Busting Out Of My Comfort Zone (or I Bought Skinny Jeans)

I definitely have a comfort zone. There are a lot of things that I do now because I like how they feel as part of a routine.

I was like this with exercise. For a long time, I really didn’t want to exercise anywhere besides in my house or at Richard Simmons’ studio. These were places that I felt safe exercising. Nobody was going to judge me for my weight (which sadly is something I’ve experienced at 2 different gyms I used to belong to in LA). But I went outside my comfort zone when I saw the free spin class on twitter, and now going to SoulCycle is one of my favorite things to do! I never thought before that I would say a form of exercise is one of my favorite things to do!

I used to hide the fact that I have an eating disorder and credit card debt. I liked that I could hide behind a facade and seem to not have those troubles in my life. But once I stepped outside my comfort zone and admitted those things (essentially to the world), I’ve been able to deal with them much better. I still have debt, but I’m working on paying it down. And I’ll always have my eating disorder, but I don’t feel like it is as out of control and running my life as it used to.

What does all this have to do with me buying skinny jeans? Well, I totally have a comfort zone when it comes to clothes. For a long time, I told myself that it was like that because there are so few options for me. I have my favorite jeans (which seem to be the only jeans that really fit me well), and I love my Old Navy shirts. I wear those items a lot. And at my day job, where I’m on the phone all day and never have to see anyone besides my 5 co-workers, I don’t feel the need to dress nicer.

But I don’t want to look sloppy all the time. There is a time and place for that, but that is not everyday. This upcoming weekend I’m going to San Francisco for my future sister-in-law’s dress fitting. Besides the dress fitting, there are a bunch of other events during the weekend including 2 nice dinners, 2 brunches, a shopping outing, and going to a club. That’s a lot of clothes for a weekend, but I’m willing to figure out how to make it all fit into a carry on.

I recently got some new clothes from one of my favorite store, Kiyonna. I bought 3 new tops (but I think I’m sending one back because I don’t love it in person), and when I tried them on with my favorite jeans, it didn’t look right.

My favorite jeans are bootcut, and when I went back to the Kiyonna website I noticed that they had the model styled in skinny jeans for the tops I bought. So I went to the store that carries my favorite jeans, and they happened to have dark wash skinny jeans in my size (and in petite). It was fate!

I tried them on, and I didn’t love them. They aren’t what I’m used to. But after 3 salesgirls and 6 customers told me how much they loved the jeans on me, I had to trust them and get them.

These jeans are a big break out of my comfort zone. It’s almost harder for me to love these pants than it was for me to love spinning! I’m sorry I didn’t get a picture of me in the pants on here (yet), but I wanted to wash them before I wore them.

I’m planning on bringing the new pants with me to San Francisco this weekend. I’m hoping to wear them for some of the events. I haven’t convinced myself not to also pack my favorite jeans just in case, but I’m hoping that I’ll have the courage to do that before zipping up my suitcase tomorrow.

Pictures to come, I promise!

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