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Getting Through A Few More Doctor Appointments (or Hoping For Some Positive Outcomes)

Posted on October 13, 2022 | Comments Off

I continued with my numerous doctor appointments this week. I had one in-person appointment and one phone appointment so far this week. And this weekend I think I will have some medical testing done. Like I said in my other post, I have a lot of appointments this month and they just happened to pile up. But I’m working on getting through them one by one. But they are all for good reasons and I’m hoping that through all these appointments I will have some plans for how things are going to move forward for me.

My first appointment this week was my in-person appointment. This was with someone in bariatric medicine, which was through a referral from my therapist. There are a few new medications that can help with weight loss, even though they are used off-label, and I wanted to learn more about them. My therapist couldn’t go over those with me since they weren’t her expertise, but she knew that bariatric medicine would be able to do that.

I was a bit nervous going into that appointment. Maybe it’s just me, but I have always thought of bariatric medicine as weight loss surgery. And I knew that I was not interested in doing that. There are a lot of reasons why I don’t want surgery, and I didn’t want a doctor trying to convince me otherwise. I know that surgery is usually the option with the best results, but it just wasn’t something I was willing to do.

Fortunately, my appointment went a lot better than I expected. I really liked the doctor that I met with and she did discuss the various options with me, including surgical ones. But once I said that I was not interested in surgical options, she didn’t discuss it further. We went over the history of my weight, various diets I’ve attempted, and my eating disorder. She was very clear that nothing she could help me with would help with my eating disorder, and I knew that. I take Vyvanse to help with that, but I think my history of dieting and other weight-related issues has really messed with my metabolism. I can have what should be perfect food days for multiple days in a row and I won’t see any weight loss. There should be at least a little weight loss when I know I’m not overeating. Or when I’m sick and not really able to eat, I don’t lose weight when I know most people do. So I wanted to find a tool that might be able to help my body lose some weight while I do the rest of the work myself.

Going into my appointment, I specifically wanted to discuss a few different medications that all were essentially the same thing but with different dosages or protocols. The one downside to these is that they are all injectable medications and I really hated that idea. But I think my desire to see if this would work was higher than my fear so I was willing to try it. And after going over my medical history and other information, the doctor agreed that one of these injectable options could be something that helps me. It’s not a guarantee, but I at least want to try it.

So I was prescribed the medication and then had to be taught how to use the injectable pen. It’s similar to what an EpiPen looks like, but there are multiple doses in each one so I had to learn how to select the correct dose and change out the needle. This is something I will need to inject once a week, and I started the same day I saw the doctor. I was terrified to do it, but I watched all the instructional videos and did it while laying down on my bed in case I passed out. And I was shocked that I didn’t pass out! I was shaking pretty badly before and after the shot, but I think that was just nerves and nothing else to worry about.

I hope that each injection is as easy as this first one was. I won’t have my next one until next week, so at least I have time between each one. And because of how this medication can affect you when you start it, you start with a dosage that is below the therapeutic dose. So I might not notice results for a little while as I build up to the dose that is supposed to work.

My second appointment this week was my phone appointment with a general medicine doctor. This was to get a referral to orthopedics because of the pain I’ve experienced recently. I’m feeling much better now, but I also know it’s better to get checked out since it’s been several years since I’ve seen anyone in orthopedics. I didn’t know if this phone appointment would be all I needed for the referral, but the doctor I spoke to could see my history of working with different doctors in orthopedics as well as the notes that I will likely need more surgeries. So she put in my referral without asking too much or needing me to come in to see her first. And I’ve already spoken to orthopedics and I’ll be seeing them in about a month. I think just making sure I’m ok and having a new game plan will be smart since I know I will need additional surgeries at some point.

And the other things I have to get done are medical tests related to the appointments I had this week. I need to do some blood work for the doctor I saw in bariatric medicine just to have some baseline information since this new medication has some rare side effects and it’s important to have a bit of monitoring around that. And I also need to do a general x-ray of my hips to prepare for my appointment with orthopedics next month. I know that in the past, my hip issues are not seen on x-rays, but that’s the process when you start with a new doctor. And after my appointment, they might order an MRI since that’s how they can really check how things are. I don’t have to do either of those tests immediately, but I would like to get them out of the way so that’s why I’m trying to get them done this weekend.

Over the next 4 weeks, I have 3 more appointments. I don’t know if I’ll have more than that, especially with how quickly appointments piled up already, but at least I’m getting all this done so I can make sure that I’m doing the things I need to do for myself and I’m as healthy as I can be. And hopefully, this new medication will help me with losing weight, and when I see the new doctor in orthopedics I will have a good plan figured out for my next steps.

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Almost Needing To Take A Test (or At Least An Appointment Made This Quick)

Posted on June 24, 2022 | Comments Off

I don’t know if it matters how many times you move, I feel like there are always a few things that you forget to change your address on. But I feel like I have more of these forgotten things because it has been so long since I moved. One thing that I did remember to change before I moved was the address on my driver’s license. That was a very simple change to make and I was able to do it online. But they said they wouldn’t be sending me a new license at that time. I didn’t think too much about that at the time because I don’t think they actually need your address on your license for much, and if someone official needed to look things up, I feel like it would be noted in a system that it was changed and they didn’t send me a new license.

But maybe the reason why they didn’t send me a new license was because mine was going to expire this year. I didn’t realize that until I got the renewal notice mailed to me (fortunately, mailed to the new address), but it made sense when I thought about it. And because you will need a Real ID soon to fly domestically (or bring a passport), I figured I might as well get the Real ID when I was renewing anyway.

It’s been a while since I’ve had to do anything with my license, but it was easy enough to do most of the work online and I made an appointment. The only downside is that all of the hours are during work hours, so I had to arrange to take some time off. But I was hoping that it wouldn’t take too long.

I got to the DMV and had to wait a bit for my number to be called up. I know it would have been longer without an appointment, but it was still about 30 minutes from the time I checked in until I was called. I gave all my paperwork to the woman behind the counter and she asked me if I had already taken the written driving test again. I was so confused because I had no clue I would need to do that again and I was not prepared at all. She stepped away and had to get some more information about my renewal.

I guess the policy is that if you get a Real ID within 60 days of your license expiring, you don’t have to retake the test. If it’s more than 60 days before the expiration date, you do have to take it. I submitted my paperwork and set up my appointment 62 days before but my appointment was within 60 days. So I guess there was some debate about which date they had to go by. Fortunately, it was decided that they should use my appointment date so I was saved from having to retake the test. Honestly, if I had to take it again, I have no idea if I would pass. The questions they ask are really specific like how many feet away from a stop sign can you park and then the choices are all similar answers. But I don’t know if many people would know if it’s 25 feet or 30 feet since most people just park so far away.

After that was settled, I had to pay for the ID and get a new photo. I have no clue how it turned out because it’s not on my paperwork and I won’t get my license in the mail for about a month. Then I had to get a paper temporary license to take with me and that line was in the testing area. There were so many people taking the test and looking so stressed out, so I think a bunch of them were people who didn’t know they would need to take it that day. I’m glad I was able to escape that, but I think that in the future I might review the written tests online before going in just in case I have to take it again.

Even though I had to wait for my appointment and there was a bit of a delay with figuring out if I needed to retake the test or not, I was out of the DMV within an hour, so I didn’t have to take extra time off and was able to just use my lunch break early. And I know the appointment could have been much longer if I needed to take the test. So I was probably pretty lucky.

Hopefully, whenever the next time I have to renew comes up, either I don’t have to take the test then or I will be notified enough in advance so that I can really feel prepared for it.

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Earthquake Morning (or I Did Ask For Something To Be Different)

Posted on July 31, 2020 | Comments Off

I’ve written a lot of posts lately about being bored. My life doesn’t have a lot going on and there isn’t a lot of variety in my days. I will repeat that I am very lucky that I am safe and healthy, but being lucky doesn’t always make me feel better when I feel isolated on my own little planet staying inside my house when it seems like so many people are out living their lives (but I also know that the people out there aren’t always doing the safest thing).

I was talking to a friend the other day about how I just needed something different to happen. I wanted something to be able to focus on that wasn’t what I have been paying attention to for months. And I guess I did get that yesterday morning.

It’s not weird for me to wake up in the middle of the night. Sometimes it’s due to pain and sometimes it’s just general insomnia. I usually take a look at what time it is to see if it’s worth going back to bed or not (if it’s within 30 minutes of when I wake up, I don’t go back to sleep). This doesn’t happen every night, but it’s often enough that I don’t think twice about when it happens. So on Thursday morning, when I woke up around 4:30 am I wasn’t too worried. I took a look at the time, realized there was more than enough time for me to get more sleep, and tried to go back to sleep. And then, we had an earthquake.

Whenever there is an earthquake, I immediately freeze and try to take cover or protect myself somehow. Since I was in bed, I curled into a ball and put my pillows over my head. There isn’t anything next to my bed that could tip and hit me, but if it was a strong enough earthquake, I’m sure something could be thrown around and hit me. And while it’s ideal to be under a piece of furniture, for me to do that I would have to run through my house, which is a very stupid thing to do in an earthquake. So protecting my head with pillows is the best option if an earthquake happens when I’m in bed.

Fortunately, this earthquake wasn’t too bad for me. It was a long rumble and things were shaking a lot (and my windows were shaking so loud), but it didn’t jolt my floor around too much. There was an earthquake while I was sleeping years ago that made my mattress slide off of my box spring. This one wasn’t like that, but it still was an earthquake.

After the shaking stopped, I was wide awake and of course, I wanted to see what funny things people were posting on Twitter (earthquake Twitter is a real thing). And a few minutes after that first earthquake, another one happened, but this was a bit lighter than the first. It turned out the earthquake was a pretty decent size, but it had an epicenter in the valley so it wasn’t that close to me. But a lot of my friends felt it a lot stronger than I did and I’m glad that everyone was ok. And there were some silly jokes on Twitter about how this really fits the theme of this year or how we don’t need a natural disaster and a pandemic at the same time.

I wanted to get back to sleep because I knew I needed more sleep, but I was just too awake at that point. I didn’t get up to start my day because I was hoping at some point I would fall asleep, so I just stayed in my bed and tried to relax. I wasn’t jumpy or scared there would be another or a bigger earthquake, but it did make me think a bit about my earthquake kit. I do have a backpack with all the big supplies I would need in a natural disaster. And I’m almost more prepared than normal because I have extra food in my house. When the pandemic started, I made sure to buy shelf-stable foods in case there was a time I couldn’t get groceries for one reason or another. So I have that food plus the emergency food in my earthquake kit now.

After laying in bed awake for a few hours, it was almost time to get up for my day. And then another earthquake hit. This was a little lighter than the first one but a bit stronger than the second. I know these quakes could be foreshocks for a bigger one, but I’m hoping they were a small main quake and the two after it were the aftershocks. I follow Dr. Lucy Jones, a famous seismologist, on Twitter and she said these quakes are normal and just mean we live somewhere that there are earthquakes. That’s a bit reassuring. I haven’t felt another earthquake since those 3 in the morning, so they might be done. Or at least they might be so small now that I can’t feel them anymore.

I did end up spending most of Thursday tired since I didn’t get a lot of sleep, but at least I didn’t have much I had to do. I had my hour of work and then everything else wasn’t that important. So I took it easy and didn’t do anything too stressful or strenuous. I’m glad I didn’t have a lot I needed to do. Then again, I never seem to have a lot to do these days. But at least having some earthquakes in the morning did give me the variety I’ve been saying I wanted. I should have just been more specific that I wanted some variety that was fun and not a natural disaster. But I guess beggars can’t be choosers.

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OTF Beach Day (or A Bikini Adventure)

Posted on July 23, 2019 | Comments Off

I’ve made an effort to go to as many Orangetheory events as possible. I’ve gone to happy hour events and yoga events which have always been fun. But I’ve never made it to one of the outdoor events. That hasn’t been deliberate. Most of the hikes and beach days have been either while I’m working or on a day that I can’t go. But I have been wanting to go to one eventually and I finally had the opportunity to do so this past weekend.

There was an Orangetheory beach day on Saturday (which is why I didn’t go to my usual Saturday workout). The beach day was for all the Los Angeles locations, so I knew that I would know some people but get to meet a lot of new people as well. And some of my friends from the Culver City location said they wanted to go so we made a plan to meet up there.

Even though it was a Saturday and the perfect beach day, the beach wasn’t too crowded.

It wasn’t the easiest thing to find parking, but I managed to find a lot that had one space left and it was a 10-minute walk from the lot to where the Orangetheory tent was. That wasn’t too bad of a walk and since it was so nice out I just enjoyed being outside and being lucky enough to live that close to the ocean.

I take a lot of precautions with the sun, but I realized when I got to the beach that I forgot my beach umbrella. I had a hat and lots of sunscreen, but I was worried about being out in the sun for too long. But most of the other people at the beach day wanted to be out in the sun so there was plenty of space for me to put my beach towel in the shade of the tent. I stayed there for almost the entire time I was at the beach to be as careful as possible.

My friends and I all got to the beach around the same time. And since we usually only see each other in workout clothes or when we are gross and sweaty, we had to take advantage of looking nicer and take a good photo together.

And yes, I am wearing a bikini. It’s not the first time I’ve worn one recently, but it was the longest time that I was in public in a bikini that wasn’t fully covering my stomach like the one I wore in Hawaii. This was a new bikini and I actually found this one on Amazon and it fits perfectly! I had ordered another one as well, and I might keep it but it wasn’t making me feel as great as this one did.

Wearing a bikini or any sort of swimsuit can be tough for anyone no matter what their body is like. I know there is a discussion about what a “bikini body” is supposed to be. And I know that I don’t look like the ideal that most people think of when they think of a bikini body, but as long as I am confident in what I wear I don’t care what others think.

And it has gotten me a long time to get this much self-confidence. And I completely attribute it to my workouts at Orangetheory. Not only did I wear a bikini in public, but I also shared the following photo on my social media with the caption below.

This is my bikini body. Not at my goal weight, still battling my eating disorder, scars and flares from my auto-immune disease on my skin. But despite those negatives, I am so proud of this body. I have been working so hard in my workouts. I can lift more and bike harder than I ever thought I could. I am stronger physically and mentally than before. And my body is only going to get better. Why wouldn’t I show it off in a bikini at OTF Beach Day?

And that is the truth about how I feel about myself. I wanted to feel proud of what I have done so far. I’m not perfect, but I only have this body and I deserve to celebrate myself. I only got positive comments from people online and at the beach day. Maybe they said something bad about me behind my back, but I don’t care. I was happy with what I was wearing and I wouldn’t want to wear something uncomfortable just to make others feel better about what I’m wearing.

I didn’t do much at beach day other than hanging out under the tent and talk with my friends and other Orangetheory people there. My friends did go down to the water to enjoy that for a bit, but I stayed where I was. I was just enjoying my afternoon in the sun and being grateful for the perfect day.

But even though I was so careful with protecting my skin, I guess the sun doesn’t love me at all. The only time I wasn’t under the tent was when I was walking to and from my car and for a few moments to take photos. And I reapplied my sunscreen several times to make sure I was doing it more often than required. I don’t know how this happened, but I guess there was some sun that reflected off of the sand (I was too far from the water for it to reflect from the ocean) and still managed to burn me while I was in the shade.

This burn is only on my chest and face and it’s not nearly as bad as many of the burns I have had in the past. I’ve been working on taking care of my skin and it’s already starting to fade and not sting as much.

The only negative of beach day was the sunburn. Enjoying the beach was awesome. Hanging out with my workout friends and coaches was so much fun. And wearing a bikini felt so normal and comfortable which is better than I ever could have imagined. This beach day was exactly what I needed in my life to bring so much happiness when I had been going through a rough time recently and I am so glad that I went.

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Chinese Broccoli Slaw (or Changing Up A Family Favorite)

Posted on May 7, 2013 | 1 comment

I’ve been working hard at being better about bringing my lunches to work. I’m trying to use recipes that sit well in the fridge so I only have to make a batch over the weekend.

This week, I’m going to be eating a modified version of a family favorite.

Chinese Coleslaw! This recipe is such a family favorite that when my mom and I made a cookbook for the whole family last Thanksgiving, we made sure to include this one!

The original recipe is as follows:

1 head green cabbage (shredded)

4-6 green onions

2 packages of Ramen (Oriental Flavor)

almonds (optional)

And for the dressing:

1/4 cup sugar

1/2 cup rice vinegar

1/2 salad oil

1/4 cup water or chicken broth

1 tbsp sesame oil

pepper

seasoning packets from Ramen

The main modifications that I made were using broccoli slaw instead of cabbage (no shredding necessary!), using about 3/4 cup vinegar (I love things vinegary), and using 1/4 oil and 1/2 water instead of the other way around.

Seriously, this is such an easy recipe but it’s so delicious and impressive!

First, I put the broccoli slaw in a big bowl (I used about 1 1/2 packages of slaw, each package was 12oz).

Next, you break up the Ramen noodles. You can do it by hand, but I put them in a plastic zippy bag and smashed them with a mallet.

Thanks Dad for giving me a mallet!

Pour the crushed noodles over the slaw.

Next, slice up the green onions. Tip: if you put the rubber bands on the green onions where you want to cut away, it will keep all the ends together and easier to throw away.

Green onions go on top of the slaw and noodles.

Then mix up all the dressing ingredients together. I did this in a measuring cup so it would be easy to pour. Also, this way I didn’t have to get my little measuring cups messy. I just used the measurements on the side.

Finally, pour the dressing on top of the salad and mix everything together.

Let the salad sit in the fridge for at least 6 hours, but the longer the better. I made this around 5pm on Saturday and took it out of the fridge to stir it up a bit before going to bed. I had some on Sunday and it was so delicious!

I have some pre-cooked chicken that I can add on top of it for lunch so it will be a bit more filling.

While this recipe is wonderful the original way, I have to say I think I like it more with broccoli slaw instead of cabbage! I might have to do another batch of each and do a taste test!

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Red Velvet White Chocolate Chip Cookies (or Cookies That My Mom Approved Of!)

Posted on December 19, 2012 | Comments Off

The cookies that I made for the blogger cookie exchange were a big hit! After I had made them, I shared the recipe with my mom, and she liked them too! So here is the recipe for you all to enjoy some red velvet white chocolate chip cookies (made with boxed cake mix!)!

You’ll need:

2 sticks unsalted butter, softened

1 box red velvet cake mix (I used Duncan Hines)

1 cup all-purpose flour

1 egg

2 cups mini white chocolate chips (I did 1 cup of regular ones)

What to do:

Preheat oven to 350

In a mixing bowl, add butter and mix until soft and fluffy

Slowly add in cake mix and flour

Once combined, add egg and mix completely

Add white chocolate chips and mix until well combined

Form dough into 1 inch balls and bake for 8-10 minutes (highly recommend baking on a Silpat or similar silicone baking mat)

Let cool for a few minutes before transferring to cooling racks

(I know that they aren’t super gorgeous, but I made the cookies too big and didn’t know to let them cool more before transferring them to the cooling rack)

This recipe says that it will make 4 1/2 dozen cookies, but since mine were so big, I got about 3 dozen.

I also highly recommend baking these in advance and storing in a zip bag in the freezer. When you want to serve, leave out at room temperature for at least 10 minutes (I do it an hour in advance). For some reason, I think that frozen and then defrosted cookies taste better! I think it makes them less crumbly but more moist.

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Debate (or Making Politics More Fun)

Posted on October 17, 2012 | 2 comments

Last night was another presidential debate. I’ll admit that I’m not the most educated person when it comes to politics, but I’m trying.

I’ve voted in each election that I could, and I do have some strong opinions on things. I’m not going to share those on here, but if you really care what I think, you can see my tweets.

Last night’s debate was the first time that I was home for the entire thing. And I was watching it while I kept twitter open. The tweets that were coming through were pretty damn funny.

Having twitter as a live commentator made the debate so much more fun and in some ways easier to follow. I did write some snarky tweets, but there were some things that were said that made me pretty mad.

I highly recommend that if you aren’t on twitter, get on there before the next debate next week. If you follow the hashtag #debate, you’ll be able to follow everyone who is talking about it. If you don’t know how to get on twitter and you want my help, let me know. I’m more than happy to help any of my readers.

No matter who you want to vote for, please vote. If you don’t, then you better not complain for the next 4 years.

Also, on a selfish note, I had a tweet go a little crazy last night. I’m pretty excited that something that I said got a lot of people talking. That’s just amazing and proves how interactive politics have become.

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Happy Birthday Ross! (or Here Are Some Not So Embarrassing Pictures of My Brother)

Posted on October 16, 2012 | 3 comments

Today is my brother’s birthday! I gave him his present (6 month subscription to Netflix), and now it’s time to embarrass him a little bit.

My brother and I have almost always gotten along (not sure if my parents have a different opinion on this). He and I are 14 months apart (and 2 grades apart when we were in school), so there wasn’t a big age difference or anything but we weren’t doing all the same things at the same time.

Here are some of my favorite pictures of me and my brother.

Here’s a photo from Ross’ 1st birthday (thanks Mom for the matchy-matchy outfits).

Hanging out in the backyard.

On vacation in Yosemite.

Ross graduating from Prospect High School.

Ross graduating from USC.

Ross graduating from Georgetown Medical School (I’ve gone to a lot of graduations for my brother!).

This is my brother’s last birthday as a single guy. He’s getting married next year in September. His fiancée is a great girl and I’m super happy for the two of them!

Happy Birthday Ross! I hope you have an awesome day today!

And since I don’t think you read my blog, I hope that someone (Mom and Krystle, I’m looking at you two) will tell you that I wrote this.

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Being Grateful (or Maybe I Am One of the Lucky Ones)

Posted on September 13, 2012 | Comments Off

I’ve been working very hard at being grateful for things in my life. I’ve never been a really ungrateful person, but I always referred to myself as an unlucky person.

I felt that I was unlucky due to certain circumstances that I can’t change. I inherited most of the bad stuff from my parents. I got my dad’s bad teeth, both of my parents’ bad vision, the obesity gene from both my parents, and it even turned out my hip problem was something I was born with. And the job that I’ve dreamed of doing my entire life is not a job that guarantees success (unlike my brother who has always wanted to be a doctor). A lot of these things have caused me to be in the place I am right now.

But things could be worse. I know people battling cancer and trying to find a treatment that works. I’ve had a few friends recently miscarry their babies. I have friends who don’t have jobs, who have to give up their apartments, who have to leave LA and move back home because they don’t have any other options.

My health issues are here to stay. Those will never change. Eventually, I will have my left hip fixed and then I don’t have to have the idea of surgery hanging over my head, but even when it’s fixed, it will still be a problem.

But outside of the health issues, I’m lucky. I have an apartment that I love (and I can finally afford the rent without struggling too much). I have a great job where I have fun and can make some really decent money. My boss at my job is awesome and is always open to letting me miss work for appointments, auditions, or classes. I have great friends who love me no matter what size I am. I have amazing agents who believe in me and who I consider not only my agents but my friends. And I’m loving writing my blog, and based on my reader numbers and comments, I think people love reading it too.

I never really thought too much about writing this blog, just that I should do it eventually. Now, I’m so happy writing 5 days a week on here. It’s therapeutic for me, and is helping me along on my journey.

Thank you everyone who is reading this. I still can’t believe that I have readers, but I am beyond grateful for you all because you are keeping me honest. Not just honest with you, but honest with myself.

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It’s Hot Outside (or Why the Heat Makes My Body Lie to Me)

Posted on August 13, 2012 | Comments Off

It’s summer. It’s hot. And I know that living in LA isn’t as bad as living in Arizona or Las Vegas, but everyone I know who lives in those places has air conditioning. I don’t have it at my house.

And when you are gone all day working, you come home to a house that is like an oven. Some days, it’s over 90 degrees in my bedroom (I have a thermometer on my alarm clock). And despite my best efforts to cool down my house by opening the windows or using a fan, I seem to still go to bed in a hot room.

It’s difficult to sleep, so I’ve been exhausted the past few days. And since I live in such an old house, the fuses in my house might not be able to handle the power of an air conditioner. I’m looking into getting a box fan that fits in a window, but for now, I’m dealing with it.

One of my least favorite things about the heat (besides always being sweaty), is that my body swells up in the heat. I remember learning that this happens to most people in one of my adventures in eating disorder group therapy. I was in that group for about 3 years, and each summer the therapist would remind us that our clothes might fit a lot tighter during the summer and not to stress about it.

But my pants feel like I’ve gained 50 pounds and it’s hard not to stress about it. Every morning, I’m almost scared to try to put on my jeans. I hate the feeling of them being so tight, because all I can think is that I’m gaining weight. And I can’t even make myself step on the scale. Because all I can think is what if it’s not my body swelling up in the heat but me gaining weight. The thought of going on the scale right now almost brings me to a panic attack.

So for now, I put on my super tight jeans, head to work where fortunately there is air conditioning, and wait for it to cool down a bit.

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