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Dating App Whirlwind (or I’m Glad I Only Wasted 15 Minutes)

I know that I often write about negative things about dating or dating apps. And this is going to be another negative story. But I also want to say that it’s not all horrible and bad. But the good stories tend to not be as interesting to share. There are plenty of guys I’ve gone out with and had a nice date but it didn’t go any further. Sometimes I’m the one who declines a second date and sometimes it’s the guy. And yes, sometimes they tell me by ghosting me and that’s not fun. But for the most part, the dates I go on are either good or neutral. They are rarely really bad.

And it’s even rarer when I don’t even make it on a date and it turns out really bad. I have gotten a lot of messages that have taken a turn really quickly and they went from seeming nice to writing something really dirty or gross. And that’s annoying, but it’s easy enough to unmatch with someone and block them or report them if I feel like that’s necessary. I no longer have a lot of tolerance for messages that feel inappropriate and I’ll admit that I’m quick to unmatch. But I also don’t feel like I need to entertain someone’s bad behavior. If they seem like they made a bad joke, I might see if things change back. But I don’t have to keep giving strangers multiple chances, especially when they should be on their best behavior when they are just starting to message with me.

And then sometimes, things take a turn for the worst so quickly that I am completely shocked. And that’s what happened to me the other day.

I matched with someone new the other day. This match was on Bumble, so I had to message him first. I have a few different go-to opening lines that hopefully will start a conversation, so I asked him what question he wished someone would ask him on Bumble that he is never asked. He wrote back saying he’d like to know how his matches like to take care of others. It was a bit of an odd answer, but nothing too bad. We exchanged another message or two and then he called me. You can make voice and video calls through Bumble (which I like because I’d prefer not to give out my number until I meet someone in real life), but most people don’t make calls. This guy’s profile did mention he required a call before meeting (which I don’t require but can respect), but I wasn’t expecting him to call him so quickly.

And the call got off to a weird start. I know I was awkward. I was in the middle of doing some work around my house and not in the best headspace to talk on the phone (but I also felt weird declining the call). He said that he requires calls so I should be surprised, but I would have expected him to ask me if I could talk at the time or try to set up a good time to talk later. Then he went into what felt like a very rehearsed introduction. He said his name, what he does, how he doesn’t live in LA but is moving here soon, and a few other details about himself. He sped through saying it all so it was hard to catch everything he said, but I tried to listen. And then I told him a little about myself, but not quite as much as he shared with me.

He asked me about being an actor and joked how I was just another struggling actress in LA. I was really taken aback by that statement and said that while I might not make my living as an actor right now that I wouldn’t call myself struggling (I might consider myself that a bit, but he doesn’t need to know that). Then he asked me why I swiped right on him. Honestly, I was wondering that myself at that point. I said something like how he seemed interesting and I’m trying to give more people chances. And then I asked him why he swiped right on me.

He said he didn’t. He pays for Bumble and when you pay you can see who has already swiped right on you (I pay for this as well and have access to do the same, but I swipe through the feed too). He said that he doesn’t swipe himself, he only approves of the women who already swiped right on him. And he doesn’t look at their profiles or photos. He approves everyone and then decides if they are worthwhile when he talks to them. He went on and on about how he gets 400 matches a day and that he doesn’t have time to look at any profiles so he needs the women to explain why they are good matches to him. Basically, he wanted me to sell myself to him to try to convince him to want to date me. And I don’t need to do that.

I don’t need to be a living breathing version of my profile when someone claims they can’t waste time reading my profile. I have no interest in talking to someone who only matched with me because I swiped on them and that they have no interest in me until I prove it to him. I have nothing I owe someone or need to prove to them. If they want to date me and I want to date them, then awesome. But I’m not going to fawn all over someone just because they matched with me to get a date with them.

I’ll admit that I called this guy a few choice names before ending the call and unmatching and blocking him. I also reported him for a few things he called me that were inappropriate. From the time that he and I matched to the time that I blocked him was only 15 minutes. It felt like it was so much longer and I also couldn’t believe how much happen in that short of time. But I am grateful that I didn’t waste more time on someone who didn’t seem like a decent person.

I know that his profile got removed (I doubt I was the only one to complain about his behavior), but I have seen a new profile by him so I blocked that as well. And hopefully I’m able to block any future profiles he might create. I don’t have any desire to talk to this guy again. Even if he’s changed his ways and now acts more normal on apps, I gave him a chance and don’t feel the need to give him another chance.

And I was mad and annoyed at the time when this all happened because it is frustrating when I waste time and find out a match isn’t someone I’d really want to talk to. But it also gives me another funny and crazy story to share about my adventures in online dating. And at least others can get some entertainment out of what happens to me.

My First 90 Minute Class (or This Was Intense And Awesome)

As I mentioned in yesterday’s post, I was going to save my Saturday workout for another post. And that’s because my Saturday workout was my very first 90-minute Orangetheory class! 90-minute classes aren’t usually on the regular schedule, but they do them throughout the year. And for the most part, these classes are also special donation classes that are to help raise money for different charities. The 90-minute classes have never been in my usual class time before, so I never really thought too much about taking one. But the one on Saturday was during when I usually am there on Saturdays, so it felt like it was meant to be and I signed up!

Because this month is Pride Month, the charity we raised money for was The Trevor Project. The Trevor Project is an amazing organization that helps young people in crisis. They also have other support programs for LBGTQ youth and I think that’s amazing. While I’ve never needed this type of support, I have friends who have and I want to be a good ally to others. So I was happy to donate to The Trevor Project and got ready to take the 90-minute class.

I have done some classes that lasted longer than 60-minutes (like the DriTris), but they usually haven’t been much longer than maybe 70-minutes. And while I knew that I would be ok working out longer than I’m used to, I was a bit nervous. I wanted to make sure I didn’t go too hard at the beginning because the class was going to be 50% longer than I’m used to. But what helped me was thinking that the length of time I’d be at each section of the room was similar to what it’s like in a 2G class, but I was going to have it in all 3 sections of the room. Having that mindset made me feel a bit more at ease even with my nerves.

This class also was 80s themed, but I don’t really have any good 80s workout gear. I just wore my regular workout clothes and hoped I wouldn’t be the only one not in a cute outfit (fortunately, it was a mix of people in regular workout clothes and themed clothes). And it was being coached by Coach Benzo, who I currently have as my Wednesday and Friday coach. I knew he’d do an amazing playlist and that would help keep me motivated too.

The workout was similar to what I’m used to, just with extra work. But the way it was split up was nice because we were in each section of the room twice. The first time around was similar to what we do in a regular 3G class, so that felt fine. Then the second time around the room was the extra time and I was feeling more prepared for it. We had 4 blocks in each section of the room, 2 blocks in the first round through and 2 blocks in the second round through.

For cardio, the first block was a 6-minute distance challenge. This was a good way to ease into the class and I was able to do the entire thing at the new resistance level I’ve been using. I did stay alert to not going too hard at first, but it felt good and I was able to be pretty consistent through the entire time. And the second block was 4 rounds of 1-minute push paces and 30-second base paces with a 30-second all-out at the end. The goal was to match or beat your first distance and I was able to do that! Once we were back to cardio again after rotating through the entire room, the next block was a 3-minute distance challenge followed by a 90-second distance challenge. And the goal was to get at least half the distance in the 90-second one as you did in the 3-minute one. And we ended with a 1-minute all-out and a 30-second all-out.

The first rowing block was timed out with the floor block. But it was 6 rounds of 30-second base rows, 20-second push rows, and 10-second all-out rows. It was hard to try to row for 6-minutes without a break and I did have to take a few moments to recover. But I did try to do them during the base row time when I could. The second row block went with the second cardio block with the rounds of push to base paces and ending with the all-outs. It was a lot of rowing where we didn’t have set breaks and I think it might have been some of the hardest rowing I’ve done in a while. The third row block (after rotating around the room) was similar to the first, but it was only 3 rounds of the 30-second base, 20-second push, and 10-second all-out. And to finish out the rowing, we had a 90-second distance row, 1-minute all-out, and 30-second all-out. I was so glad to make it through all the rowing, but I am glad I have been making so much progress in my rowing lately because I know that helped me a lot.

And on the floor, it was a lot of lower body work. The first block was similar timing as the first row block. But we had 1 minute of lunges and then the 30, 20, 10 second intervals with squats and repeated that 3 times. We were supposed to do front lunges, side lunges, and reverse lunges. But I did static lunges for the front and reverse lunges since it’s hard for me to keep my balance otherwise. And the squats we had after each type of lunge were regular squats, squats with calf raises, and in and out squats. The second block was on our own timing and just had the number of reps to do. We had another round of lunges, bicep curl to shoulder press, and plank low rows. The third block was back on timing it with the rower with 30 seconds of sit-ups, 20 seconds of hip raises, and 10 seconds of toe reaches. I did have to modify these a bit because my hips were starting to hurt, but I tried my best to keep moving. And the final block on the floor (and the final block of the workout for me) had side plank leg raises, seated torso rotations, and we ended with a 30-second plank.

When we were done, I was exhausted. This was possibly the hardest workout I’ve ever done. The Dri-Tri is tough too, but that’s a different type of difficulty. I don’t know exactly how to explain it, but this workout was really intense. But I’m so glad that I did it and I’m really proud of myself!

And of course, we had to do some post-workout group photos to celebrate completing the class (a lot of us hadn’t done a 90-minute workout before).

And I needed to take a photo with Coach Benzo. He’s only been my coach since things have reopened, but I am so grateful he’s been coaching at Culver because he is so amazing at encouraging us and pushing us all to improve in our workouts!

After the class was done, I was a bit sore, but not too bad. But on Sunday, the soreness really hit me. But that’s not going to discourage me. I will still be doing my regular workouts this week and just taking it a little easy. And I would totally do another 90-minute workout again, I just might not do a workout on the Friday before. But it was a great way to challenge myself and see what I could do. And I know now that I can do a great job in a 90-minute class and it will be interesting to see how I do when I do another one in the future!

Getting Ready To Change Up My Workout Routine Again (or Making Even More Progress)

For the most part, this past week of workouts was pretty routine for me. Even though this isn’t the routine I was doing before the shutdown or right after things reopened, I’ve been getting used to this workout time and having only a little time after my workouts to be ready for work. I’ve even started getting used to working out in a mask. But this was the last week that things were like that. Starting this week, the workout times change again. And starting on Tuesday, masks are optional for those who are vaccinated.

What this means for me is that my workouts will be earlier than I’ve ever done them and I will need to adjust to that. I know that this is likely temporary and things will change again, and I think the goal is to have the workout times be back to where they were before. Also, I will be bringing a mask to class in case I feel like I need it, but I’m not sure I will be wearing it. That may be something I have to decide each day. And with the workout times changing and things continuing to move into a safer situation, the workouts are also changing a bit. Until this week, all the workouts were 3G, where you have a group on cardio, a group on the rowers, and a group on the floor. There will still be some 3G classes, but they are also returning to 2G classes this week. My schedule will be a mix of both, so that will be interesting.

But besides being prepared for the changes coming up, my workouts on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday were close to what I’ve been used to. I’ll be writing about my Saturday workout in tomorrow’s post because that was something special!

Monday’s workout was a power day. It felt a bit like an endurance day to me, but we were warned that it might feel that way and told to be aware of that. There is a difference with how to do things when it’s an endurance day versus power day, and I tried to be mindful of that and pushing myself more even with the longer workout intervals.

For cardio, we started with a 3-minute distance challenge. This is usually something we do for endurance days, but because we were going to have a 2-minute recovery after it, we were told to push ourselves harder than we normally would do. I had my bike resistance level up 1 from the level I have been working with, and I finally feel pretty good about keeping it there. After the 3-minute challenge, we had a 90-second challenge with the extra challenge of trying to match or beat half the distance from the 3-minute one. I was very happy that I was able to beat it. After those, we had intervals that felt more like a power day. We had 2 rounds of 1-minute all-outs and 2 rounds of 30-second all-outs with a 1-minute recovery between all of them. I was pedaling really fast at the end and it felt amazing to be able to do that again with no issues.

For rowing, we started on the same plan as cardio. We had the 3-minute row and 90-second row. I was able to row the entire time for both of those with the exception of a brief moment in the 3-minute row when my foot slipped and I had to fix the foot straps. But I had to do that in order to keep rowing and it wasn’t really a break, so I don’t feel too bad about it. After those 2 challenges, we had rounds of 300-meter rows and single-arm full thrusters with weights between each row. I only got through 2 rounds before the block was done, but I felt like I was doing pretty good with my pacing.

And on the floor, we had 2 blocks. The first block was my first block with the mini-bands since returning after the closure. With the mini-bands we had in and outs (which I modified to be regular squats), foot exchanges (which I modified to be front and back steps), and walkouts. Then we had a longer block with more power exercises. We had push-ups using the bench, step-ups (which I modified to be lunges), bench plank single-arm fly, and hip hinge swings. I felt much better about the second block than I did for the first and was able to use some weights closer to what I was using before the closure.

Wednesday was an endurance day, and it really felt like one! I thought Monday felt like endurance, but Wednesday proved me wrong.

For cardio, we had one long block. We started with a 30-second push pace and then a 30-second base pace. Then the push and base paces increased by 15-seconds each round until we got to a 75-second push pace and 75-second base pace. Then they decreased by 15-seconds each round and we ended with a 30-second all-out. I was using my new resistance level on the bike and it was tough to not have a recovery break during the entire block. I did have breaks to drink water, but that isn’t exactly the same because I rush to do those.

On the rower, it was all about 300-meter rows. And between each row, we had either high knees or butt kicks. 300-meters isn’t a crazy distance to do, but it’s also not exactly a sprint. I know that sometimes I have been able to do it quickly, but lately, it’s around 90 seconds of hard rowing to get it done. And I was trying to work on maintaining my stroke rate and increasing my wattage, but it’s hard. But when the block was almost done, I decided to give it everything I had knowing I wouldn’t do the row again. And it was the hardest I’ve rowed in a long time. Even before the pandemic, I rarely rowed this hard. The goal in my head was to get it done in 1:15 (even though that’s not close to my PR) and I was shocked I was able to get it done in 1:06.9. I was really burnt out after completing that row, but I was really proud of myself. And I took the last bit of that block as time to get my breathing back under control and to get ready for the floor.

And on the floor, we had 1 long block with 2 mini-blocks in them. And we were supposed to do each mini-block twice before moving on. The first mini-block had pullovers with an isolated hip bridge, chest presses with weights, and bear to downward dog poses. And the second mini-block had hip hinge low rows, shoulder presses, and bear steps. I was slower than I would have liked during the floor, and I struggled to fully catch my breath after the row block. But I was working on my second round of the second mini-block when the workout ended.

Friday’s workout was a power day. I was dealing with a bit of hip pain, but nothing too bad. I just knew that I would have to be a bit careful during the workout.

We had 2 blocks in each section of the room. For cardio, the first block started with a 30-second push pace followed by a 45-second base pace. Then we had a 45-second push, 60-second base, 60-second push, and 30-second all out. It was a good, short block to get us ready for the second block. The second block was 6 rounds of 30-second all-outs. After the first all-out, we had 30 seconds to recover and the recovery time went up by 15-seconds each round. I tried to pedal hard since we had a decent amount of recovery time, but my hip issues were limiting me a bit.

On the rower, the first block started with a 200-meter row and then 20 speed squats. Then we had a 150-meter row and 15 speed squats. I was working on the 100-meter row when the first block ended. And the second block went along with cardio. We had the same 30-second all-out rows, but instead of recovery, we had squat jumps (which I modified to be squat calf raises). There was a little time after finishing the squats before the next row, but not a lot. And just like I had done on Wednesday, I decided to push myself really hard for the last 30-second row. I was able to get to a higher wattage than I have seen in years and about 50% more distance than most of my 30-second rows!

And on the floor, the first block was a bit easier to warm us up for the rest of the floor. I appreciated that after rowing so hard. The first block had walk out to plank jacks, hand-release pushups, and sit-ups. And the second block had single-arm snatches, triceps on the straps, single-arm clean to presses, and bicep curls on the straps. And for the last 30 seconds of the workout, we had to pick one of the weight exercises to do for the entire time. I picked clean to presses since those are a little easier on me. I’m glad it was a lot more upper body than lower body work, but I still was being very cautious with my hip. And being cautious paid off because I wasn’t hurting too bad after the workout.

I was so proud of myself after getting through all these workouts. I had some great moments where I know I pushed myself and I saw results I wasn’t expecting. I don’t need to always see progress to be motivated, but it helps a lot. And I needed that amazing feeling going into my workout on Saturday. Because my Saturday workout was my first 90-minute class! But I’ll be writing about that tomorrow!

Finding Some Crossover With My Skills (or A New Way To Use Self-Tape Skills)

There are a lot of skills I have gained in life that are really only good for the reason I originally learned them for. For example, I used to work in credit card disputes and I gained a lot of skills on how to complete and win the disputes for the company side. I guess technically I can use these skills in understanding how disputes work for other aspects of my life, but so much of what I learned there was specific to that job. It’s the same with a lot of my acting skills. Some I can use for other things, like becoming good at memorization, but many don’t have a purpose outside of acting, like breaking down a script into beats.

But occasionally, I will discover that a random skill that I have learned at some point in my life works for something else. This doesn’t happen too often, but it’s really fun when it does. And I had that happen the other day when I was preparing to renew my passport.

I didn’t realize my passport was going to expire this year until I was doing something and happened to look at it. This was the 3rd passport I’ve had, and sadly it was the first one that had no stamps in it. My last international trip was in the beginning of 2005. I do want to travel again and have ideas of countries I want to visit, but I have no clue when that will happen. Now, it’s not as much of an issue of money (since I have money saved up), but it’s an issue of the world being safe again for traveling. I hope this won’t be much longer, but I am in no rush either. I just hope that by the time I have to renew my passport in 10 years, the one I’ll be getting soon will have at least 1 stamp in it.

Even though I have no plans to travel internationally right now, it’s important for me to have a valid passport. If I do make plans to travel, that’s one less thing for me to worry about. Also, one of the things most actors have is a valid passport because you never know when you might book a job that is out of the country. And since it can take time to get the new passport, having a valid one is the easiest way to be prepared.

The passport renewal process is pretty simple. I was able to complete my application online and print it out. I have my old passport that is about to expire so that eliminates some of the work I’d have to do too. The only thing that I really had to do was to get a new passport photo.

Every other time I’ve gotten a passport photo, I’ve gone somewhere to do it. I don’t remember if my past ones were at AAA or a drugstore like CVS, but I do remember getting them done and having them printed out. I’ve had a few good passport photos, but I have always hated my most recent one. So I was happy to be getting a new passport with a new photo. But I didn’t necessarily want to go somewhere to get it done, and I know some places that used to do passport photos have put them on hold for now.

But I did remember I had some photo paper that I’ve never used so I decided to do it at home. So I set things up just like I did for taking a self-tape audition in my dining room. I already knew how make sure I had good lighting and had a ring light available if I needed it. I also have gotten pretty good at setting up my phone or iPad on a tripod for self-tapes so I am in the frame the way I want and I know I’ll be in focus. I thought about doing a video first and taking a screenshot from it for my photo, but it ended up being easy enough for me to set the timer to take photos. I took a few photos, looked at them, changed my setup a bit, took some more, and repeated that process until I was happy with how my photo looked. And that was a nice benefit of doing my own passport photo. I could make sure it would be a photo I’m ok with for the next 10 years.

There is also a guide on the government website for passport renewals where you can upload your photo to make sure it has the right dimensions. I know there is still a small chance it won’t be perfect, but I did use that tool online to have the site crop my photo and make sure it has the dimensions around my face (it’s not just the size of the photo, you have to have a certain amount of space from the edge to the top of your head). I’m hoping for the best and that I won’t get something back saying my application has been rejected for my photo. But I feel like enough people print out photos at home that it should be fine. Not everyone probably uses a ruler to confirm everything like I do.

I don’t know how many other ways I will use my self-tape skills to use for something else, but it was nice to find a new way to use them. And it got something accomplished that I needed to do, so that’s a win too. And hopefully, renewing my passport is a sign that maybe I will be traveling again soon.

Even More Redecorating (or One Planned Change and One Due To Being A Klutz)

I have done a lot of redecorating around my house recently. There have been a few reasons why, but boredom has been a big one. But I think I finally have some of the boredom feeling out now that I’m able to go out and do things again. But that hasn’t brought me to the end of my redecorating in my house.

But there are also other reasons why I changed things up in my house. Sometimes they are planned and I just needed to be motivated to do it. And right now, my planned change is with my home gym setup. I’ve been so grateful to have all the workout equipment I was able to get for my house while Orangetheory was shut down. But now, I’m not using it anymore. I know I could add more workout days to my week if I wanted to, but I’m feeling good about working out 4 days a week right now. But I am not getting rid of what I have. One day in the future, when I own my own place, I would love to have a little home gym setup. But for now, there is no reason for me to have everything in my living room where it has been set up since I created my little gym.

I’m torn between just getting a giant storage container and putting it in my garage or getting a cuter decorative storage piece (like a storage bench) and putting it where my home gym setup is right now. I’m looking at some options and taking my time since there is no rush for me to do this. I don’t need the little space my gym takes up now for anything else. So I’d rather spend the time looking for something I like.

And then there are reasons I redecorate that are not planned and feel a bit more rushed. The other day, I was walking next to my bed and my hip went out. This is a normal occurrence for me and I don’t always fall down. But this time, I did fall and somehow managed to trip on my comforter while also holding onto it. And when I got up off the ground, I discovered that the seams of my comforter had split. I’m still impressed that I was klutzy enough to make this happen because it almost doesn’t make sense. But it did and now I need to get a new comforter or bedspread for my bed.

I’m planning on throwing out the ripped one this week when it’s trash day, and I’m lucky that it is summertime because I don’t need to get a replacement right away. But I am trying to find something soon because I don’t like the look of just having a sheet on my bed. So I’ve been looking online at a few different places to hopefully find something I like. But I also don’t want to buy something just to have it. It’s weird because this does feel rushed, but also I want to take my time.

Sometimes redecorating is fun and carefree and sometimes it is stressful. And I seem to be experiencing one of each right now. But I also know that this isn’t a life or death decision and it’s going to be fine no matter what. So I’m trying to have fun with this when I can.

Finally Back To A Full Work Schedule (or I Really Do Like Having A Stable Schedule)

For the past year, there have been so many changes with my work schedule. Before the pandemic, I had a very stable work schedule. It wasn’t necessarily the same schedule every day, but from week to week it was the same unless I was working a few extra hours to bank hours to take time off. Even with having one of my jobs being on my own time and having a lot of flexibility, I was consistent with the hours I worked and that allowed me to have stability in my life and to plan for things outside of work time.

At the start of the pandemic, I had reduced work hours for a while. Then it got reduced even more to only working 3 hours a week to handle voicemails and pass off messages. And then in August, I was out of work with my box office job. I still had my flexible one, but it wasn’t a lot of hours.

And then, when I got my new job, things started to stabilize again. I still had some fluctuations with my work schedule with my hours changing slightly and then switching up my job responsibilities. But it’s remained pretty consistent since I completed my training with the job. And then recently, I went back to my old box office job for a few hours a week. It was a bit of an adjustment to get used to working that job again, but fortunately I was able to pick it up quickly. I knew because of my new job, I wasn’t going back to the hours I had with the old job. But I also knew there was a little room for additional hours and that it might be happening.

And this week, I’m increasing my hours at my old job. I still don’t work there on Mondays since that company is closed on Mondays and I have already been working on Saturdays for the full shift. But now, I will be working 2 hours in the afternoon Tuesday-Friday. And this pretty much maxes me out for what hours I could do. I guess I could add the first hour in the morning 2 days a week, but unless things get crazy at that job I doubt it will be happening.

I have felt like I’ve been back to my full schedule since I started back at my old job, but now I’m really back to something closer to my old schedule. I am working earlier than I used to a few days a week since my new job has a different schedule than my old job. But for so long I worked until 3pm most days and that’s what I’ll be back to now. There is a slight chance I may be adding more hours to my new job later in the day, but that’s something that would happen in the future and it’s not something I’m worried about just yet. For now, I’m just happy that I’m back to what feels like my normal schedule from before the pandemic.

I’ve said this before, but I’m glad I had a slow transition back into working. I think it would have been overwhelming to go from no work to a full work schedule again. I’m still working on breaking some of the bad habits I gained when I wasn’t working and I’m glad I’ve had the time to slowly adjust to it. I do still have a few struggles (mainly with not getting enough sleep), but I’m working on getting better each week and I know I’ll be back to how I’m hoping to be soon enough.

And besides loving the consistency with a full work schedule, I’m also glad from a financial standpoint. I’ve been doing ok for a bit, but it’s because I’ve had money saved. And I don’t want to keep using that money to pay my bills. Since starting back at my old job, it’s helped even though it’s not a ton of money. And with the increase in hours, it still isn’t a ton of money but it will help. I’ve been doing a bad job with my budgeting again, and knowing I’m at what should be my schedule for a long time is motivation to work on a fresh start with my budgeting app. I know that I still don’t make a lot of money and I have to be careful, but knowing that I should be making enough now to not have to stress each month is a great feeling.

As much as I wish I lived a life where I didn’t need to have day jobs and could live off of my acting career only, that’s not my reality. I hope it will be my reality one day, but until then I need to be happy with my day job situation. And I’m finally in a good place again with my day jobs and I’m so happy that this is just one more thing that feels like I’m getting back a bit of my pre-pandemic life again.

Working On Planning My Summer (or Really Hoping Things Continue To Get Better)

Whenever things seem to be getting better with the pandemic, I’m a little worried that the improvements will lead to another uptick. We’ve slowly been opening up more and more in California (and in LA) and fortunately, the numbers haven’t been getting much worse. I think we are lucky here because so many people are vaccinated or almost fully vaccinated. So as we have more opening up, the risk factor isn’t that much worse.

I know we aren’t out of this just yet, but it continues to improve and seems hopeful. We do have a big change coming up in a week when things are supposed to be opening up 100% and masks are not always going to be required (although individual stores and businesses can still require them) and knowing that is about to happen does make me nervous. But I’m trying to stay in a positive mindset that everyone has been doing what they need to do so we can safely reopen. And I know other states have reopened already, and while they did have an uptick at first things have calmed down as people are vaccinated.

And since things are looking good, I’m finally starting to try to plan for my summer. Last summer was spent isolated for so much of it and I spent so much time in fear of getting sick. And while I’m still cautious and will probably continue to feel that way at least through this year, I am starting to see what is open and what I want to take advantage of and do.

There is the small downside of having fewer friends living in LA now than there was a year ago. So many people that I would have made plans with are no longer local and I either need to find others to hang out with or be ok with doing things alone. And I think I will be doing a mix of that. There is nothing wrong with doing things alone and there are plenty of things that I have done alone for years. But I also want to take advantage of being able to be around others again.

There are some things I want to do that aren’t necessarily time-specific for the summer. I want to go to the beach at least once. I don’t always go to the beach every summer since I need to be careful in the sun, but I also can be careful so hopefully, I won’t get that sunburnt. I also want to look at some easy hikes/walks around LA that either I haven’t done in a while or have never done. I want to do more things outdoors, even though I know that I will likely never be a big hiker. But I want to take advantage of what there is around me because I know I haven’t been doing that. And once I feel safe to go to the movies again, I want to see movies in the theaters. This one might take me a bit longer to be ready to do, but I think I will have a better sense of how I feel about this once masks aren’t required everywhere and we can see how the numbers look.

And there are things that either I want to do with others or don’t like to do alone. I want to be going out for more meals with friends. I have only been to 2 restaurants to eat there since last year. Both times I ate outdoors and it felt pretty safe to be there. I don’t know about eating inside just yet, but again, I have to see how the numbers look as more and more people are out and potentially not wearing masks. I also might want to go to Disneyland. I usually don’t go in the summer since my pass hasn’t been good over the summer, but now that there are no passes, I have to buy a ticket whenever I want to go. I know it will probably be very crowded, so I have to decide if I might want to wait until the fall when things might be a bit less crazy. But I also miss Disneyland so much and really want to have a fun day there with friends.

And one of my favorite summer things to do, going to the Hollywood Bowl, is already on my schedule! The Bowl has announced they were opening for this summer and I took a look at the schedule as soon as it was posted. I found a few shows that I want to go to and discussed summer plans with my parents. And they decided to come to LA for a few days to see me and one of the shows I thought they’d like is the weekend that they are here! I bought tickets the day they went on sale because I wasn’t sure how quickly things would sell out. And I didn’t get exactly the seats I wanted, but I did get us the first row of a section which is my favorite since you have a better view and the barrier to use as a table for whatever snacks we bring with us.

And of course, I’m sure there will be some random friend hangouts that I won’t plan since that’s how things naturally go. It will be nice to be able to be spontaneous again and not have to worry if someone has been around others or what the risks would be to see each other. I don’t know if there will be any BBQs or other things planned since so many of us are being careful and waiting to make sure things don’t take a turn before we plan anything. But the more time that goes on, the better we all have been feeling about it.

Hopefully, I can have a summer that has a lot of fun stuff happening. I don’t plan on going too crazy since I know then I will hit burnout, but I want to make up for lost time from the past year. And I can’t wait to see what adventures I get to have this summer and what traditions I get to have again and what new things I might want to turn into traditions.

Really Progressing In My Rowing (or Having Real And Concrete Progress)

This past week of workouts ended up being a week that I really needed. While I have been working toward getting back to where I’ve been in all aspects of my workout, I know that my rowing has been the hardest thing for me. It’s the one thing that I had no option to do while working out at home. I did lifting weights and I did cardio, but rowing can’t be replicated without a rowing machine as much as you try. So it’s been hard to get back to my rowing. But this past week really gave me the chance to do a lot of great rowing work.

Monday’s workout was at my usual time since I had to work holiday hours on Monday. But I do appreciate having a routine so keeping my workout the same is something I probably would have done no matter what. The workout was a mix of endurance, strength, and power and a lot of it allowed us to choose what we wanted to do.

For cardio, we had 3 different options. I’ll give the distances for the treadmill since that’s the easiest to break down. The first option was to do a 1.5-mile run. The second option was to do 2 rounds of a .75-mile run with a minute of recovery between the rounds. And the third option was 5 rounds of a .3-mile run with 30 seconds of recovery between each round. I was finally starting to almost feel like myself again, so I decided to try to challenge myself and do the long distance at once. I ended up not being able to do that, and I didn’t exactly follow any of the plans because I did a little bit of longer distance mixed with some shorter ones. But I always tried to keep my breaks about 30 seconds long (enough time for me to drink some water).

On the rower, we also had 3 options. The first was a 2000-meter row with 50 squat jacks and 50 pulsing half squats after. The second was 2 rounds of a 1000-meter row with 25 of each type of squat after each round. And the last option was 5 rounds of a 400-meter row with 10 of each type of squat after each round. I went with the 400-meter rows since I knew that I couldn’t handle the higher number of squats at one time. But I was able to do every row without taking a break, so I was very happy with that.

On the floor, we had increasing reps of squats, bridge rows on the straps, step-ups (which I did as lunges), push-ups, plank jacks, and sit-ups. We started at 5 reps for each exercise and went up by 5 reps each round. I did have to modify the push-ups and plank jacks to be using the bench, but that’s pretty normal for me to have to do.

Wednesday’s workout was an endurance day, and it was a pretty tough endurance workout. But I took advantage of that to challenge myself a bit and I had some great wins during the workout.

For cardio, we had rounds of push paces with base paces. We had 2 rounds with 3-minute push paces to start with a 90-second base after the first one and a 1-minute base after the second. Then we had 2 rounds of 2-minute push paces with a 1-minute base after the first and a 30-second all-out after the second. For the push paces, I did increase my resistance on the bike a bit to try to get used to that level. I’m hoping I will be increasing my base pace level soon and using it for a push pace is a way to get there. The push paces were hard since they were so long, but I was very happy with how I did with my speed and how far I had gotten by the end of the block.

On the rower, we had rows plus exercises. And the rows were all about cutting the distance in half. We started with an 800-meter row, then a 400-meter row, and a 200-meter row. Between each of those rows, we had forward and back hops. Then we had a 400-meter row, 200-meter row, and 100-meter row with squats between each row. Since being back after the shutdown, having endurance on the rower has been one of my biggest challenges. But I managed to row the 800-meter row without taking a break! I was actually able to row all the rows I did without a break (I only got to the second 400-meter one). That’s something I’ve been hoping I’d be able to do and I was so happy to see that I could do it. I still have a way to go with getting my rowing endurance back, but this was a big step forward.

And on the floor, we had 1 block with 2 mini-blocks in it. The first mini-block had bench tap squats, goblet squats, and scissor crunches. And the second mini-block had sumo squats, squats to upward rotations, and sit-ups. I was pretty exhausted after the rowing block, so I was slow on the floor. We had 3 rounds of the first mini-block before moving on to the second, and I only got 1 round of the second mini-block before the workout was done.

Friday’s workout was a mix of endurance, strength, and power and I had another great rowing day. I was already feeling great about myself after Wednesday’s workout, but I think having another chance to prove myself was what I needed to know that it wasn’t just a fluke.

For cardio, we had 2 similar blocks. We started with some push paces and base bases with no incline and then we had rounds of all-outs with increasing inclines/resistance levels. The all-outs were always 30-seconds long, but when we were at some of the top levels it was very hard to keep going. I felt like I was pedaling through jello, but I kept going. And it was good they were only 30-seconds each because I don’t know how much longer I could have kept going.

On the rower, we started with an 800-meter row. And just like on Wednesday, my goal was to do the entire thing without stopping. I worked on breaking down how much further I had to go to keep myself motivated, and it worked because I was able to do the entire thing again with no breaks. After the row, we had jumping jacks (which I modified so I wasn’t jumping) and then 2 rounds of a 400-meter row with squats between the rows. The 400-meter rows were also without breaks for me, but it was hard to do that when I was so tired after the 800-meter row.

And on the floor, we had 2 blocks. The first block had hip hinge swings, squats to hammer curls, reverse grip low rows, and plank jacks. We started at 20 reps each and the reps went down by 5 each round. And the second block had deadlifts to upright rows, squats to high rows on the straps, and plank jacks to pop jacks. For the plank jacks and pop jacks in both blocks, I did my usual modification by using the bench.

And if all that awesome rowing wasn’t enough, I had an even harder challenge in the Saturday workout. The workout was an endurance day and the idea was that you kept moving the entire block in each section of the room.

Cardio and rowing were on the same timer for the entire time. Both started with a 3-minute push followed by a 90-second base. Then it was a 2 1/2-minute push with a 75-second base. Next was a 2-minute push and 1-minute base. The last push section was a 90-second push with a 45-second base. And then we ended with a 30-second all-out.

For cardio, I did pretty great with this challenge. I had my resistance level up 1 higher than I have been using a lot so that was a good way to push myself. And I am pretty good and not taking breaks on the bike except when I need to drink some water. I can’t do a 14-minute block without drinking a little water and I’m not coordinated or talented enough to drink water without stopping.

And on the rower, I knew I would need to take a break eventually. Even though we can row very slow for a base row, I can’t row for 14 minutes straight. But I wanted to at least make it to 800-meters on the rower (even though I didn’t know if that would happen during a push or base row). Once I made it to 800-meters, I decided to keep going and push myself to get to 1000-meters. And I did make it and then took a little break to get my feet out of the rower to stretch (my hips can be a bit sore on the rower) and to drink some water. I took a few other short breaks after that first one, but I’m just proud I made it to 1000-meters without stopping!

And on the floor, we had 2 groups of exercises and the challenge was to do each group of exercises without stopping. The first group had weighted squats, bicep curls, front squats, uppercuts, deadlifts, and hip hinge low rows. And the second group of exercises had static crunches with scissor kicks, heel touches, and bicycle crunches. For the weighted exercises, I had to go a bit lower on the weight so I didn’t have to switch weights in the middle of things. And for the core work, I did modify them a bit. But I was able to do each section without stopping and only took my breaks between the sections.

I had no idea this past week was going to be a week full of great rowing accomplishments for me, but I needed it. I have been down on myself for a while about how my rowing endurance hasn’t been close to what I was used to. And while I’m still not back to my old self, this past week was a real sign that I’m getting closer to being back there and that hopefully, it won’t be long before I’m getting some new PRs!

Fully Using My Work Time (or Having A Job Where I Feel Productive)

Since graduating college, I’ve had a lot of jobs in many different fields. Overall, most of my jobs are in the customer service sector (even as a tour guide at a film studio), but the jobs themselves have varied. But most recently, I have mainly had direct customer service or data entry jobs.

Some of these jobs have been jobs where there is a lot of downtime because my responsibilities are mainly when a customer is reaching out. My box office job is like that. We can be extremely busy at times, but there are other times when we only have a handful of customers and several hours with nothing to do. That’s why my data entry job has been perfect for me. I have the ability to work that job between customers. And the data entry job is one where I have no downtime while I’m working, but it can also be done on my own schedule so I can do the work whenever I can fit it in.

When I started my new customer service job, I wasn’t sure if it would be a job where I was always busy or one where I had a lot of downtime. And it has changed from the time I started almost half a year ago until now. When I started, there was a lot more downtime because my focus was just on customer support so I was really only busy when we had customers reaching out to us. And that worked for me because I was new to the job and needed the extra time to keep learning the different processes and not feeling rushed or stressed when trying to help a customer. But as I’ve been at that job, things have been getting busier and busier.

Now, besides my regular work, I’ve been taking on some extra projects. I’ve been working on helping to organize certain work systems. I’ve been working on helping to create a training manual for other employees who aren’t as familiar with how the customer service team works as well as future customer service employees. I’ve built some systems to help us track clients and other things we need to track. I’m really being kept busy during the hours that I’m scheduled.

All of these things are being done during my work time, so I’m not doing anything outside of my work hours. But I’m now really busy for the hours I’m scheduled to work. And I know this is pretty normal for most people. Having a job like my box office job with a lot of downtime is the weird situation. And I know I’m lucky that I have had a job like that where I could do other work during work. But it’s also nice to have a job where I am busy during my work hours. I like feeling like I’ve accomplished a lot each day. I can see progress being made in the bigger projects and not just that I’m answering the same thing all day long (like at my box office job where I am always saying “the sold out show is sold out of tickets”). And I do still work some hours each week with my box office job where I do have that downtime. So there is a balance in my life.

As much as I complain sometimes about being overscheduled or too busy, it is nice to have a job that makes me busy. It helps to have a clear delineation between work time and my time. When I was mainly working my box office job, when I finished work I could stay on my computer doing a lot of the same things I was doing between customers. But with my customer service job, when I’m done with work I might still be on my computer to do other work, but there is a much clearer line between my work time and non-work time. And that’s something I have needed for a long time. Especially lately since I don’t have much planned in my life after work time each day.

Just like I always do when I write about being happy to be busy, I’m sure I’ll hit a time of burnout and being overwhelmed. And that is a bit more in my control because I can take more time on some of the extra work projects I’ve taken on so I don’t feel rushed or overwhelmed. And I also have gotten better about being an advocate for myself and speaking up when things are getting to be a bit much.

But at least for now, I’m so grateful to feel productive like I do now. This is a feeling that I haven’t had in a while and it’s just another thing that makes things feel a bit more normal and less like I’m isolated and not doing much with my life.

My Orangetheory Anniversary (or 7 Years Of Workouts)

7 years ago, I went to my first Orangetheory class. My first class was a preview before the studio officially opened, and I had no idea what I was in for. I just was excited to check out a new workout and see what it was all about. And that first class changed my entire life. I never knew what a single workout class could do for me until that first workout. I had tried to get into a lot of other workout routines and plans in my past, but they never seemed to stick. And while I didn’t want to assume that I would feel that way about Orangetheory, I knew it was possible. But I’m so glad that it didn’t happen like that for me.

After my first class, I knew immediately how tough the workout was. I was so sore and struggled to walk for a few days after. But even with the soreness, I was motivated to see if I could do better. So I started going to workouts 3 days a week and pushing myself in each and every workout. And I have been able to do things that I never thought I’d be able to do. I’ve never felt like an athlete before, and now I do think that I’m at least a little bit of one. I never understood how strong I really was. I didn’t know that having a regular workout routine like this could do so much for my mental health and my self-esteem.

In the past 7 years, so many amazing things have happened to me through Orangetheory.

I have fun traditions like having Christmas Eve workouts with Coach Bruce almost every year.

I also have had so many amazing coaches over the past 7 years and they all are special to me in their own ways. Some coaches are ones that I have every week who have gotten to know me and I’ve gotten to know as well. And being in their class can sometimes feel more like a hangout time. And there are other coaches that I’ve had only once or twice who have seen something in me that I never knew was there or who taught me a cool trick or correction in my workout that has stuck with me ever since then.

I have done workouts with my family on Thanksgiving morning.

I’m so grateful that my family wants to work out with me. Even if nobody else went with me, I would still go on my own. But it’s become a really fun tradition to have a family workout before dinner. And even though we weren’t able to be together last year, we all still did a workout that morning so we could consider that as completing our family workout.

I celebrated completing 1,000 workouts.

And in those 1,000+ workouts, I have also made some incredible friends. When I started working out, I stuck to myself and didn’t really talk to others. But then you start to see the same people every week and get to know them. And some of the friends I’ve met in my workouts are some of my closest friends now. I haven’t gotten to see most of them in a while, but we are all still supporting each other and staying in touch however we can.

And most recently, finally getting to be back in the studio after everything being closed for over a year.

And I think having a history of consistent workouts is one of the only reasons I was able to get through the isolation at home without completely falling apart. I never thought I’d be able to do home workouts and stay motivated. And over the 13 months that I did work out at home, I did have moments when I wondered if I should just not do it. But because I had over 5 years of regular workouts, I was able to find a way to make it work. There is nothing like being in the studio and I’m so glad that I’m back, but I’m so grateful that I didn’t stop doing workouts when the studios were closed and used excuses to start bad habits.

I know that of the 7 years I’ve been working out at Orangetheory, there is a year that technically I wasn’t there. But it still counts to me since I was doing the Orangetheory at Home workouts and continuing my workout journey. And I was still connected to the Orangetheory community in the ways that I could. But now that I’m back, I’m ready to see what will happen with my workouts and what other accomplishments I will have.

7 years in and I’m still as excited about my workouts and being under the orange lights as I was for my very first class.