Being Defined (or How I Was Inspired By Ben Affleck)

This week was Barbara Walters’ “10 Most Fascinating People” show.

I didn’t care for too many of the people on it. Did Honey Boo Boo really need to be on that list? Seriously. I didn’t find her or her family fascinating at all. And their show was practically unwatchable for me. Also, I fast forwarded through the part with One Direction. Maybe it’s because I’m not a 13-year-old girl, but I didn’t feel the need to hear what they had to say (although when I was a teenager, I loved *NSYNC and would have been glued to the tv for their interview).

The interviews with Hillary Clinton and Chris Christie were interesting to watch. And even though I disagreed that David Petraeus was the most fascinating person of 2012, I agree that he was definitely in the top 10.

My favorite interview was Ben Affleck. I think he has done some amazing things in his career. Yes he was a paparazzi fixture for a while, but he’s also become an amazing director (and he’s an Academy Award winner).

In his interview, he discussed the path that his career has taken and has admitted that he’s been in some pretty bad movies. But then he said that he believes that a person is defined by the way they rise and not the way the fall.

I had to pause my DVR for a second after he said that because it was exactly what I needed to hear at that moment. The past few post have been a bit negative, and I’m sorry for that. I’ve been focused too much on how I have fallen. Even though I haven’t risen yet (and am able to focus on that), I should focus on the steps I’m going to take to get myself back up.

I know that if I ever make it big, it will come out that I have an eating disorder. And if I am skinny (or skinnier) when I make it big, photos of me at my heaviest will come out. But I will have nothing to be embarrassed about. This is just a part in my journey. And hopefully people will admire me for overcoming either my eating disorder, obesity, or both.

Thanks Ben Affleck for inspiring me. For that, I forgive you for all the bad movies that you’ve made. Although I will say that “Jersey Girl” isn’t nearly as bad as most people think.


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