I’ve written about getting my hair done a lot on here. And it’s something that I really do feel is not just about looking good. I see it as something routine, almost like teeth cleaning. I know I could go without getting my hair done and I had to do that at the beginning of the pandemic when I was just coloring my roots at home alone. My hair got pretty stringy while I couldn’t get it cut and I wasn’t going to cut it myself. But now, I’m back to regular appointments to get my hair done, and it really is a nice routine to have.
My hair has been the same for a while, and I am debating about doing some changes in the near future. I need to get new headshots done, so it’s best to do a change right before a shoot so my new headshots would reflect the new look. I don’t think I would change up my look too much because I do like how my hair is, but maybe I should change up some of the styling or do a slightly different color.
But there is a change I’m planning for my hair that I’m excited about. And it will serve a few different purposes. I’m looking into getting a hair topper. This isn’t exactly like getting a wig (which I have debated about before). But this will be just covering the top of my hair so I will need to make sure it matches my own hair. So if I’m changing up the cut or color, I will need to do that first and then buy it so I can match the new look. But the ones I’m looking at are real hair, so they should be able to be dyed to match.
My hair has been thinning since I was a teenager. I have alopecia, so I have a history of losing sections of my hair. In the past, it’s been concentrated in certain areas so I had bald spots. More often now, it’s just overall hair loss. I don’t know if I’ll eventually lose all of my hair, but it is a possibility. But because of how much I’m losing and since it is all over, my hair looks really thin. I know that it bothers me more than others likely notice, but having a topper will help to cover up how thin my hair is and it will look thicker without having to do something damaging like extensions. Also, this will help to cover up my gray hair as it grows in between hair appointments. Just like the thin hair, I am sure I notice my grays more than anyone else does, but I don’t like seeing them. And because I can’t always dye my hair, there are always a few weeks that they seem really noticeable to me. So if you aren’t seeing the top of my hair, you won’t see the gray growth as it comes in.
Because I want to get a human hair topper and I want to get one that is going to last, it’s not cheap. I don’t need this right now, so I am going to work on saving up for it and make sure I can pay for it in full from my credit card when I order. But I will be spending a lot instead of going cheap because I know that having human hair will be better than synthetic and it will be easier to make changes so it blends in nicely with my own hair. I also want one that will work even if my hair loss gets a bit worse. I know if it gets really bad, I would need a wig instead. But having a good topper should be able to cover any bald spots I get and thinning as it might get worse. I know this might not be a forever solution, but I’m looking for something long-term.
I know getting a topper will make my hair look different since it will look fuller, but I want to decide before my next appointment if I’m going to do a bigger change so I can be prepared to order the topper as soon as I have saved up for it. And yes, I’m aware of how superficial this might sound and how silly it is, but for me, it is a big deal. There are a lot of things that I’m self-conscious about and a lot of them can’t be changed that easily. This is one that should be simple to fix and not take a lot of time or an insane amount of money. And hopefully, not feeling self-conscious about my hair will just be one thing off of my mind so I can focus on other things.