I was prepared for this past week of workouts to be a bit of a bad week, and I was right. I was hoping that I would have at least one good day since Mondays tend to be ok for me, but I really struggled every day. With the nausea I deal with every week, Mondays are the day I don’t usually have it since I do my shot after my workout. But since this past week was also my other type of nausea, it doesn’t follow the pattern that I deal with each week. I still felt better on Monday than I did the rest of the week, but it wasn’t that great of a day for me.
But I am grateful that my workout coaches all know me well enough to understand that when I’m having a bad week, I just have to do what I can. They don’t push my to do more even when they know I probably could do more. When I have to leave the room to be sick, they will check in with me when I come back but they don’t make a big deal about it and just let me continue with what I can do. I’m so lucky that I’m able to have coaches like this. I can’t imagine what it would be like if they made me feel bad about showing up when I can’t do my best. I probably wouldn’t continue with my workouts if that was the case. It’s the same way they handle my hip issues when I’m in pain, and I’ve experienced other workout places where they tried to make my pain a big deal and it really ruined the workout for me. Of course, I wish I didn’t have to deal with any of this, especially since it’s a very regular occurrence. But I also know that I’m in the best situation that I can be for my workouts.
Even with my gratitude for my coaches, it doesn’t make the workouts any easier when I’m having a bad week. And when I’m feeling as nauseous as I did this past week, it’s a fine balance between just doing what I can do and testing my limits. And I had a real challenge with that this past week because one of our workouts was a signature workout. We had Inferno, which is a workout I’ve done a few times before. It’s always a good challenge to do, but when I’m dealing with nausea, it’s almost impossible for me to do what we have to do. The main part of the workout involves getting on and off the rower and doing hops between each row. Getting on and off the rower is hard for me with my hips even on my best days. But doing that plus hopping is impossible when I’m nauseous. As much as I wanted to challenge myself and see how far I could get on the rower, I knew it wouldn’t be a good choice for me to make. So I had to accept that I just couldn’t do it. During the row block, I just rowed as much as I could and then rested when I needed to do so. Since I wasn’t doing the challenge the correct way, I didn’t put my distance in the tracker and I didn’t compare it to how I did with Inferno in the past.
This week, it’s very possible it’s going to be another really bad week for me. I never know in advance with either type of nausea that I have, so maybe I’ll be surprised and it won’t be as bad. And sometimes, when the week before is really horrible for me, the next week isn’t as extreme. But I’m mentally preparing myself for another struggle in my workouts and just doing what I’m able to do. And I’m not going to feel guilty about not having my best week or having to modify things so that I can get through the workout.