issues, I just have to wait until it cools down a bit.

And I know it will cool down eventually and hopefully things will be a bit easier on me for a bit before the next heatwave. And I’m sure there will be at least one more big heatwave this summer since summer has only begun. Hopefully, at the next heatwave, I won’t be as surprised when this all happens to me or I have a better way to manage it and react.

Thoughts About The Reopening (or Feeling Safe And Scared At Once)

This week, California officially reopened after being shut down for over a year. This has been a process happening over the past few months, but it drastically changed this week. Now, there are no occupancy restrictions anymore and it is not required for everywhere to require masks. There are a few places that still require masks like on public transportation and at medical centers, plus businesses can decide they are going to require them, but for the most part, masks aren’t needed anymore.

This is what we were all waiting for. This is what I’ve been wanting for so long. But now that it’s here, it makes me so incredibly nervous. I know when things shut down at first, I couldn’t wait for them to be normal again. But the longer the shutdown happened, the less I felt like I was ready to be back. I don’t want to wear a mask forever, but I have gotten used to it. And the few times I’ve been maskless recently (like when I have been out to dinner) have felt like I’ve been doing something illegal even though it was allowed.

I know that I am pretty safe. I am fully vaccinated. Even though medically I am higher risk, being vaccinated helps a lot and I don’t spend time around a lot of people who aren’t vaccinated. I don’t spend a lot of time around anyone even if they are vaccinated. I do take some risks that others don’t, like going to Orangetheory, but in general, I do not take many risks and still spend a lot of my time isolated.

With things reopening, I am a bit nervous to go out and about and do things like errands. I know I can still wear my own mask and will probably do that for a little longer. I want to see how things look in a few weeks after we’ve had some time without masks before I feel more comfortable being maskless all the time. I don’t know if my grocery store requires them right now or not, but I would hope that people in my neighborhood are either vaccinated or wear masks if they are not. I know that unvaccinated people might not wear masks since people aren’t confirming anyone has been vaccinated, but I hope that it’s a very small minority of the people that I would encounter.

Despite being nervous and scared about how things will go from now on, I’m also so excited to keep getting parts of my life back. I want to go to stores to shop instead of ordering online. I want to go out to see movies. I want to enjoy more meals out. I want to feel like I can be safe doing things that I used to do all the time without thinking twice about them. I just don’t feel ready quite yet to jump into all of that yet.

I know that for a while, my nerves were stronger than my want to go out and enjoy my life again. Now, I would say things are 50/50. And I bet soon, wanting to go out again will be more than my nerves and I will feel much better about joining the real world again. I will still probably be cautious for a while since I know things aren’t over and I don’t want to take a risk I will regret. But every time things move a bit more toward normal, I do have hope that it will continue that way and soon this will all be in the past.