Monthly Archives: December 2019

Looking Back At My 2019 Goals (or I Might Have Forgotten To Work On Some Of These)

I can’t believe that it’s the last day of 2019! I know I’ve been saying this for a few weeks already, but it’s true. Every year seems to be flying by faster than the year before and I still am in shock that this year is over. And part of that shock is the fact that I might have forgotten to work on my goals as much as I usually do. But I did try my best with many of these goals and it’s time to look back at what I set out to do and what I actually accomplished.

I had 2 categories for my goals this year. My normal goals and my Orangetheory goals. Even though I had separate posts for each category, I’m going to do my end of the year wrap up in just one post.

For my normal goals, I wanted to do 200 Orangetheory classes, find a new job, reduce and eliminate recurring spending, work toward living a more minimalistic life, spend my free time in a better way, and take my blog and social media to the next level. I feel like I was 50/50 on these goals.

I will have done 207 Orangetheory classes this year (my last class will be after this post goes up). This was the easiest goal for me and I didn’t question that I would be able to get it done. I also was able to eliminate some of my recurring spending and looked more carefully at what recurring charges I had in my life. There weren’t a lot of things I eliminated, but there were a few things like magazine subscriptions that I wasn’t aware was charging me that I was able to cancel. And I didn’t exactly get into a more minimalistic lifestyle, but I took a lot of steps toward it and I feel so much better about my home and how things are organized here.

While I did do some job hunting, I wasn’t successful in finding a new job. And over the past few months, I haven’t really been working on it the way that I know I need to. My contract for my data entry job did get extended for a few more months, so I do still have a bit of a buffer. But I know that I can’t keep putting this off and I need to get more serious about my job hunting. As far as spending my free time in a better way, I don’t think I really accomplished this. I did end up having less free time this year due to new responsibilities in my life, but I don’t feel like that counts as doing better with my free time. But I have been figuring out better things to do with my time and I hope I can start implementing those soon. And as far as taking my blog and social media to the next level, I took some tiny steps toward this and I know the next big steps I need to do for my social media. But those big steps require some more prep time and I just haven’t been able to do them. But I have found that I might not want to take my blog to the next level the way I used to. It’s something I’m still looking into, but for now, I think taking this year to try to do that made me realize how I don’t necessarily want to.

And for my Orangetheory goals, I wanted to do 200 workouts, use the bike more than the treadmill, get a new PR on the rower, track my work on the floor like I do for cardio and rowing, and bring more friends to class with me. These goals are not quite 50/50, but I actually feel like I was more successful with them.

As I wrote above, I did over 200 classes and it wasn’t that hard for me to do that. I’m still impressed that I have been able to maintain the schedule that I have set for myself. And I can’t believe that a few months ago I did my 1,000th class! And I only used the bike for my cardio work this year. I never stepped on a treadmill and I’m so happy about that. I honestly don’t think I will use the treadmill anymore because I have found I can do much better work on the bike. It’s no longer something I do because I’m nauseous. It’s something that I put energy into doing better with and that is exactly the mindset I wanted to get to when I set this goal.

But for the rest of my Orangetheory goals, I really didn’t accomplish them. I didn’t get any new PRs on the rower, although I did come close. And I only tracked a few of my floor workouts, but I discovered that it just wasn’t easy for me to do it since there is so much variation with what we do on the floor. And while I have talked to so many friends about coming with me to a class, I haven’t quite gotten them to join me. But I know they will soon. But one of the things I wanted to get out of having more friends come to class is to have more friends in a workout with me. While I didn’t get friends into class, I have made more friends in my class. I have more friends in all of my classes so I am working out with more of my friends. But they are friends I made at Orangetheory and not friends I brought into Orangetheory. Technically I didn’t accomplish the goal, but I did accomplish the result I wanted.

Even though I wasn’t really successful in accomplishing about half my goals, I feel like I did way better than that. I think I had set new goals for myself that weren’t ones I set in January, so I’ve been thinking about revamping my annual goals more often. But I’m still debating on that. I’m so proud of what I was able to get done and what I learned when I wasn’t able to get other goals done. And I think all of that will be helping me with my goals I will be setting for myself in 2020!

A Very Weird Workout Week (or Food Poisoning And Holiday Workouts)

This past week of workouts was just a weird one. I knew it would be a weird schedule due to the holiday, but this was even weirder than that. I already mentioned that I had food poisoning last week, and unfortunately it did affect my workouts.

I don’t know what to say about Monday’s workout. Monday was the day I had food poisoning, but I thought I’d try going to my workout to see how I would do. I know I can work through cramps when I have to, but these cramps were very different. But it was worth trying to see what would happen and I told myself that I could leave if I had to.

And for the first time that I could remember, I actually left a workout. I made it 20 minutes in class before the pain was too much for me and I knew I couldn’t do it anymore. All I had done in the workout was be on the bike, but I don’t think I biked for more than 7 or 8 minutes combined because I pedaled for maybe 30 seconds before I had to stop. I hated having to leave, but I knew that there was no way I could make it any longer in class and I was proud of myself for at least trying.

I was still a bit weak feeling on Tuesday, but I was significantly better than I had been doing on Monday (sleeping for about 12 hours during the day helped). I’m glad I was doing better because I really didn’t want to miss Tuesday’s class. I love working out on Christmas Eve and I was excited to take the class! And as an added bonus, we had a sub coach. While I love all the OTF coaches, I’ve had almost all my Christmas Eve workouts with Coach Bruce. And by some miracle, he ended up being the sub coach for this class! It was like it was meant to be!

The Christmas Eve workout is called Presents or Coal. We draw different cards that tell us what to do for our workout assignment. Some of them are easy (the Presents) and some of them are hard (the Coal). I feel like I usually get Coal when I do these, but I was ready for them. And before we got to that part of the workout, we had a quick tornado around the room with 3-minute blocks.

The cardio block was a 90-second push pace, 45-second base pace, and 45-second all out. The rowing block was a 300-meter row, squats, a 150-meter row, and more squats. And on the floor, we had goblet squats and tricep extensions with weights. And then the rest of the class was split into 10-minute blocks with 1 block at each section of the room.

For cardio, I had a mix of Coal and Presents cards. But none of them were that bad. I had 30-second intervals and distance challenges. I don’t remember the specifics of what I had to do (I should have taken notes), but I remember all of the cards being somewhat similar and never taking too long. I think I had 4 different cards for cardio. On the rower, all of the cards I pulled were Presents. I had 300-meter rows as my longest row. I also drew a card with intervals with squats between each row. But just like with cardio, I don’t remember the specifics but I do remember I drew 3 cards and they all took me about 3 minutes to complete.

On the floor, the cards told us how many of the exercises we had to do and how many reps we had. The exercises were hip hinge swings with weights, lunges, rollouts, and knee tucks. And on the floor, I drew the same card both times I had to get one. It was a Coal card and it said to do all the exercises with 12 reps each. I was starting to get a bit tired on the floor (and I think the weakness of recovering from food poisoning was catching up with me), so I was moving a bit slow. But I just focused on doing each rep as I could and taking breaks when necessary. I was just finishing up my second round of 12 reps when class was done.

I think after feeling so horrible about leaving class on Monday, the Tuesday class was exactly what I needed. I was feeling much better about myself and I needed that. Plus, I got to add to my amazing photo collage of taking Christmas Eve classes with Coach Bruce (we only missed doing class together last year).

I was finally feeling like myself again on Friday. Plus, I was craving a workout since I had 2 days off in a row which doesn’t happen that often. Even though I was excited about the workout, it ended up being a tough one and I did have a few struggles.

The workout was a mix of endurance and power. For cardio, we had a run/walk (or bike/bike slower) assignment that we did at our own pace. The longest distance we had to do was done just once and then we had 30 seconds to walk/recover. Then we had a slightly shorter distance that we did twice with the 30 seconds of recovery between each round. The third distance was slightly less and it was done 3 times. I was working on that third distance when the block ended and we switched to the rowers.

The rowers and the floor both had 5 blocks that got longer for each block. For the rower, the first row was a 100-meter row and then we did frogger squats until the block ended. We had to remember how many squats we did because we used that for the rest of the blocks. Each block, the row went up by 50 meters and we did the same number of frogger squats we did in the first block. Once we finished those, we had to hold a squat until the block ended. I always made it to holding a squat at the end, but I usually only had to do it for about 30 seconds. But all those squats were tough on my hips.

The floor was similar to the row. But instead of having longer rows we had add on exercises. The first block had neutral full thrusters and then sit-ups until the block was done. We had to remember how many sit-ups we did to use that for the rest of the blocks. Each block we added on another exercise and then did the sit-ups and held a plank until the block ended. The other exercises were hip hinge low rows, lateral lunges with a goblet hold, pulsing half squats, and tricep extensions. Even though there was a bit more upper body work, it still was a lot of lower body work and my hips were having a rough time.

Saturday’s workout was a strength day and we had some switching between blocks. Every block was about 6 minutes long and we did 2 blocks at each section of the room.

For cardio, we had shorter intervals and alternated doing push paces and base paces with incline work. The goal is to make the incline work feel the same as a push pace. For me on the bike, this is a bit harder to do because I’m not really using the resistance levels for push paces but I do use them for incline work. Also, I think I might have gone a bit too hard with the resistance levels for the inclines because my legs weren’t moving that much. But at least my heart rate got up really high while I was doing it.

On the rower, all the work we had for both blocks were stroke drills. We always had 15 strokes on the rower and the goal was to go slowly and keep the stroke rate down. For these drills, I’m pretty good at keeping the rate really low. I was much lower than the goals we were given. But I think that makes the rowing harder because my core is involved for a much longer time. In the first block between each row, we had squats with overhead presses using a medicine ball. And in the second block, we had squats with front presses using the medicine ball.

And on the floor, both blocks only had 2 exercises. The first block had bicep curls with weights and leg raises. And the second block had tricep extensions with weights and low rows on the straps. The goal with strength days is to go heavy on the weights, and I did just that. For the weight work, we had a range for the reps and we were supposed to do between 6-10 reps. If you can’t do 6 reps the weight is too heavy and if you can easily do 10 reps it is too light. I was doing either 7 or 8 reps each time, so I think I was using the perfect weights.

Even though this past week started with me having to leave a workout in the middle of it, I feel like it ended really well. I feel much better about having to leave the workout now that I’ve had other good workouts this week. But I also know that I hope that I never have to do that again. Only a few more workouts left in 2019 before I start working on my 2020 goals!

Reflecting On My 2019 Word (or Did I Trust Enough Or Too Much?)

With the year wrapping up, it’s time to look back at what goals and ideas I had at the beginning of the year. My next few posts will be covering different aspects of this and I was debating about what I wanted to start with for the past few days. But I decided that I wanted to start with my word for 2019.

As a reminder, my word for the year was “Trust“. This was an important word for me to choose for so many reasons. My main focus was that I wanted to be able to put more trust in others because I knew I had closed myself off. I also knew that I wasn’t always thinking the best of people and I hated that I didn’t have that as a mindset anymore. But I also wanted to work on trusting myself and what will come. So much of that needed trust was about what others thought of me or saw in me. I wanted to trust that I was worth it, even if I struggled with that thought.

This ended up being the perfect word for me for this past year because I had to put a lot of trust into many different people and situations. And for the most part, I would say this was a positive experience for me. I was able to have belief in friends that I might not have given them before. If someone said they would confirm something with me later, I didn’t stress too much about it wondering if they forgot about me. Of course, I wasn’t perfect with this and I did sometimes worry that I was forgotten, but I decided that I could wait the situation out before automatically thinking that I couldn’t trust or believe them to do it.

I also had some trust in my job situation and while it hasn’t gotten to a place I want it to be, it’s much better. I feel much more secure in my main day job and I think I’m in an ok place with the other job. I will be refocusing my job hunt again starting next month, but I don’t stress as much as I did before with all the issues I’ve encountered with work. Even with my customers making complaints about things that are out of my control, I am able to trust that my bosses know what is really happening and that my job isn’t at risk.

But the biggest place that I knew I wanted to put more trust in my life is with dating. I wanted to believe that I could trust someone with my feelings and that I didn’t have to always be on guard. And there were several times that I was able to be open and comfortable when I don’t think I would have been that way before. It never worked out the way that I wanted it to, but it wasn’t always bad. When I was open and honest with someone and they tell me that they don’t want to see me again, it hurts but I also don’t have regrets because I know that I was my real self. And putting that little bit of trust in others was necessary for me to be fully in my date and not putting on an act or hiding too much of myself.

But as I expected it might happen, putting this trust in my dating life did also backfire at times. I gave people trust who didn’t deserve it. Or I gave them more trust than I should have and I needed to be a bit more protective of myself. I allowed a few guys to take that trust and use it against me. And it hurt a lot when that happened. I wish I hadn’t allowed myself to trust that way and it made me question if I was being too naive or letting someone take advantage of me. But I have realized that these guys were going to betray me no matter how much or how little trust I gave them. I had blinders to who they really were and that wasn’t necessarily my fault. They only showed me one part of themselves and I gave them that trust based on that. And while I do regret giving them that trust and faith, I also know that if I hadn’t done so that they still would have done the same things that hurt me and I probably would feel the same.

Looking back at the past year, I do think I put more trust out in my life and that it was a worthwhile thing to do. I think I needed to do this to find new boundaries and ideas with myself and how I think of others. Even with the few regrets I had, I know they have made me a better and stronger person and has allowed me to see how I can put trust out there without putting my emotions at risk. This was something I needed and I think that it made the year better for me. And I know these lessons are ones that I will continue to do in 2020.

I won’t be revealing my word for 2020 for about another week, but I have to say that having “Trust” as my word this year helped guide me to my word next year. I love it when these words of the year connect and help continue my journey. It just feels so perfect and meant to be.

Another Small Upgrade (or Making Things Easier To Watch)

I try not to always splurge on the latest and greatest technology. I’m usually the person who keeps something as long as possible, even when it gets a bit outdated. I’m always having friends making fun of me for my phone because it’s so small (the reason I haven’t upgraded my phone is that I like a small phone). The only time I got something brand new as soon as it came out was my laptop, but that was something I had been waiting on for a while.

Besides my phone being a bit outdated, the other thing I have that wasn’t close to being the most recent version was my AppleTV. I got my AppleTV years ago so I could watch Netflix and Hulu on my TV. I know there are cheaper devices I could have gotten that could have accomplished the same thing, but I liked how the AppleTV worked with things I had in my iTunes account and it was worth the splurge. And I’ve been enjoying it for years (almost 9 years to be exact) even though there were features that people were able to enjoy that I couldn’t because my device was so old.

There were lots of things that I was ok with missing out on, but this year it got a bit much and I realized that I should just upgrade it. I think the final straw was when I realized I couldn’t watch Disney+ because I couldn’t access the app. I debated about getting a different device, but there were a few things that were only able to be accessed with an Apple device (like lots of movies and apps that I had things on). So getting a new AppleTV was the best option for me. I didn’t feel like braving the Apple Store so close to Christmas, but fortunately, Target had some in stock and there wasn’t a huge crowd when I happened to be passing by. I was in and out of the store in under 10 minutes with my new toy in my hands!

I’ve actually been enjoying this more than I was expecting! Obviously I’ve been able to take advantage of downloading different apps so I can watch things from different systems. I also can access my digital screeners for the SAG Awards on it so I don’t have to watch on my laptop. I spent more time than I probably should have this week with my time off watching screeners, Disney+, and all other streaming services. But I was also recovering from food poisoning and my plans were already to spend a lot of time watching shows.

This wasn’t the cheapest upgrade, but it wasn’t too horrible either. I didn’t get the most expensive version since I didn’t need all that it had to offer. And I figure that since I enjoyed the last one for almost 9 years that hopefully I could do the same for this one as well. And if the cost is spread over 9 years (or even 5 years), it’s not bad at all. And it does bring me a lot of happiness and makes it feel like I did a big upgrade in my house. And having that upgrade did inspire me a bit to spend even more time working on cleaning up my space and making it even better for sitting on the couch and watching movies. So having something I bought motivate me to do something I have been putting off a bit is another added bonus.

Of course, I don’t want to get into a place where I spent more time sitting and watching shows because I can finally access them on my tv. I think this week was a weird one since I had so much time off and could actually be lazy like this. When I’m in my normal schedule, I don’t think I will prioritize watching stuff on my tv over what I need to do. Of course, if I notice that I’m starting to do that I’ll have to take action and get back on track. But for now, I’m really just enjoying being able to watch things I’ve been wanting to watch and have something that feels a little fancy in my house.

Merry Christmas! (or I’m Good With Whatever Happens Today)

I hope that you all are having an amazing Christmas doing whatever you usually do. I know most people celebrate Christmas and I love seeing all the fun traditions that my friends have. But for me, I’m usually spending the day solo.

I don’t mind being alone on Christmas. For me, it’s not really a holiday that I celebrate. I just like having a day off of work and a day that I can do whatever I want to do. And usually, that includes watching movies and eating Chinese food. And that’s the plan for today.

I don’t know how much else I’ll be doing because I’m still recovering a bit from having food poisoning, but I am so much better than I was on Monday. I’m just feeling a little weak and dehydrated. So I’ve been working on fixing that.

I’ve invited friends to come over if they don’t have other things to do, but I don’t know if anyone will be coming by. And if I spend today alone or I spend the day with a ton of friends, I’m fine either way. I’m sure this sounds weird, but Christmas doesn’t really mean much to me. So whatever I do is what happens and I know that tomorrow I’ll have work and a bit more of my normal life.

I know this is 2 short posts in a row and there’s a chance that the post tomorrow will be short too. But I hope that you all are doing something fun and not spending time reading my blog!

I Guess It’s Good I Have Time Off (or My Body Never Goes Easy On Me)

I’m sorry in advance that this is going to be a shorter post. But hopefully you all understand.

Because of the timing of the holidays this year, I have several days off from work. It’s the longest break I’ve had in a while and I wasn’t sure what I was going to do with my time. I knew I wanted to relax a bit and catch up on some fun things, but it looks like my body had a different idea with how to start things off.

I don’t know exactly what caused this, but it looks like something I ate on Sunday gave me food poisoning. I woke up on Monday, I had very intense stomach cramps. These were similar to the cramps I usually get from my period, but they were much higher up in my body. I’m grateful that they didn’t cause nausea, but they were extremely painful. My body was almost going numb when the pain was the most intense. I tried my best to have a normal Monday (since that’s normally my day off), but it was impossible. I spent almost the entire day sleeping and trying to get through the pain.

I think whatever caused the food poisoning has worked its way out of my system or isn’t affecting me anymore, but I’m still feeling a bit weak. I’m going to spend today continuing to try to recover and I’m hoping that by tomorrow I’ll feel fine. But I know based on how I usually have to deal with pain that I just have to be gentle with myself and do what I need to do. But I’m optimistic that I got over this food poisoning and I’ll be myself by the end of today.

I guess I just need to be grateful that I have today off work as well and have tomorrow free in case I need that time to recover. And I’m glad I didn’t make any big plans for having so many days off because I would hate it if I had to cancel plans or feel like this on a trip. So I guess sometimes these extra days off come right when I need them.

Last Regular Workout Week Of 2019 (or Still Pushing Through)

This past week of workouts was my last workout week with my normal schedule for this year. Because of the holidays, I have slightly different workout weeks this week and next. But I’m excited about those weeks with different schedules, so it should be fun. But this past week, it wasn’t quite as good as those should be. I just had to do what I could and push through when I could.

Monday’s workout was a strength-based class. I was dealing with my normal pain and nausea so I knew it would be a bit tough for me no matter what the workout was. So I tried to do my best to follow the workout but I made changes where I needed to. It was also a switch class, so we had 3 blocks for cardio and 3 blocks on the floor and we switched after each one.

For cardio, all 3 blocks had a similar pattern. We had a 2-minute push pace, a base pace, a base pace with incline, a regular base pace, and we ended with an all out at an incline. The base pace with incline got shorter each block, but the incline went up each block to make up for it. But for me, I used the same higher resistance level on the bike each time we were supposed to be at an incline. It was a high resistance level, but it was easier for me to keep it the same. I really tried to do my best each block to keep going, but I had to take a lot of breaks to let either the nausea or the pain subside. It was frustrating, but I also know that I did my best.

For each of the 3 floor blocks, we started with a 1-minute row. The goal for each of the rows was to be within a certain stroke rate. I lucked out because they were around my normal stroke rate, but I know they were slower than what most people do. Then for each block, we had 1 exercise with a drop set (when you do a lower number of reps with a higher weight and then immediately do a higher number of reps with a lower weight) and one core exercise. The drop set exercises were hip hinge low rows, pullovers, and bicep curls. And the core work was double crunches, seated torso rotations, and plank work. I had to modify the plank work, but besides that, I was able to do all the exercises without modifications.

Wednesday’s workout was a mix of endurance, strength, and power and I was finally starting to feel a bit better so that was good. We had 3 blocks in each section of the room. We had a 5-minute block, a 4-minute block, and a 3-minute block. But we didn’t switch between blocks so we did all 3 blocks in one section back to back.

For cardio, we had a push pace, base pace, push pace, and all out. The base and all out were always 1 minute long. The push paces started at 90 seconds and went down 30 seconds each block. I had a few moments when I had to take a break to let the pain or nausea end, but I was able to do a lot more work than I could on Monday. I didn’t do anything with the resistance levels on the bike, but I did focus on my pedaling speed.

For the rower, each block had 1 row and then we had medicine ball exercises. The first block was 750-meters, the second block was 500-meters, and the last block was 250-meters. The goal with the rowing was to keep our strokes per minute the same with each row. It’s not easy to go as slowly as you did with a long row when you do a sprint row. But it was a good challenge and I liked to see what my speed naturally was with each distance and adjust it from there. The medicine ball exercises were things I couldn’t do, so I modified them to be squats with overhead presses. And we did the medicine ball work after each row until the block was done (so we were on the rower just once per block).

And the floor had a mix of strength and core work. The first block had all weight work. We had deadlifts, overhead tricep extensions, and upright rows. Then the next block had one round of the weight work again and then the rest of the block was Bosu work. We were supposed to do bicycles, crunches, and single-leg v-ups on the Bosu. But my body just wasn’t letting me do those exercises. So I did sit-ups, crunches, and then tried to do a different type of crunch to get a third exercise in. And for the last block, we only had the Bosu work, so I continued doing my modified core work. Toward the end of that last floor block, I was starting to get a little nauseous, but I think I was leaning back too far with the sit-ups and that was the cause and it wasn’t my normal nausea.

Friday’s workout was a strength-based class, and I was almost back to my normal self so I could do a lot more. I knew that I would still have to be a bit cautious about how hard I pushed myself, but I could do more than I had done earlier in the week.

The cardio had 2 blocks. Both blocks had a push pace, a base pace, hill work, a base pace, and an all out. I kept my resistance level at my base level (I really should probably stop calling it a base level since I use it so much) and then I went higher than what I used to do for my all out level for the hill work. When we were doing the hill work, I really did slow down a lot with how fast I could pedal but I think that is to be expected. And it was nice to have the other work without hills so I could go faster and feel like I’m doing more.

On the rower, we started with a 90-second row with the focus being on staying within 22-24 strokes per minute. Then we were supposed to have squats with leg lifts and calf raises using the medicine ball. I had to skip the leg lifts, but I was able to do the squats and calf raises. Then we were back on the rower and we were supposed to repeat what we just did, but decrease the row by 50 meters each time. I made things a bit easier on myself by rounding up the number on the rower so I could keep track, but I figured that way I was also doing a bit more work than necessary.

And on the floor, the first block was a mini-band block. We had walking side squats, bench tap squats, and hip raises with the mini-bands. The walking side squats were very difficult on my hips, so I had to go very slowly and take small steps. But I managed to get through them. And the second block didn’t have any mini-band work. We had side lunges while holding weights and full sit-ups.

Saturday’s workout was called Ellen’s Workout and it was named after Ellen Latham who is the founder of Orangetheory. She designed this workout to be the best representation of what Orangetheory is all about. And I really loved this class!

For cardio, we had 2 blocks. The first block was coached with lots of 1-minute intervals and a few 75-second intervals. It was mainly push to base paces with an all out at the end. After doing those intervals, then we had another block where we paced ourselves. We had rounds of .1 miles on the treadmill (or .4 on the bike) and then 30 seconds of recovery. For me, that was just under a minute of pushing myself and then 30 seconds to recover. They were intervals that I’m very comfortable with and feel like I can do well.

Then on the rower, we started with a 1000-meter row. After that, we were supposed to do lunges but I did squats instead. Then we had 3 rounds of doing 200-meter rows with the exercise between each row. And we finished the rowing with another 1000-meter row. I was working on that second 1000-meter row when the block ended and we switched to the floor.

The floor also had 2 blocks. The first block had single-leg squats (which I had to modify and do as regular squats), overhead presses with rotations with weights, bird dogs, and v-ups while using the Bosu (which I had to modify and do as full sit-ups). And the second block had lateral lunges with weights and front raises with weights while kneeling on the Bosu. When this workout was done, I really felt awesome! It was the best I had felt all week and I thought the workout was really good!

I’m excited for this week of workouts. I know we should have some holiday-themed classes this week and next, and I love those themed classes. And I’m excited to see if I can accomplish anything else amazing before the year is up!

Being Upset With Customer Service (or Trying Not To Be The Type Of Customer I Hate)

Because I work in customer service, I am very aware of how hard it can be to help customers. I also am very aware of how customers can blame me when I can’t help them with something that someone higher up needs to handle. I get the frustration on their end when I keep saying I can’t do anything besides getting the issue sent to someone higher up. And I’m frustrated too because I hate not being able to help people.

Since I am so aware of all that, I try to not be the type of customer I hate because I know that it will not accomplish anything. But there are times where sometimes I get that way and I do hate myself for it. And the other day, I had just that issue.

I ordered something online and had the option to pay an extra $9 for same-day delivery. The other option was free delivery, but it could take up to 5 days. It was something I wanted and I decided the extra $9 was worth it. I placed the order at 1 pm and it said it was guaranteed to be delivered by 4 pm. It was going to be picked up from the store by Postmates (I didn’t realize they delivered more than food) so I wasn’t waiting on a delivery truck to show up. I watched the tracking information and saw that it went from in process to waiting to be picked up, so it seemed like everything was going as expected.

By 5 pm, it was still showing that it was waiting to be picked up and I was wondering what happened. So I reached out to the company on their online chat customer service and they confirmed that Postmates had not arrived yet to pick it up and they offered to refund the $9 I paid for same-day delivery. They then told me that if it was not delivered today and it would be updated with delivery for tomorrow and everything would be fine. I assumed this was accurate since that’s the case for anything that is delivered late.

The next day, I went online to see if my order was updated and it looked really weird. So I went back to their customer service chat system to try to get an update. And they told me that my order was canceled since it was not able to be delivered on time. I was actually so surprised by this answer that they had to explain it again to me. Basically, if you pay for same-day delivery and there is any reason why it can’t be delivered, they automatically cancel your order without notifying you. They will not attempt to have it delivered any other day and they don’t say anything. Even in the shipping options, there was no explanation saying it would automatically be canceled for me. And from being someone who is a stickler for reading all the rules and policies, this really ticked me off.

I will admit that I got very short and a bit rude with the person who was on the other end of the customer service chat. I asked if there was a way to automatically redo the order instead of waiting for the refund to be processed (which won’t be done until the end of next week or the beginning of the week after). They said there was nothing they could do and all I could do would be to place a new order. I won’t be ordering it again from that company because they couldn’t promise that it would be delivered even if I didn’t select same-day delivery. All they could tell me was that if they cannot deliver it on time they will cancel it. And they did agree that there was no way for me to know that this was the policy and that it is not anywhere on their website. But that doesn’t correct the issue.

I was hoping they would maybe offer me a small discount to try to keep me as a customer or to make up for this happening, but they didn’t. I asked if they could offer one, and they said they couldn’t and the only person would be able to do so could contact me but there is currently an 8 day wait. This is a major company that I ordered from so this was surprising, but I decided to get myself on the list to be contacted. I won’t be ordering this item from them again (and will only do orders in stores from now on), but if nothing else they should know that it is not right to cancel orders without letting a customer know or explaining the risks of choosing to have something delivered from them.

At the end of my customer service chat, I did apologize to the person who was helping me. I knew that I wasn’t being a good customer and it wasn’t their fault. And they did agree with me quite a bit that I was in the right and it was wrong that this happened. Hopefully, I redeemed myself a bit at the end of the chat and the person helping me didn’t think I was as horrible as I was acting before.

I guess every so often I am a bad customer and this is why I get bad customers at my job. It’s a way to balance things out.

How Is This Month/Year/Decade Almost Over? (or I Think Everyone Is Shocked It’s Almost January)

When I set my monthly challenge for this month, I knew it was exactly what I needed to do. I wanted to get myself in the best spot possible to get ready for the new year. While I know that the new year doesn’t have to mean anything special, I did want to use it as a deadline to get some things set up. And I like having the new year start off with new goals and everything ready for me to work on those goals. And when I set that challenge, I had every intention to spend time every day working toward that idea and being productive.

And I have been doing little things almost every day and have been getting things set up in my life to make sure that I make the most of my time during work and when I have free time. And somehow I thought I was more ahead of things than I actually was because I didn’t realize how close the month is to being over! And from what so many of my friends have been saying, I think that everyone was surprised to realize that we are over halfway through this month and it’s almost Christmas.

I’m guessing a part of this is because of how late Thanksgiving was this year, and maybe another part is how quickly time seems to go by. But I honestly was shocked when I paid attention to how many days left I had to mail holiday cards before Christmas. I had ordered my cards but hadn’t worked on them because I figured I would have plenty of time to get them done. But I finally realized yesterday that if I didn’t get them done and in the mail today or tomorrow that they won’t necessarily make it in time. I did holiday postcards again because they are easier so I should be able to get everything done in one day. But I hate that I am rushed to get this done when I could have taken my time.

I think another thing that makes this month seem over a lot sooner is the fact that I have several days off next week. My job doesn’t give us much time off for holidays, and most holidays seem to fall on Mondays when we already have time off. But this year, it’s one of the best setups for maximizing days off. I will have no work from when I’m done with my half shift this Saturday (which is my normal Saturday shift) until work starts on Thursday. I can’t remember the last time I had that many days off in a row. I didn’t realize I had that much time off until earlier this month so I didn’t make any plans to do anything. They will probably end up being very lazy days at home, but that’s fine with me. But not having those days feel like normal days also limits how much time is left this month.

I know that I won’t be completely slacking off on all my days off. I will still have lots of things I need to do and I want to get done. But I also know that there will be lots of time to read or watch some SAG Awards screeners. And in a way, doing that will feel like catching up on work or being productive since they are things I want to get done. I just ordered a new AppleTV (my current one is about 7 years old and isn’t really working correctly anymore), so watching the screeners should be easier than in the past because I hopefully can watch them on my tv.

I still have a bit of time left this month, but I’m just shocked how much time has already gone by without me getting as much done as I thought I would. I’m trying to make that motivate me to get going and not to be upset about what hasn’t happened. And hopefully by the time this month is over and I’m doing my recap of my challenge as well as how I did on my goals for the year, I will have a lot of things done and will feel as ready to go with a new month, year, and decade.

Feeling Useful Feels Good (or I Need To Be Productive)

I’ve written a lot about being bored or not being productive in my life. I have had a lot of issues with being productive while working since I don’t have to focus on my work all the time. I have done some things to cure my boredom that I know are very unproductive like watching a lot of random things on YouTube. It’s not easy for me to find things to do between customers at work because they need to be things that are easy to stop doing and pick back up where I left off.

That’s why the other job I’ve been doing has been good for me. It’s a lot of data entry or online searching so it’s easy to put the browser window that I’m working on behind my customer service browser when I have a customer. And I’ve been able to do that work most days in the past week or so because there was a new task to start on. This contract hasn’t been as steady as my past ones were because the work is a bit in flux. But I did just sign a new contract to extend this one for another few months (there were several delays in my work and there was no way to finish the hours by the end of the year).

Obviously, having my other job to do it most than just a good way to spend my time between my customers because I do need that income, but I love that it helps me stay focused on doing good things when I’m stuck at my computer for so many hours a day. And for both the income and the work, I hope that there will be another contract for me to sign when the extension for this current contract is up.

But I also have discovered that being productive is something I crave other times of the day. When I’m dealing with a lot of pain and nausea (like I am right now), I don’t really leave my house much. If there’s something I have to go to, I’ll do it. But if I can push something to another day I usually will. All I want to do is stay home and be in comfortable clothes and get through the discomfort the best I can. And when there is a lot of tv to catch up on, I admit that I spend a lot of that time at home watching things on my DVR. But when there aren’t new episodes to watch, I don’t want to be mindlessly going through different streaming services to find something to entertain me.

It’s not easy to find something to keep me busy when I feel as badly as I do right now, but whenever I find something it really does improve my mood. If someone asks me to help them with research online or another task I can do, I feel so accomplished when it’s completed. I don’t forget about how I feel, but it can be a good distraction. And when it’s something that I can pause when the pain and nausea get too bad to focus, even better.

Lately, I’ve been doing lots of random tasks around my house during that downtime. I have gotten a lot of organizing done (I still have a lot to do, but it’s a work in progress). And the holiday cards that I ordered a while ago finally arrived at my house (they were lost in shipping and had to be resent to me which delayed them a lot). So I have about 50 cards to write and address. I can’t put off getting stamps for them as long as I’d like since I need them to be in the mail soon, but I have to finish doing the cards before I go to the post office. So writing those will likely be my afternoon and evening work for today and tomorrow.

I won’t have much busywork to do next week and I have even more downtime because of the holiday schedule. But I think when it’s the holidays I can be lazy and not feel as bad about it. I do want to have a few tasks on my to-do list that I can work on just in case I feel the need to get something done. And if I don’t get everything done, then I can just work on them between customers when I don’t have the other job to do or after work if I don’t have anything planned.

I’m not going to wish that I was busier because I know that can backfire. But it is nice to know that I’m being helpful or productive when I know that it’s easy to be lazy. And that feeling of accomplishment when I’m not feeling overwhelmed is really great and I want to find more ways to get to that point.